Chapter 33 All in
LISA
I followed Tana to this party because of just one thing.
To get as distracted as possible. I came here to dance away and rid myself of all thoughts of Axel because these past few days, all I've been doing was thinking about him. We've spent a couple of days working on the third part of our assignment and it has taken all my willpower not to give in to the fire burning between us. And he wasn't making it easy, not when he
keeps making innuendos about that one time we slept together, throwing my reactions and how fast I came multiple times to my face. I couldn't even step up to the challenge because stepping up
would mean combusting and combusting would mean sleeping together.
I don't want to sleep with him ever again.
I want to sleep with him again. Badly.
purge
myself of this madness.
And before I did something stupid like stepping up to his challenge when I knew there was only one outcome, I was here to get laid by another guy because they seemed like the only way I could
And so far, the guy I was talking with was doing a poor job of distracting me.
"You look like a party girl," he said over the loud music and dancing bodies at the house party. We were both sitting by the bar and he leaned close to whisper into my ear, his breath fawned my cheeks
but it didn't heat me up like Axel's would.
His scent was all soft and flowery, nothing like the hardness and muskiness of Axel's own and it didn't kindle a heat in my lower abdomen, like Axel's would have.
"But I've never seen you at any party and trust me, I've attended a lot," he drew back and he made sure his lips brushed against my cheeks slightly.
I felt nothing.
"Trust me, looks can be deceiving."
"Oh really?" he made a point of staring at my body, at my cleavage that was exposed by the low neckline, my lower abdomen that was exposed by an opening there, and my thighs that were left bare
because the gown stopped just inches below my ass.
"So tell me, what exactly are you if not this slutty girl that my mind is telling me that you are?"
I blanched at his insults disguised as dirty words. I was sure he meant no harm and he just wanted to play dirty but his words annoyed me and instead of giving in to my annoyance, I played it cool
because if I should get annoyed at him, that'd make him the 10th guy I was getting annoyed with tonight and that'd completely ruin my chances of getting a guy to fuck.
Considering the fact that the party was almost over.
So I toned down my annoyance and I plastered a sugary smile on my face as I rested my palm on his thigh and I started massaging my way up, "why don't you try to guess? What could I possibly be?"
Her hand found his hard member and I stroked him through the fabric of his jeans.
He groaned out loud.
"Honestly, I don't think I care too much about that at the moment, I just want to take you upstairs and find out what's beneath this gown."
I stroked him harder, "so why don't you find out?"
We stood up wordlessly, the unsaid words well understood between us and we made our way towards the stairs. I felt someone's eyes on the back of my neck but I couldn't even care about that and
it was even a well-crowded party for fuck's sake, anyone could be staring at me, or better constructed, my ass. We opened doors to find them occupied with people in varying degrees of nudities and
pulled away and grabbed and fisted my hair in a very tight grip that brought tears to my eyes.
What the fuck?
"Which one should we start with?" he asked, his glistening with maniac arousal and excitement, "should I fuck your mouth first or eat you out first?"
What the fuck?
There was nothing arousing about his idea of dirty words and if anything, my annoyance was getting untamed and I was just a step away from losing it but instead, I tamed it with a smile.
Because I was so desperate to do this. It was the only way to get Axel out of my system especially since my fingers and vibrators weren't doing any good job again.
I pulled my hair away from his hold and I stepped away.
"Just give me a minute, I need to be in the bathroom."
"Be fast about it please, I'm about to go crazy."
Idiot.
I turned around on my heels and entered the bathroom.
I didn't have anything to do in the bathroom but I needed to prepare myself. I was going to sleep with that guy. No doubt about that, I needed to before I go crazy but I didn't even like him, wasn't even
attracted to him in the slightest bit but here I was, about to sleep with him because I couldn't get one sadistic asshole out of my head.
Damn! What has Axel done to me?
And how was I supposed to go through the act of sleeping with a guy I wasn't attracted to?
Maybe I could pretend he was Axel.
No, of course not, how could I pretend it was Axel fucking me when what I wanted to do was to forget all about Axel in the first place?
God! This was so fucked up and I was so close to losing my mind all because of a guy that I didn't even like.
Eventually, I resolved to go ahead with it, it was just physical intimacy and even though I've never been the type to sleep around, I've already slept with someone as cocky as Axel so there was really no
one I couldn't sleep with.
With that, I stepped out of the bathroom only for all air to leave my mouth.
Because the guy from earlier had disappeared from the room and instead, there was another guy in the room.
The one I've been so desperate to purge myself of.
Axel Ivanov.