"You're alright?" Asked Lisa concerned as she stared at the confused figure before her "You can talk to me" she urged.
Keane couldn't describe how he was feeling. Nothing was right.
Lisa cops on his face, hoping to get his attention.
"I am here… talk to me" she begs pulling him even closer. Her scent only irritated him the more. So much as he wanted to let her comfort him, he just couldn't bring himself to.
He grinds on his teeth " I am fine" he tells her sternly, stunning Lisa.
She couldn't believe Keane, could talk to her in such a cold and bland tone, void of any emotion.
Pushing her thoughts away, she tries to comfort him again but he pushes her away.
She could hardly believe what was going on with him to the point he was shoving her away.
In all the years she's known him, he has never pushed her away… it's always the other way round but today… It was something she never expected.
Staring at the man before her, she couldn't help but wonder if she'd done something wrong, " Did I do something wrong? If yes… then I am sorry" Lisa apologized. Stunning Keane as he stares at her in disbelief.
What's going on? He thought to himself, still in shock.
First was Smiles who abruptly decided to leave not caring about how he would feel about it and on the other hand Lisa, who for the first time ever since he's known her, apologized for something she wasn't at fault for.
The shock was replaced with regrets knowing he was the one to say sorry and not the other way round.
He rubs on her cheeks gently. Gazing at her now made him realize something he'd never taken note of, and he'd been lying to himself all these while… he didn't love her, in fact… he's never loved her.
He was just scared to be alone because he'd never thought of himself living without her and he so much wanted her that he didn't see through his emotions, what he needed deep down.
He pulls her into his broad arms, patting her hair to stop the crying girl.
"I am sorry, Lisa," he apologized. She couldn't help but cry even more.
"I am sorry" he apologized again, " I truly am" he continued, wiping away her tears.
Even though he's always been a sweet and gentle type before Lisa, his apologizing too much was not something Lisa was used to.
Her eyes were red from crying, "what's going on, Keane?" Lisa asked in a cracked voice as she stared at him with pleading eyes.
He didn't want to hurt her, the look on her face was already a thorn in his flesh, " It's not working!" He said.
Lisa stares at him confusedly "What's not working?" She asked but he didn't say anything and the silence was killing her.
"Say something, what isn't working" She shakes his arms, urging him to say something.
In a low tone, he tells her to her face, "This, us". Shocked, Lisa staggers two steps behind almost falling.
Keane was quick to catch her. But that was least to what she wanted now…she gently pushed his hands off hers, taking her balance.
There was a look on her face that begged him to say otherwise. He must be joking, right?
"You are joking right?" She asked with eyes begging him to say yes but he didn't say anything and his silence could only mean one thing… he is serious.
"You… you chased me all these while only to turn me down?" She asked, in a teary tone.
"What about this?" She raised up her left hand showing him the ring he gave her, "Does it mean anything to you? Or did it ever mean something?" She continues, as tears fall down her red face, soaking wet her dress.
"You did mean something… maybe back then" his tone was low almost as if he couldn't speak, "but it wasn't what I thought it was… it was never love… only now I know" he looked at her apologetically.
She nods as if understanding him clearly," you found her" she tells him, " where is she?" She asked. Well, she isn't that clueless about what was going on.
She could see the look he always gave Smiles, it's something he's never done to her…
She felt jealous sometimes but when he proposed to her, she was so excited thinking it was just her fear and weird imagination.
"Where is she?" Asked Lisa, taking a seat.
"Gone!" He tells her.
"And you let her go?" She was surprised he could actually let her go despite knowing how he felt about her.
"I didn't fuckin know what it was all about" he cries regretfully." I thought I was just overthinking things… that if I let go, I can finally have you by my side, to love and cherish but I was wrong" he runs his hands through his hair, frustrated.
" I just couldn't tell what I was feeling, the desire, the lust, her kisses, her scent… everything about her sends me to the other side I've never felt this… never" For the first time in Lisa's life, he saw Keane in tears. It pains to know those tears were for another, not her.
"I think I am obsessed with her, Or rather, Lust… I can't stop myself from wanting her every time and neither can I stop thinking about her… it's just been hours since she left but it feels like forever and I am losing it… what do I do, Lisa" he stares at Lisa, begging her to say something.
"You are not Lust, Keane… you are in love… obsessed in love more like a Lust Love " She explains.
" I am sorry" he apologized again. It was never his intention to hurt her… but the deed has been done away.
"It's ok" Lisa waved dismissively. "If you truly love her, then go for her before someone else gets her" She turns and leaves. There was nothing more she could do, she couldn't force him to love her, and neither could she stay any further, it hurt everything.
"And… " she turns to him, " it was nice being your girl all these while… thanks for being the gentleman I never saw in others" She gave him a grateful smile. With that, she hurriedly left without looking back.