Chapter 21 Moment of insanity
LISA
Perks to moments of insanity?
Yeah, that thing that happened with Axel Ivanov was definitely what I'd call the perk of insanity.
It's been five days since I saw him, five days since our encounter at the alley, not like that could hardly be called an encounter, he had kissed me, and that was the last thing that I expected. I never expected Axel to voluntarily kiss me, to give in to the insane attraction that was burning between us but he had done just that, kissed me deeply till I forgot how to breathe, till I forgot who we were, till I forgot that he was Axel Ivanov and I was Liza Volkov and we were enemies whose families have long been enemies who wouldn't hesitate to wipe each other out at the slightest provocation. But I didn't quite feel like that in his arms, I didn't feel like that when his tongue plundered my mouth and he held my wrists behind me to kiss me senseless. Instead, I felt a voracious hunger, a
A voracious desire so strong it consumed my entire being, it impaired my other senses till I could only feel and process one thing.
Just one thing.
The insane desire, no, need, an insane and deep-seethed need to sleep with Axel. Maybe not sleep with him, but fuck him or have him fuck him. Anyway, I wanted him in me. I had wanted him so
much at that point I had to use all my restraint not to touch him, to grab his obvious bud through his trousers. He had wedged control all over my body, had me come undone with just a kiss, and afterward, he had thrown my responses back at my face.
Of course, I knew it, that was the only reason why he kissed me, to prove a point, to throw the fact that I wanted him to my face and brag about how he could easily have me without even trying but that was never going to happen. Not on my watch anyways.
It was bad enough that I allowed my body to control me to that extent, was bad enough that I allowed my relationship with the enemy to deteriorate that badly. I could only imagine the look on
papa's face if he should see what I'd been up to.
I've never disappointed him and I didn't intend on starting now no matter how hard the insane attraction I was feeling towards Axel was.
But that determination did not stop me from having dreams about him, wet dreams where he really fucked me like his eyes had promised and every time I woke up, there was always a deep ache in my
core, one that I always have to take care of with my hands or vibrators with only one face in my mind.
The face of Axel Ivanov.
I've always been okay with my vibrators getting me off but since that dare, since that kiss, they've been nowhere near enough to satisfy me.
I wanted more. I wanted Axel but I was never going to have him. But still, like a 13 years old who was too shy to be in the company of her crush, I've been avoiding Axel ever since. He had called,(I'm still wondering how he got my number but he was Axel Ivanov and nothing was impossible for him) and asked us to meet up to discuss our projects but I came up with a silly excuse to avoid meeting him, to avoid being in the same space with him. I kept giving him excuses each time he called and now, we've wasted five days out of the seven days we have to work on the first round of our assignment so we were left with two days now and I couldn't avoid him
and any longer if I wanted to get the assignment done.
"Done avoiding me, Red?"
Those were the first words he threw at me immediately I sighted him leaning against an expensive-looking Bugatti. I know all Bugattis were expensive but this particular one looked like one that was sold in those high class and private auctions where rich people who wanted to waste their money bid on limited edition items and this particular one looked like one of its kind.
Trust Ivanov, especially Axel to waste money on things like this. He was a playboy after all and he needed expensive toys to flaunt around to get more girls to flock to him. I ignored his bait and the new stupid nickname he just called me.
"What are you doing outside?" I asked him, "I thought you agreed you were going to get the textbooks we needed from the library before I got here."
He shrugged nonchalantly, "I did, or at least, I tried to but it looks like every single copy has been borrowed by students who were obviously eager to do their project and didn't wait till two days before
their deadline."
I knew he was trying to bait me but there was no way in hell I'd take it. I knew I was to be blamed for delaying our assignment till now and now we have to do everything in a rush and all the hours I'd
avoided spending with him over the week, I was going to have to spend them with him at a stretch.
I bit down on my lower lip and his eyes latched on the movement.
God! The one thing I've been trying to avoid. How was I supposed to fight the attraction when he keeps looking at me like that? And I knew he wasn't doing that because he couldn't overlook
Whatever he was feeling for me, he was doing it because he wanted to prove a point.
Fucking Ivanov.
"So what are we going to do now? Is there any library in town that has the textbooks?"
"Yeah," he replied swiftly, "I already researched and we can get them in The Town's Library, it's just a 30 minutes drive."
"Oh, thank God! I'll just order a ride."
