ZOYA'S POV
I was so happy that we finally resolved the contract issue and the meeting was successful and the client finally decided to work with us.
Although today started pretty stressful everything fell right back in place I would say.
I stood by the large window of my office, staring out at the bustling city below, this was how I relieved my stress. Watching the cars zip by made my thoughts wander, and I usually feel lighter afterward.
A knock from the door, interrupted my thoughts instantly bringing me back to reality.
The door opens my Karine face popped up from the side.
"Ma'am Mr. Anas is here to see you" she informed.
I wonder what Anas has tonsay from what I know we had no scheduled meeting.
"Okay, let him in" instructed her annealed back to my seat and sat down, and took in several deep breaths to compose myself.
The door clicked and closed and I raised my head up front to the folder I was looking at not that I was paying much attention to the content.
"Zoya" he called out, with a soft tone, as he walked towards my desk.
"Anas, how many I help you?" I asked, trying to be as professional as possible.
"Do you have time I would love to talk to you about something very important" he said.
"Go ahead I have all day" I encouraged him, gesturing for him to take a seat.
Although Anas and I have a past relationship I am his boss now and I cannot let myself be moved or phased by past emotions I have to come off professional and that is how I plan on handling my situation with Anas.
"I need to talk to you about us Zoya," he said his eyes never faltering and leaving mine. He stared at me intently, it felt like he was staring into my soul.
I was surprised by his sudden outburst but I tried to keep a neutral expression trying not to give away too much with my expression. " Anas there is nothing between us, we are not together. There is no 'us' as you put it. Whatever we had between us is long over in the past now" I said.
" I still have feelings for you and I want us to be together again"
"Anas I will not repeat myself there is no 'us' you made very sure of that when you abandoned me by the road that day" I snapped at him.
This conversation was making me angry angry. A lot of stuff had happened today I was not ready for all this stalk right now
Anas viably waived from my harsh words but I knew this was the only way I could get my thoughts across."I know, I was a coward and I have regretted my actions every day since that incident" he said looking so sincere and hurt.
I did not want to talk about that moment, it was one of the lowest moments of my life I had stupidly given someone who did not deserve my love and feeling my heart and he totes with it."What do you want from me? Why bring up all this now? I have moved on so should you"
"I want to explain, I want you to give me a listening ear and allow me to explain," he said. "I was scared, Zoya, and I was stupid. I knew I loved you but I thought running away was too extreme, I was a coward for not being able to handle my feelings for you, so I ran. I thought running would make me feel better and would not cause you any disgrace. But leaving you was the biggest mistake of my life." He said with a cracked voice and watery eyes.
"I am sorry" he apologized.
I clenched my fist hard, trying my possible best to control every ounce of emotion I was feeling at the moment. I cannot afford to look weak. " An apology won't solve anything. You think I can just forget how much you hurt me? And let you back into my life?" I asked. "That is just absurd, in fact, that is impossible".
"No, I totally understand and don't expect you to forgive so easily, I messed up. But I just want you to know instill love you so much and that I was a fool, i was not thinking straight. I have always loved you and I still do I never stopped" he confessed.
Hearing those words from him felt nostalgic but they are meaningless now, if I had heard those words from him the time I ran away from home hoping to elope with him then maybe I would have considered his feelings. Whether he meant those words or not had no effect on me anymore.
I stood up from my chair and slowly approached the wide window and took a look at the passing cars. "All this is too late, Anas. Things are different now and I have moved on so should you"
"I can't that is because I still care about you," he said. I closed my eyes in frustration as nothing I was saying seemed to be working.
I want him to realize that nothing can happen between us anymore, it is over.
"Is it because of him?" He suddenly.
I turned around sharply to look at him, my brows furrowed in confusion. "Who" I asked.
"Because of that imposter, Abrar," he said.
I instantly became anywhere insulted by Abrar, he had no right. Abrar was more of a man than he was and will ever be. Abrar took the position of being my husband when he did not have to, to save my dignity and family's honor something Anas was too much of a coward to do.
"Don't you dare insult him, he is more of a man than you are. He has never left my side even in my most trying times, so you do not have the right to talk I'll about him" I shunned.
"Your words hurt Zoya, it hurts to see you defend another man so passionately," he said looking hurt I almost sympathized with him.
"I know you don't love him as much as you love me, I know deep down you still feel something of me you still have feelings for me," he said.
Gosh, he was so delusional, in what way am I supposed to revise him again?
"You know nothing" I snapped at him
"I know it's all a Facade, it fake," he said.
For a minute, my heart slipped as I wondered how he was able to figure it out but I kept my cool I couldn't let him get a read on my emotions.
"Please Zoya, give me another chance. Give me another chance to prove my love to you.
