Chapter 123 My baby
Lila POV
“What… what will be over?”
My voice came out fractured, barely holding together as panic surged through me like a violent storm even my chest tightened with each breath sharper than the last. “What are you doing?
Please....please don’t hurt my baby!”
The words spilled out desperate and broken. My entire body had gone cold, yet I was trembling so hard it felt like I might shatter.
Fear wrapped around my lungs, squeezing, suffocating, until I could barely think straight.
“Relax, Lila,” Nikolai said, his tone smooth, almost soothing but it only made everything worse.
“You’re going to make this harder than it needs to be.”
Harder?
A sob tore through my throat.
“Please… Nikolai…” His name came out like a plea to something that no longer existed.
Whatever man I had known and whatever illusion I had clung to was gone.
“Shhh, baby.” His hand pressed lightly against my forehead, his touch gentle in a way that made my stomach twist in horror. “It’s going to be okay. I promise.”
A promise thay felt like poison.
Beside him, the man he had called a doctor stepped forward, placing four small tablets into Nikolai’s hand along with a pair of gloves. For a second hope flickered weakly inside me maybe this would stop but Nikolai tossed the gloves aside without a second thought.
“I don’t need those,” he said casually, his lips curving in something that wasn’t quite a smile. “I’ve been inside her more times than I can count.”
Humiliation burned through me suffocating, mixing with the terror already consuming me. The doctor simply nodded, stepping back as if this was normal… as if this was just another day.
My stomach dropped because there was no one here to help me.
Nikolai’s gaze returned to me, completely unreadable. “He’s here to make sure everything goes as planned,” he added calmly. “I don’t want anything happening to you.”
A choked cry escaped me. “Please… don’t do this…”
My voice broke completely, dissolving into quiet sobs as tears streamed endlessly down my temples into my hair. I couldn’t stop them
His fingers slid slowly down my body, and every inch he touched ached my skin crawling, my muscles tightening with dread. When he reached my legs, he sat beside them, his movements unhurried, deliberate… like he had all the time in the world.
“It’s incredible, if you really think about it,” he began, his voice taking on a strange, almost philosophical tone. “People believe humans are powerless before God… yet we can end a life he created so easily.”
My heart stopped. No, no, no.....
I tried to push myself up, tried to see, to move, to do something but my body wouldn’t cooperate. Panic surged violently, my limbs straining uselessly against the restraints.
“Nikolai, please!” I cried, my voice cracking into something desperate and raw. “I’ll do anything! I swear....I’ll stay with you, I won’t fight you, I’ll do whatever you want! Just… please don’t do this!”
My words tumbled over each other, frantic, meaningless, but I didn’t care. I would say anything and give anything but he didn’t even look at me.
“Once these are inside you,” he continued evenly, as if I hadn’t spoken at all, “your body will take care of the rest.”
A scream ripped from deep within me, violent and uncontrollable. “No! Please! Oh God...no!”
“It’ll take a few hours,” he added with a faint smirk. “But it’s not like you have anywhere to go, right?” Then, casually, he called out, “Damon.”
I started thrashing before Damon even reached me, instinct taking over. I forced my legs together, twisting, kicking, fighting with everything I had left but it wasn’t enough.
Damon grabbed me, his grip unyielding as he forced me back down, forcing my legs apart despite my desperate struggle.
“No! Please!” I screamed, my voice tearing apart. “Please, God, please!”
“It will all be over soon.”
And then, I felt it.
A sharp, invasive pressure that sent a shock of pain through my entire body. My scream became something animalistic, something beyond words as I fought harder, pushing, resisting, trying to force it away.
“Stop!” I sobbed hysterically. “Please stop!”
My body betrayed me completely, reacting in ways I couldn’t control, humiliation flooding through me as terror consumed every last piece of my sanity.
“Oh, Lila…” Nikolai’s voice was almost amused, almost pitying. “Look at you.”
I shook my head violently, tears blinding me, my throat raw from screaming. “Please.....please......”
But he didn’t stop.
He pressed me down harder when I tried to move, his hand firm against me, keeping me exactly where he wanted me. The pain deepened, sharp and relentless, and I couldn’t escape it, I couldn’t escape him.
And then just as he said, It was over.
Damon let go of me, stepping back as if nothing had happened but everything had happened.
I kept moving, kept writhing, sobbing uncontrollably as I tried to undo the impossible, my body pushing, desperate, hopeless.
“Stop fighting it, Lila,” Nikolai said, standing beside me again, his voice calm, final. “It’s done and there’s nothing you can do now.”
The word echoed in my head then he reached out, brushing strands of hair away from my face, his touch almost gentle but I jerked away violently, my body reacting before my mind could catch up.
“Fuck you!” I screamed, my voice breaking apart completely. “Fuck you!”
My throat burned, my chest heaving as tears poured endlessly down my face.
Nikolai didn’t react, he simply gestured.
The doctor stepped forward, a syringe in his hand.
My eyes locked onto it, dread settling deep into my bones. “What… what is that?” I asked, my voice barely more than a whisper now.
“It’s something to help with the pain,” Nikolai replied softly. “And to calm you down.”
Calm me down?
Nothing could calm this of fix this.
I barely felt the needle pierce my skin.
The pain inside me was already too much and too overwhelming. It felt like my chest had been ripped open, like my heart was bleeding out slowly, each second dragging me deeper into something dark and endless.
My baby.....the thought shattered me all over again.
My baby. “Jesus…” My voice trembled, barely there. “Please… my baby…”
I wanted to move, to curl around myself, to protect what little I had left but I couldn’t.
My body was heavy, unresponsive, slipping further and further away from me.
The world around me started to blur and the edges softened.
Voices became distant, muffled, like they were underwater.
“Please… don’t hurt my baby…” I whispered weakly, the words slurring together as my mind drifted.
A hand brushed gently against my cheek.
“Soon,” Nikolai murmured, his voice the last thing I could hear clearly, “it will all be over.”
As the darkness pulled me under, it felt like my soul went with it.