THE CURSE.

THE CURSE.
"I don't understand you, Gérard, are you thinking of me or the clan, and what the wolves will say, is your reputation more important than me? Everyone is beginning to see how she talks to me in public and before we know it, rumors will begin to spread about how she disrespects me and you want me to just keep shut and watch the way she insults me."

She is hurt by my words, I could tell that, but I can't just stand by and let her and Oceana tear at each other for whatever reasons best known to them which I know but hate to admit it, I don't want to draw in some attentions to myself too, it's best known we keep a low profile.

I got up from the bed, went close to her and held her slender shoulders with both hands.

"Emily, I am worried about you and I want you to always know that, remember our vows, I will always stick to them, I don't want you getting hurt, stay away from Oceana for now, it's for your own good and I'm not in support of her talking to you in such a rude manner, let bygones be bygones, sooner or later she will get used to you but I will talk to her for you, listen to me."

"Is there anything happening between you and Oceana?' she blurted out with a straight face.

My heart skipped to the extent that if there was food inside my mouth, I would have choked.

I needed to avoid this question, pretend like I knew nothing of what she was talking about but I was curious to what she was thinking about that made her think there was something between me and Oceana.

"What are you talking about?' I softly asked.

"I've noticed the way she stares at me, in this sort of jealousy, envy and anger running through her veins and it's like she doesn't like me being married to you or maybe she hates me because I am an outsider.'

I hugged her and pressed kisses on her forehead, murmuring. "I love you.' I struggled saying those words and the guilt was killing me. "Everything will be fine."

"Thank you so much, Gerard, I'm glad I got married to you and I'm still sorry for getting mad at you on that day at the hotel, even now, I just wanted to know if you truly love me or if that's just your way of expressing yourself."

I cupped her face. "You don't have to bring that up, I forgot about it a long time ago, just let it go, okay.' I kissed her forehead and hugged her again, thinking of Oceania and Carmine, who is in big trouble, hiding his mate from the family and that takes me back to one question, how did father find out about Carmine's mate.

After consoling Emily, kissing, licking her and having a remarkable sex, I slightly got out of bed while she was sleeping and it was a bit dark.

I didn't know I could stay that long in bed while having sex, that sure is surprising.

I put on my white robe, lit up my cigarette and drank red wine and strolled to the balcony to have some quiet time to myself.

Ever since I came to the clan, I told Oceana I was her mate, if not she will discover it herself, even if I try to keep it a secret.

When I first saw her, on that day she came to the chambers, she was breathtakingly beautiful, attractive, gorgeous and at that spot, I wanted to pull off her clothes, my wolf growled, forcing me to mate with her, yet I controlled myself and told myself silently a thousand times that she is my sister but it didn't work.

I had all sorts of imaginations, forcing my body to keep still which kept screaming and yelling at me to screw her, right there at the table.

I know I'm a jerk but I want her in my arms, I want to be inside her, fuck her to the extent of her screaming my name out loud, begging for me to stop and take it easy, I know I said these the first time but I want her as my mate, I love her so much to give up now.

I wish I could have her right now, shout out to the whole world that she is my mate, and get married to her.

I'm an Alpha with dignity, not some pervert and a horny teenager who thinks with his dick instead of his head.

If I do that, she will be taken away from me, I wouldn't see her ever again, it's better for me to watch her grow up more, live a happy life with a new Alpha than for me not to see her again.

It hurts when an Alpha loses his mate and never sees her again.

I've always loved her ever since I was a child and I still do, she is telling me to bond with her, that we could face so many obstacles together, I don't have anyone on my side, and the realms will be too powerful for us to deal with, how will I be able to handle it, I'm really scared of losing her in the process, if she will just stop trying to get together with me and accept fate, things will….Will be different right now.

I am a married Alpha now, with a wife who loves me yet I don't love her in return, isn't that so cruel?

Sooner or later, the realm would start demanding a son from me, wanting an heir to the wolf throne, how funny.

I sighed and poured myself some wine. I want to have her.

I keep getting horny every time I think of Oceana. She is always on my head, the werewolves' heat comes, the full moon arises and it gets worse and worse by the second.