"There is nothing you can do right right now that could make me reconcile with you, we cannot go back to the way things were before," I told him. " I don't trust you and I can never trust you again with my heart. You had your chance and you fumbled now another person has my heart and he is doing a good job keeping me satisfied and happy"
"Please Zoya, just one chance" he pleaded.
"Gosh you are being so pathetic, can you please stop? You are making me uncomfortable I have chosen to ignore your presence and put the past behind me but if you keep this up you will leave me no choice but to transfer you to another unit" I snapped.
I was getting tired of the back and forth, it was so infuriating.
We stood in silence for a while finally Anas said something the silence was beginning to sound deafening.
"I understand you are hurt Zoya, and you need time so I will wait, I will prove to you that my feelings are real. I love you Zoya" he said before walking out of my office.
I grabbed my hair and buried my face in my palms I tried my possible best to escape in frustration.
"Calm down girl" I mumbled to myself as I tried to get rid of all the negative emotions I was feeling.
A soft knock from my door quickly made me compose myself as Karina walked in with a folder.
I was a married woman in the eyes of my colleagues I cannot afford a scandal or my past relationship with Anas to come rot light especially why and how it ended.
"Are you okay ma'am?" She asked looking concerned.
"Yes I am, anything that needs my attention?" She asked.
"You have a meeting in a ten-minute time I wanted to remind you," she said.
"Okay, thanks dear" I replied as she walked out.
"Get it together, get it together," I said to myself as I slapped my cheeks to bring back color to them as I was looking pale. With one more look of encouragement, I walked out of my office ready to conquer the rest of the day.
"Oh, you finally remembered me and asked me out on a drink the lioness must have given birth to a cub today" Alisha tears as we sat down at a bar.
"Can you just stop with the jokes madam"
"You know that is impossible" she said sipping her the drink on her hand mischievous smile on her face.
"So what is the gist? And how is our handsome hunk of a husband?" She asked, moving her brows mischievously.
"Gosh you are something else" I sighed. "Well, the gist involves Anas, and well Abrar is good and the visit to the house was fun although he might have a lot of work to do to win Mom's approval," I said.
"Oh poor Anas" she sympathized.
"So what did Anas do this time?" She asked popping some snacks into her mouth.
"Well Anas came to my office and started processing his unconditional love for me today, asking for reconciliation and all, it was just such a mess"
Alisha's expression quickly darkened, she was not Anas's biggest fan and she did not bother to hide it.
"Gosh, what insolent, what gives him such right I hope you shunned him out of your office immediately?" She asked.
"Of course, I do not want such drama in my life, I already have enough as it is"
"Good besides unlike Abrar more and Anas is just a coward I am glad and so happy you are no longer with him" she expressed with a bright smile on her face.
"God I need another drink," I said ordering more drinks.
"We sure do let's get wasted, oh wait not too wasted I cannot afford to go home from someone who would not be happy about that," she said and we burst out laughing hard together.
Alisha was my happy pill, whenever I was around her she always made me happy and I instantly forgot all my worries.
It was quite late when I arrived and well, Abrar had already made a nice dinner for me. I have to say Abrar was a good cook.
"So good" and moaned as I inhaled the food quickly.
I was becoming more comfortable with Abrar we seemed to be adjusting quite well to our new lives.
Suddenly a ding at the door was quite late and I wondered who might be at the door.
Abrar was in the bathroom so I could not call him, so I decided to ignore it but the alarm still went off. Whoever was at the door did not want to leave that was for certain.
I walked over to the door. "Who is there" I yelled but got no reply.
I looked out the window but saw nobody so I decided to go back to the couch but suddenly the alarm went off again.
Was someone pranking me? I opened the door fully but saw nobody I looked around the compound but still saw no one. I wonder who was making such a prank call this night.
"It's late, stop freaking disturbing" I yelled into the darkness hoping the culprit hears, and just as I was about to close the door I noticed a brown envelope on the ground.
I looked around again and picked up the envelope and from the feel of it, it looked like it was a folder.
I close the door and walk back to the couch, wondering what could be inside the envelope.
I opened it brightened out the folder inside and quickly unsealed it.
The contents of the envelope shocked me to the core. "What is this?" I said to myself as I flip through the pictures that I was holding.
They were pictures of Abrar and Nikhat hugging and almost kissing. They looked and there was also a picture of them being in bed together in an intimate position.
And just as if Abrar knew when to make an entrance he came out of the bathroom, dripping wet.
"What was at the door? And what is that?" He asked referring to the pictures in my hand.
I was speechless I could not bring my mouth to work as I could only stare at him still shocked.
As soon as his eyes made contact with the pictures he immediately looked up at me and that was when I knew they were real it was not a fake.