Chapter 17

Chapter 17


"Because I hated seeing you with him. Brandon is everything I'm not. He's popular, smart, well-behaved, and a straight-A student. He can give you everything I can't. He can give you a future and a bright future. You are so innocent and pure and you deserve someone like him. I'm not good enough for you." He admitted.

"Ryan...I..." I tried to speak but he interrupted me.

"I'm not a good guy, Liam. I have done some pretty bad things. I've been in and out of jail. I'm struggling with college and I have a reputation for being a playboy." He stated.

Ryan stood up and walked towards the window. He kept his back facing me.

"You deserve better than me, Liam. You deserve the world. I can't give you that. That's why I wanted to get you away from me. But I can't. You've been haunting me and it's driving me crazy." He confessed.

"Ryan,don't say that." I said.

"No, listen. It's the truth. When I'm with you, you make me feel things I've never felt before. You bring out a different side of me. A better side. When I'm with you, all I want is to make you happy. I'm a player, but when it comes to you, I can't bring myself to play any games." He told me.

He turned to face me. His arms were crossed over his tattooed chest and his eyes were filled with desire.

"But at the same time, Liam. I know I'm bad for you. Jason is right. You should stay away from me." He said.

My mind was blank. I didn't know what to say. All I could think of was the words that were coming out of his mouth.Ryan was confessing to me. He was opening his heart to me. And I was speechless. I had never seen this side of him. This vulnerable side.
I had never imagined that a guy like Ryan could say these words to me. It was surreal.

"Ryan, I...I don't know what to say."

He didn't respond. Instead, he came back and sat beside me.

"It's okay. You don't have to say anything. Just let me do this." He whispered.

He reached for the covers and pulled them down, exposing my bare body.

"Wha...What are you doing, Ryan?" I exclaimed, my face turning red.

He didn't speak. Instead, he pushed me on the bed and hovered above me.

"I want you, Liam. More than you could ever imagine. And if you let me, I'll make you mine." He said, his voice low and seductive.

He brought his mouth to my ear and kissed the side of my neck.

I moaned.

"Liam" He murmured.

I could feel his erection growing.

"Tell me you want me too, Liam. Tell me." He begged, his hand moving up and down my body.

I didn't speak.

"Please." He pleaded. His hand rested on my thigh.

"Jason." I gasped.

He cupped my breast and rubbed my n!pple.

"Tell me, Liam." He urged.

"Ryan" I cried. I was confused. So confused.

Part of me wanted to push him away, but another part of me wanted him to continue. This was so hard. So damn hard. I understood everything he had said. Ryan was dangerous. He was trouble. He was a bad boy. His reputation and history were proof. The best thing for me would be to stay away. The best thing would be for me to push him away and leave. But there was a problem. I wanted him and I wanted him badly. I didn't want to admit it, but I was crazy about him. I couldn't stop myself from wanting him. My body was craving his touch and I couldn't control it.

He made me feel things, I haven't felt before. He made me feel alive. And when I was with him, all the bad stuff just seemed to fade away. I had fallen for him. I was madly, crazily, and hopelessly in love with him. I had tried so hard to deny my feelings, but there was no use. The truth was, I didn't care if he had a bad reputation. The truth was, I didn't care about his past or his mistakes. I didn't care about the fact that he was a player or that he was in and out of jail. All I cared about was how much he was making me feel right now.

"Ryan, I want you." I replied. I looked up into his eyes. My hand caressed his cheek. I trailed my finger up and down his jaw.

Fck was he hot. So damn hot.

Ryan was ontop of me and I was enthralled by how perfect his face was. No wonder he had ladies falling for him left and right. He was gorgeous.

"I want you." I repeated.

Ryan leaned down and pressed his lips to mine. I responded instantly, kissing him back. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him closer. We kissed hungrily. Our tongues battled and our hands explored each other's bodies. We were like animals. Wild and uncontrollable. I moaned and ran my fingers through his hair. He pulled away and moved his lips down to my neck. He sucked on my skin and nibbled on my skin.

"You are so beautiful." He murmured.

His hand found my breast and squeezed. I arched my back and pressed myself against him.

"Oh, Ryan" I cried.

"I want you." He repeated.

He moved down and took my n!pple into his mouth.

I gasped and clutched the sheets.

"You taste so good." He said, moaned.

