Chapter 71 Bothering Obsession
LISA
The warmth of my bed did no good to calm my racing thoughts, I'd been deep in thoughts since I left home and it didn't get any better as I lay in my hostel room.
I had my pillow in my arms as though I needed it for comfort, and at that moment I would've sincerely welcomed a comforting hug just so that I could get my mind off the chaotic thoughts that had plagued it for so long.
My mood had taken a turn for the worse and I knew that only Axel could make me feel less conflicted, being with him was always amazing and I was sure that he would've made my burdened heart feel lighter even now.
The past few days have left me feeling emotions that I never imagined were possible for me, especially during the days I'd spent with Axel, they were magical and nothing short of unreal. Every moment I'd spent with Axel was like an out-of-body experience, mostly because I wasn't used to being a love bird or a love-sick puppy but he'd made me all of these and more. Truthfully, I had no regrets even now that I was torn between obeying my family's orders and betraying him or staying true to him.
I wasn't familiar with how love was supposed to feel but I was certain that what I felt with Axel was genuinely as amazing as things could ever get. My heart was a tough one to get through to but he'd found a way to get to the deepest ends of it.
Despite the pleasant memories that had resurfaced from being with Axel, I couldn't help but dwell on the fact that everything had escalated so quickly in no time. I mean, I knew that there was a possibility that my family would find out about our relationship eventually but I didn't expect it to happen so soon.
The fact that my family expected me to choose between them and the man I'd fallen hopelessly in love with drove me crazy every second that the thought registered in my mind. Was it so horrible to have both? I wanted to have my family's love and trust as well as Axel's love and trust, but it seemed like an impossible gamble.
I simply couldn't imagine betraying Axel nor could I live with the thought of possibly being a huge disappointment to my family because I couldn't get them the information they wanted to redeem myself in their eyes once again.
Having to pick a side created turmoil in my heart that I didn't like one bit, would I have to betray my family or betray my newfound semblance of peace at the end of the day? Both decisions would still leave a hole in my heart and I didn't want that, so, what was the way forward now?
"Ughhh" I groaned out in sheer frustration as the chaos in my mind grew wilder.
Tana turned over from the window, alarmed by my groan that very moment, I'd forgotten that she was in the room for a short while and that's why I'd let out a groan without thinking it would stir her interest.
"Awww, are you missing your prince charming so soon even though you've just been away from each other for three days?" Tana said teasingly as she focused solely on me.
I knew I couldn't begin to explain to her what was really bothering me so I'd have to agree with her on this one.
"Yeah..." I replied shyly and nodded which only encouraged Tana to continue teasing me.
"Ouuuuu, who knew you'd be so lovey-dovey with Axel after all your tough girl attitude" she laughed and raised her brows at me suggestively.
Once Tana got an opening to tease me she'd make sure she went to town with it and didn't spare me at any point, I was used to it already so I let her have her fun.
"Are you gonna sulk all day until you get to see him then?" she swatted my arm lightly and chuckled.
"Bitch, let me be" I replied but that only made her laugh louder because she assumed she'd gotten under my skin so easily.
Weirdly, having her tease me about Axel made me think of how much I'd truly missed him in the past three days.
After leaving his house in a frenzy due to the impromptu meeting that had been called at my house, I hadn't gotten time to see him again. I wondered how we would've spent the rest of the day together if Angel hadn't ruined it by sticking her nasty nose where it didn't belong.
I'm sure he would've made me breakfast while I watched him dreamily and we would've cuddled and shared details about our lives that we couldn't share with anyone else that couldn't relate to our lifestyle, but my imagination only made me crave his presence more and more as I let my mind wander on about what could've happened.
Our back-and-forth texts in the past days had been somewhat comforting though, he always made sure to check up on me as much as possible despite being busy and I loved hearing from him occasionally. However, nothing beats seeing him in person and being in each other's arms, but I understood that he was busy with work for the time being.
He did mention that he would be back today but it was almost dusk and he hadn't reached out to tell me that he'd returned from his work errands. I didn't know if I should be worried that it was taking longer than expected for him to round up work or upset that I might not get to see him today as well, I was in a really tight pickle.
As if on cue, my phone lit up on my nightstand and I grabbed it quickly with hopes that Axel had finally reached out.
I swiped my phone open and the text from Axel read "come meet me downstairs Red". I felt so fucking ecstatic and I knew that seeing him would turn the shitty day I'd been having around for the
better.
I squealed loudly and hugged my pillow even tighter like a love-sick teenage girl which earned me a new round of teasing from Tana, but I sure as hell didn't care right now.
"Is that your prince charming?" she laughed and wiggled her brows like a teenage girl fishing for some hot gossip.
"Do you ever give up?" I asked and stared right at her as she laughed, she'd find some sort of amusement from anything if you let her, but in a way, it was what made her lighthearted and fun to be around.
"Oh, how the mighty hath fallen," she said and conveniently ignored my question.
"Who'd have thought a day would come where the almighty Lisa who buried her head in programming and wore baggy fits would be reduced to a lovestruck puppy because of a man she used to hate? Not me!" she continued and this time I couldn't help but laugh with her, maybe that would shut her up.