Even at the dining table earlier, she intentionally put on a sexy gown because of me, just to get my attention, damn, I was finding it hard to eat at the dining table, my crotch kept getting bigger, my body went into hormones mood, finding it difficult to sit still and to keep Emily from noticing how big my crotch was and fuck, I could screw her at this moment.

She sure was getting my attention, I could feel the cold stares burning through my soul, yet I pretended not to notice it.

She was alluring and driving me to the edge, very hot and attractive.

Banging such a hot beauty in bed will be incredible and awesome, man just imagining her was getting me worked up.

While drinking my wine, I find myself touching my crotch, it felt hot and warm for a certain reason, I kept stroking and stroking nonstop, it was getting hot, sweet sensation rushed down my spine, it felt sweet, good, incredible and I didn't want to stop, I could masturbate like nearly ten times a day just thinking of Oceana.

I raised my hips up and kept going, abandoning my wine on the cold floor, putting aside my cigarette, I was over the clouds, seeing the warm stars as fuck.

"Oceana,' I moaned. "I love you so much, my love." I groaned, stroked even harder and spat on it to make it more slippery as if there was a pussy on top of me.

I couldn't help it, it was getting to me, I stroked even slower and slower and feeling the thickness of it, my dick swelled even more, imagining her in her pink bra and pants turned me on so much.

Fuck, it's never like this with Emily.

I stroked slowly, it was quite big and all of a sudden I was about to burst, I couldn't hold it in anymore and nearly groaned while I sweetly released so fast on my abdomen, I raised my head, looking at my thick sperm.

"Fuck this," I whispered, panting and ruffled through my hair with my other hand.

"I want her." I murmured, I panted for a while and finally got up to clean myself up before Emily noticed anything on me.

Damn, that felt good.

I got inside the bedroom and dropped the bottle of wine on the glass table and proceeded to the bathroom, freshen up and came out of the shower.
I saw Emily in deep thoughts, my heart skipped a beat and when did she wake up from her sleep, I don't understand it at all.

"Emily." I called her and she smiled and got off the bed naked and came over to me with her arms wrapped around my shoulders.

"I miss you,' she kissed me on my lips and licked my jawline.

"I miss you too.' I murmured, hoping she didn't notice me leaving the balcony.

"You just took a bath right? Your breath reeks of alcohol." She laughed.

I smiled. "Yeah, I just took a little to refresh my system and my brain.'

"Oh and you look very handsome.' she beamed.

"Thanks baby.' I poked her nose with the tip of her finger.

"I want to have a child with you.' She blurted out.

"What!" I was shocked.

"What? I'm serious, I really want to have a child with you, my parents are bugging me about when I plan to have a child.'

Damn.




Oceana's Pov.
Fuck." I rubbed my pussy, going faster and faster with my legs wide open, naked on my bed. "Gérard." I moaned. "Fuck me, I love you so much."

I did this all night, dreaming of him and I felt a lot of pain within me after that, he wants me to reject him but I can't do it, I don't want to go through that pain of rejecting him, that's what I am avoiding, I don't need to experience such pain, I will die before I even get started.
I love him and I want him to be mine and mine alone.

I hugged the pillow he used six years ago, his scent was still on it, and inhaling it, calmed me and my wolf down.

I felt like he was here with him. If only he knew I was with his old pillow, what would he think of that? I couldn't help it, so I've been with it for years after stealing it from his room after he disappeared.

No weirdness though, back then I didn't know he was my mate, so I used this pillow to console myself from getting insane from loneliness and somehow I was able to cope because of it.

I shut my eyes and hugged the pillow even more and I wonder what Jessie will think of me after hearing what I just told her and I hope, she doesn't get mad at me or rather gets disgusted with me, I can't help it and no matter what she says to me, I'm not leaving Gérard, I want my Alpha.

Let the whole earth collapse, even if the moon goddess brings me back in another lifetime, Gérard will always be mine and no one else.

Deep down, I don't actually know what she feels about the whole thing, but she seemed okay with it and isn't advising me or insisting I leave Gerard alone, she seems to be in support of me getting together with him though.

Tears rolled down my cheeks and I could swear he was also thinking of me too. Why was he being this cold to me?

This is too cruel.