His mouth felt amazing. I could feel my arousal growing. I was getting wetter by the second. His touch was driving me insane. He was sending my body into overdrive.

"Ryan." I sighed.

He switched his attention to my other nipple.

"Oh God." I cried, biting my lip.

I could feel his erection pressing against my thigh.

It was throbbing and huge.

"Damn, Liam." He groaned.

He moved his hand down and between my legs.

"I'm so hard. So fcking hard." He moaned.

He rubbed me through and then moved his fingers.

"You're so hard" He commented.

"Oh, Ryan. Oh, Ryan" I gasped.

"Fck, Liam. You're so sexy. So beautiful." He grunted.

His hands moved on my shaft 

I moaned.

"So hard." He whispered.

His lips crashed against mine and we kissed again. We kissed as his hands moved in and out.

I wrapped my arms around his neck and held him close.

Our bodies were pressed together and our hearts were beating in sync.

"Liam, My Liam" He whispered.

"Yes. Yes. Yours." I cried.

"Tell me you want me." He pleaded.

"Yes, Ryan. I want you. Only you. No one else." I confessed.

He lowered his body and positioned himself at my entrance.

"I want to make love to you, Liam" He whispered.

"Ryan"

"I've been dreaming of this for a long time." He said.

"You've made me crazy, Liam. You've driven me crazy. And I've wanted you so much. So damn much. I want you so badly." He said.

His hand rested on the curve of my hips and he pulled me closer, raising my left leg a bit higher.

"I love you Liam" He said and slowly entered me.

His cock felt amazing. It stretched me and filled me. He was big and thick and I was tight and wet.

We were perfect.

"Fck. You're so perfect for me." He breathed.

I couldn't speak. My head was spinning and my whole body was trembling.

"Ryan. Ryan" I screamed.

I wrapped my legs around his waist and pushed him deeper inside me.

"I want you. I want you." He murmured.

His lips trailed down my neck and he sucked on my skin.

"Ryan Please." I begged.

"I'm gonna take you hard. Make you scream." He promised.

He thrust in and out of me. Hard. Fast. Deep. I was delirious. My mind was foggy and my senses were on fire. I couldn't think. I couldn't breathe. All I could do was feel.

"Fck." Ryan hissed.

His grip on my hips tightened and he pushed himself even further inside of me.

He was pounding me and I loved it.

"Ryan. Oh. Oh. Yes." I whimpered.

I could feel myself getting close with his rhythmic movements.

"Fck, Liam"

"You feel so good." He groaned.

His pace quickened and he thrust in and out of me.

My legs started shaking and I dug my nails into his back.

"Fck. Yes."

I couldn't hold on any longer. I came undone and I orgasmed hard. I was seeing stars and my vision blurred.

"Oh Ryan. Yes." I cried.

I moaned and shuddered. My body was trembling and I was drenched in sweat. Ryan pulled out and collapsed on top of me. We stayed silent for a moment.

He rolled off and pulled me close into his arms. I laid my head on his chest.

"Are you okay?" He asked.

"That was amazing." I breathed.

"You are amazing." He replied.

I rested my head on his chest and he wrapped his arms around me.

We were both panting and out of breath.

"Liam" He whispered.

"Yes?"

"I don't think I want to let you go." He told me.

"What do you mean?" I asked. I looked up at him.

"I meant it, Liam. I..." He stammered and stared at the ceiling.

"You what, Ryan?" I urged.

"I...I love you. I want to change...for you. You make me want to be a better person. I want you to stay with me." He admitted.

Then he looked down at me. His hand held my chin and lifted it up.

"Be mine, Liam." He requested.

"Be my boyfriend." He asked.

I stared at him. My heart was beating fast. This was all happening too fast.

"But...you're a player, Ryan." I stated.

"Not anymore. Not if you stay with me." He claimed.

"Don't you get it Liam. I've never felt like this before. Not with anyone. Yes, I've been with a lot of women and men , but none of them made me feel the way you make me feel."

"How?" I asked.

"It's different with you. It's not just physical attraction. There's something else. Something more. I can't explain it, but you make me feel things." He added.

He kissed me softly and stroked my hair.

"You don't have to answer right now. Just know that I meant it. Every word of it. I want you. I need you. I love you, Liam" He declared.

I closed my eyes.

Was I ready for this? Was I ready for a relationship with Ryan?

And what about Jason? What would happen if he finds out?