"Come help me pick something to weaaarrrrrrrrrr" I stood up from the edge of my bed where I'd been seated for the past few minutes and I dragged Tana up by her arm so she wouldn't make me beg her any longer.
"You're at my mercy you know? I could dress you up in rags and you'd have to go see Axel that way" she let out a maniacal laughter while we stood in front of my wardrobe and stared blankly at my outfits.
"Yes, you could but you love me too much and you'll wear rags at my wedding if you dared to ruin this for me" I hit her with a comeback which I was really proud of.
"Okay smart mouth, let's get you a sexy little dress," Tana said as she brushed through my wardrobe attentively.
My excitement somehow grew by the minute as I watched Tana pull out three dress options for me to try on. They all looked lovely to me but I trusted Tana's judgment so I was willing to let her pick which was best out of the three.
I tried on the first dress, it was a black sequin straight dress with off-shoulder arms that exposed my beautiful neckline while the rest of the dress hugged my hips and exposed a little bit of my thighs where there was a slit.
Tana gestured for me to turn around and I spun around excitedly while she shook her head in disbelief at how giddy I was.
The next dress was a satin flowing knee-length lavender-purple dress that accentuated my boobs and my waistline beautifully, it had straps and a cute slit that flattered my beautiful long legs as well as exposed some of my thigh flesh.
Tana whistled as I gave her a little show in the dress and we both knew it was perfect!
Just then, I realized that Axel must've been waiting downstairs for quite a while so I grabbed my black low-heeled boots and touched up some makeup as quickly as I could.
In no time I was fully ready, so I grabbed my jacket quickly and blew Tana a thank-you kiss before I ran out of the hostel and down the stairs to meet Axel.
As soon as I got down the stairs completely, I spotted him leaning against his car, and as soon as our eyes met he smiled so brightly and soaked in my appearance as though he would've loved to devour me on the spot.
I returned the smile as I walked towards him happily, I was sure that he loved my appearance with the sexy stare-down I'd just gotten from him.
He opened the door for me to get into the passenger's seat but he didn't make any attempt to kiss me or hug me as I'd expected, which made me feeling somewhat disappointed as I took my seat and he shut the door gently behind me.
I watched him walk to the other side of the car until he got into the driver's seat and I couldn't make sense of the formal and polite way in which he'd acted instead of showing me some sort of affection.
"How was the ride back into town?" I asked in hopes of striking up a conversation anyways.
"Good," he said plainly.
"Do you have anything special planned for us today then?" I tried again to start up a proper conversation.
"Sure," he replied dryly.
"Aren't you excited to see me?" I asked again if it would get me a more detailed response.
"Yeah" he replied while he focused solely on the road.
I didn't need him getting on my nerves so I gave up after the third dead-ass response but I was worried as to why he was giving me a cold shoulder after flashing me a big-ass smile mere minutes ago. Ugh, men!
Despite that I couldn't stop staring at him while he drove, his beautiful lashes that framed those eyes I didn't mind getting lost in, and his rock-hard body that was surprisingly comforting. I wanted him so badly despite the weird air between us at the moment.
"Fuck!" I heard him curse loudly all of a sudden and then before I could figure out what was happening, he took a sharp turn into a deserted road and parked his car.
I was startled and confused as to why he'd done that but instead of an explanation, I was met with his eyes which were full of a predatory hunger that I didn't understand.
"Red, I can't wait any minute longer, the past three days I've been going wild thinking of ways to drive your body crazy and I thought I could wait but right now you look so fucking beautiful" he breathed with desire and I could feel my insides stirring instantly in response.
Before I could process everything he'd just said, he lifted me out of the passenger's seat easily and dropped me in his lap with my legs spread on both sides of his seat straddling him. A girlish squeal escaped from my lips as I anticipated having him inside me.
"The moment I saw you in that dress, I knew I wanted to have your legs tightly against my waist and your boobs pouring out while I fucked you and watched you moan helplessly with every stroke." I watched his eyes darken while I bit my lips slowly as I imagined it.
"Do you have any idea what you do to me Red? I had to stop myself from touching you the moment I saw you else I wouldn't have been able to stop myself from taking you right there in front of everyone" he whispered as he kissed my neck slowly in the sexiest way possible.
I sucked in a deep breath sharply as I felt his arousal against me and mine was instantly triggered as a result. How the fuck did he get me going so easily? I wanted to fuck him so bad as he slowly rocked his erection against me and moaned lowly.
He began undoing his belt and zippers but he never for once took his eyes off me, from my eyes to my exposed neckline and my boobs that were popping out of my dress at this point. He stared right into my eyes as though he couldn't breathe without me and I held eye contact with him feeling myself get wetter with every passing second.
"Fuck Red, I really wanted to wait will we got to my place but with you staring at me and biting those juicy lips, I doubt I can wait for a second longer without exploding" he kissed me deeply and I moaned in anticipation, could he fuck me already?
And as though he'd read my mind, he slid my panties to the side, grabbed my ass in both hands, and fucked me real good until we were both nothing but a moaning mess.