Chapter 9

CAN I GET A SECOND CHANCE??

ALEXIS CLARK'S POV

Don't get so worked up about it. It's just a day with only three lectures.

You'll have to bear with being in the university and risk your life for three lectures only. Two of which are early in the morning and the last one in the afternoon.

The Alpha of the Blood Moon pack obviously won't come early in the morning right?

You can do this Alexis. The fear is only in your brain. With this pendant, no one would be able to recognize your real identity.

Just remember how many rogues you've killed in the past and had gone through many packs without them being able to trace your scent.

You can do this. You are awesome and can go through this too. You can't let the one year of struggle go to waste. I prepared myself, wanting to face the big day today.

‘‘Lexi, are you sick? You look pale. Are you seriously sick?’’ Audrey asked as she looked at me standing in front of the mirror for the last twenty minutes or so.

Was I okay? Was I?

How can I be okay? I don't know why I was feeling like this. But it feels like my cover was going to be busted today since I heard the Alpha was coming to check upon the university.

I've been talking to myself about how I can do it and get over it with these lectures. But no matter how much I talk to myself about it, whenever the image of the most feared Alpha flashes through my mind, I feel my legs go jelly.

He was feared by everyone for one reason. I haven't seen him personally because all information about him is locked by the council and you can't look up an Alpha information without telling them the reason behind it.

To be honest, I never felt like I needed to look up his information or anything.

It was clear to me. Never cross paths with him. And I never thought I'd meet him in this condition.

Guess this is what they call an evil fate. And my friends, I'm blessed with it.

‘‘Yeah…are you ready? Let's go or we will be late,’’ I said mustering the best smile I could.

‘‘I have been sitting here, ready to go for the past thirty minutes, If not for you who has been checking her reflection in the mirror for the last twenty minutes. Are you worried about your image in front of the founder of the university? Don't worry above, even in sickness, you're the prettiest girl in college,’’ Audrey winked, and before I could reply to her, Shayne entered the room.

‘‘Shaybe, can't you knock? We are girls for Pete's sake!’’ Audrey shouted at him and looked at me with an apologetic expression that I waved off with a flicker of my hands. I don't even have the energy to be offended by anything else when my life and all my accomplishments for a year are at stake.

My brain was too occupied to be concerned by these measly things.

‘‘I'm sorry sweetheart, I thought you were alone. I didn't know Lexi was with you,’’ Shayne said and looked at me apologetically when I exited the room and joined them.

‘‘It’s nothing,’’ I said, before picking up my purse.

My heart felt a slight pang when I looked at the lovely couple. If my mate wasn't a dick, then I would have been like them too. If he was as loving as Shayne is to Andrey, then I wouldn't be going through all of this in the first place.

We would've been living happily in that pack. And though everyone was mean to me, the love of my mate would've filled all of it. And they would've respected me because I would've been their Luna.

How romantic would it have been__

‘‘Come on. Can you stop going into the flashbacks of your imaginary sensations that won't ever be true in the real world? I mean, start living in the present. And the present is that we are going to face the world's most dangerous Alpha today,’’ Ariana, aka, my so-called fake wolf, groaned, making me roll my eyes at her.

After reaching the campus ground, I looked at Shayne and Audrey, my eyes watering a little.

I know it's hard, but I need to make this clear now.

I've been breaking some laws but now it's time to move out of their flat and find another place temporarily. I didn't want them to get into trouble because of me. They are among the few people who have accepted me and I would even trade my life for them.

Taking a deep breath, knowing how hard it was going to be, I looked at them briefly before starting.

‘‘Guys… There are still some minutes more before the lecture. Umm…can we talk?’’

‘‘Sure Lexi, we are listening,’’ Audrey said with a bright smile that made me feel worse than I already am.

‘‘I…I am leaving the room'’

‘‘What do you mean you are leaving the room? If you are going on one of your trips again then let me remind you that your points are already low and if__’’

‘‘No. I am not going on a trip. I am just leaving your room. I will leave separately from now on,’’ I said, cutting Audrey off and making her eyes go wide.

‘‘Lex, if it is about what happened today, I'm sorry. But__’’

‘‘It’s not about that. I just think I need to start living on my own. I have been living under your care for quite long,’’ I said, cutting off Shayne in between.

‘‘What are you talking about? You pay 60% rent. Not to mention the food that you bring daily to feed us. How is it that you're living under our care? It is more like we're living in this room because of you,’’ Audrey said, her eyes brimming with tears as she held my hands in hers.

It broke my heart to see her like this, and I know my heart is already melting from her tears.

‘‘What a softie,’’ my conscience, Ariana said, and I seriously wanted to slap this so-called fake wolf for always interrupting at times like this and making me feel like a child.

‘‘Hey, it's not like I'm going forever. Remember I have a house near the river that I had mentioned? I'm gonna live there for some time. It’s temporary, I promise,’’ I said, smiling at her reassuringly, mentally face-palming myself for the promise I made.

Now, I can't even go back on my words because I hate breaking promises and hate those who did.

‘‘Are you sure about it? I mean, if it is about me__’’ Shayne started and I couldn't help but feel guilty about this.

‘‘It’s not about that, I promise. You guys ate the best thing this college gave me. And I mean it. Let's attend our classes now,’’ I said, hugging both of them.

‘‘But promise you’ll meet me at the college daily,’’ Audrey said, making me smile at her naivety.

If only they knew what a monster I was, they wouldn't come this close to me. Maybe even run far away from me.

Smiling bitterly at the thought, I smiled at them one last time before turning and walking toward my department.