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Chapter 11
Thalia's POV
I tried to speak but the words were not just coming out of my lips. Instead it was an incoherent bubble that was just flowing out. Eventually I just kept quiet, my face red and I wanted to just bury myself.
He got up from his chair and he didn't stop with his verbal lashing for even his second taking it back up as if he had never even had a pause at all.
"There is no point of comparison between your situation and Shelly's right now she has no mind by her side and you can already guess from the reaction of our parents denied that she announced everything that nobody else is going to be really supportive of her we are the only people that she really has who will stand by her and she talks about how you have really been a huge support throughout all of this how is she going to feel when she finds out this is how you think about her?"
I took a deep breath folding my fingers together.
"That's not what-"
"Doesn't matter if that's what you meant, that's just how it sounded and I didn't appreciate it from you one bit. I'm sure you could do better than that."
Once again I felt horrible like a piece of trash who didn't even deserve to live and I thought that maybe I could do a little bit more for my friend to be just a tad bit supportive.
I called her that same day and asked when she was going to have her next prenatal appointment. I did it casually so she did not guess that I wanted to use the information to surprise her.
On that day I went to the pack hospital, one of the nurses upon recognizing me as the luna escorted me over to where the postnatal was being done. The building had been moved sometime ago as I approached the place I knew we were going in the right direction because I saw more and more women with swollen bellies. Many of them were on their own. Once in a while you would see a woman with her mate accompanying her but it was rare.
It seems I collided with such a rarity today.
There was a man who had a supportive hand wrapped around a pregnant She Wolf and in any other situation it would have turned my heart to absolute mush.
But this wasn't it.
And anyone else could understand why, especially after seeing that the man and woman were my best friends and mates.
They must have noticed my burning gaze on them because eventually they turned up to look at me. Shelly immediately looked on comfortable and her eyes started skipping around as if that would make it look like I wasn't seen her it was my mates that continue to look directly at me then he helped her find somewhere to sit before coming over to me the nurse that had a escorted me at that point had left me and when he was close enough he said in a sharp but low voice.
"Have you taken to stalking me now? What is the meaning of this?"
I still felt like a statue trying to reanimate myself again. Gradually I opened my mouth and words started flowing out.
"Shouldn't I be the one asking the questions right now, you-"
"Be careful with what you're about to say." He told me frankly.
"We both know how you get when you misunderstand a situation and then you start twisting it to fit your narrative I want you to really think about what you just saw and ask yourself if it's really a problem or you are just imagining it to be a problem then if you've answered that question then I can respond to anything you say right here and Now."
Certainly I felt like I couldn't even speak up for myself anymore. He was right every other conversation we have had up to this point. He was the one who was always on the right side and somehow I completely happened to always be saying the wrong thing overreacting or escalating the issue.
Now I was afraid to speak up. What if I was just overthinking this? So he brought her to her prenatal appointment. And the position that they were in just now seemed pretty intimate but it could have just been one friend trying to help out another there was no need to jump into conclusions just yet.
Eventually any sort of anger that might have bubbled down beneath the surface was immediately suppressed we had been working on thin ice well particularly me for a couple of weeks now, I had the decency to pretend as if things were still going well between the two of us but Varian had never been the type of man who could hide his feelings if he felt a certain type of way than you would definitely see it written in everything he did his racial expressions everything he would say and do would be an echo of that feeling.
And everyone could tell right now that he was annoyed with me in the pack House, the diversity between the Alpha and Luna was not a good look.
I told him this but my words would go into one year and out the other right now I just didn't have the strength to fight or argue.
If he wanted to help out my friends then good. That isn't a big deal sure they look a little bit more comfortable than before especially when it came to physical touch but now it meant completely nothing from what he had told me.
"All right then let me at least say hi to her before I leave," he grabbed my arm before I could walk past him.
"Did you get permission from Shelly to come to her appointment?"
I was floored by this. On one hand he was indirectly telling me to make an initiative to help better and now I needed permission to just say hi.
There was a bit of back and forth between the two of us but eventually I just left the hospital not knowing that things were going to only get worse from there.