I started pressing my phone but I could feel his eyes so I glanced up briefly and yeah, he was really looking... glaring at me.
"What?"
"Knock it off, Lisa," he said through gritted teeth, it was obvious that he was angry and it was funny how he could easily get angry to have his words tossed back at him.
"This is my car right here, why would you order a ride when I have a car right here?"
I looked at his face, then his car before what he was implying dawned on me and I burst into laughter so loud that other students nearby turned to look at us.
Axel on his own was just looking at me as if I was running mad.
"Really? Axel? You think I'd ride in your car? Come on, I'm not that dumb."
He looked confused, then befuddled as if he really didn't understand what I was going on about.
"It's a car ride, Lisa, to do our school project as the teammates that we are. I'm not going to drive you to the middle of nowhere and chop your body into pieces."
I threw my hands up in exasperation, "and how would I know that? It's what you Ivanovs do best, blackmail, kidnapping, bodily injuries, and... You know what? I'm calling the ride, it's now up to you to join me or follow us in your fancy car. I don't care."
I started pressing my phone again and strong hands snatched it away before I could turn the screen on. I looked up to glare at him and God!
I cowered, just a tiny bit.
His eyes were simmering with so much malice, so much anger, and repressed fury it looks like he was using all his willpower not to reach for me and snap my head in two.
"Get in the car, Lisa," he commanded, his tone leaving no room for argument or comeback but I wasn't any of his subordinates or just anyone and he wasn't going to order me around. And besides, I couldn't get into his car now that I'd pissed him off. It was bad enough when he wasn't angry and now that he was fuming, he was going to kill me slowly and enjoy every minute of it.
"Make me," I retorted but the words didn't even leave my mouth before I was tossed up and found over his shoulders. I was too stunned and when I thought to pry myself off his shoulders, I was
dumbed with a reckless abandon on the front chair of his car.
He locked it from outside before crossing to the other side and entering. He didn't say a word to me, he just got behind the wheel and he started driving, eyes still dark and so angry. He was so
angry that I could see fumes emerging from his body.
He didn't return my phone to me and was I panicking? Maybe a tiny winy bit. I couldn't be sure that he wouldn't hurt me physically because that's what he does best and he wasn't returning my phone to me so I had no means of calling for help and I reached for my lower abdomen only to find my gun missing. It was today of all days that I forgot to bring my gun along.
I only had a pocket knife tucked away in my boot but even if I managed to get it out and use it on Axel, he would break every single bone in my body before feeling the pain.
Except I cut him straight in the throat.
I started to reach for my boot.
"Use your seatbelt, Red."
"Make me."
"Suit yourself."
The car glided into a deserted highway and he started driving at an alarmingly fast rate that had me flying all over the seat. I hit my head against the window, banged my elbow against the doorknob,
and was screaming for him to slow down but the sadistic fucker did not slow down, he only increased his speed as he overtakes the few cars on the road, making me fly around the chair, even more,
making me grow more hysteric.
I didn't use the seat belt and didn't even attempt to.
Eventually, the car came to an abrupt stop in front of a gas station and I lunged forward with so much force it was a miracle I didn't hit my head on the compartment.
"You fucking Psycho," I screamed at him, "do you want to get me killed?"
The corners of his lips twitched in annoyance and fury, "shouldn't I be the one asking you that question?"
"Well, I wasn't the one driving like a lunatic."
"And I wasn't the one who refused to wear the seat belt because of a petty reason."
"And I wasn't the one who kidnapped a girl who didn't want to get into his car!"
His nostril flared at the use of the word kidnap and he seemed to inhale and exhale loudly as to calm himself down before speaking again.
"You know what, Red, just snap that damn..."
"Stop calling me Red!"
I snapped!
He ignored me!
"Just snap that damn seat belt in place or I'd..."
"Or what?" I taunted, my voice coming out like a breathy whisper. He froze for a while, his dark eyes growing more assessing as he peered at my face, trying to gauge what I want from him.
What I need from him.
My knees spasm together involuntarily and his eyes snapped down to follow the movement before looking up at me again.
With hungry eyes that seemed to be undressing me.
"Are you trying to test me, Liza?"
"Too bad I don't give two fucks about you to test you."
I reached for the seat belt and snapped it in place.
A ghost of a dark smile tugged at the corner of his lips as he stared down at me before he finally turned back to the wheels.
No one said a single word till we got to the library.