Grabbing a pair of his thick track pants, I put them on and one of his hoodies. If he was forcing me back down there, I wasn't going to freeze. Reid got dressed quickly, afraid I was going to run. I had just finished putting on some socks when he stood in front of me.
"You need to eat." I ignored him and stood up and walked towards the door. Reid wouldn't let me pass, so I waited. "You need to eat, if not for you, do it for the baby." I glared at him.
"I'm not hungry, just take me back," I said. If he didn't trust me, I didn't want to be around him.
He moved out of my way, and I opened the door and started walking down the stairs. I could hear voices coming from Lily's bedroom. Stopping, I opened her door. Lily and Amber were playing with their dolls, sitting cross-legged on the floor. "Ari!" Lily screamed, throwing herself into my arms.
I hugged her tight and inhaled her scent. She always smelt of lavender. I felt Reid's shadow fall on me as he stepped in the room. Lily froze in my arms and looked up at him. "She came in Alpha; I didn't go to her." She didn't sound scared when she explained herself, but I didn't like the fact she had to at all.
"It's okay Lily, you're not in trouble. You don't need to worry." Reid told her making her relax.
"Reid said you're going to having a baby, that I will be an aunty." She looked so excited I couldn't help but feel excited for her, finding her excitement contagious.
"I have a bump want to feel," I asked. She nodded excitedly pulling at my shirt. Her little hands touching softly on my small bump.
"Can you feel it move? Do you know if it is a boy or a girl? Where have you been?" she asked excitedly, her blue eyes shining with happy tears.
"No, I can't feel it yet. At least I don't think I can, and no I don't know what it is, and I -" I didn't know how to answer her, I can't tell her Reid has had me locked in a cell downstairs. I didn't want her to be scared. "Maybe Reid will ask Mavis if she can do a scan and we might be able to find out," I told her, looking up at Reid who was watching me. His eyes were softer. I could tell he was probing into my mind seeing my reaction to Lily's excitement.
"I can see if she can stop by tomorrow. Do you want to know?" he asked me. I thought for a second. Did I? I just can't seem to picture myself as a mother. I felt excited for Lily, but could I feel excited for myself? Was a baby such a bad thing? Reid seemed to want this, maybe I would too.
"I don't know," I answered honestly.
He nodded his head. "You can think about it while you eat" I knew that was his way of saying It was time for me to leave.
"Can we watch a movie later? You have been gone for days, where did you go?" Lily asked.
I looked at Reid. "That is enough questions, for now, I will decide later if you can watch a movie if you behave," he said. The girls looked excited and went back to playing quietly on the floor. I knew he wasn't referring to them though. He didn't mean if they behaved. He meant if I did.
Aria's POV
Taking a seat in the kitchen, Reid rummaged through the pantry, making something that I knew was going to turn my stomach upside down. The smell alone of him just getting the ingredients out was enough to make me dry heave. I felt lightheaded and rested my head on the cool tabletop. Reid came over.
"What's wrong?"
I didn't say anything, refusing to give him any reason to send me back to the cell. Loneliness and the quiet down there was enough to send a person crazy. I was also scared that if I did go back down there, I would sleep. What if I slept the entire time away, slept until this pregnancy was over or worse never woke up. That thought scared me, the thought of leaving Lily alone in this world without me to protect her. I didn't want to go back to the cell. My own thoughts would send me insane, and I couldn't bear being away from Lily. I needed her like I needed air. She was the piece of my life I was proud of, the only thing I would fight to the death for besides Reid, who I wasn't so sure would do the same for me, at least not anymore. Making sure to keep my walls up so he couldn't invade my thoughts and think I was just trying to defy him. I could feel him probing trying to find a way in.
"Stop blocking me out, Aria," he growled annoyed. "I have warned you and yet you still go against the warning. Are you trying to piss me off?"
"They are my thoughts; you have no right to know them. If I wanted you to know what I was thinking, I would tell you." I told him, taking deep breaths through my mouth, so I couldn't smell the revolting stench of the bacon he placed on the counter. Reid gripped my shoulders, hauling me to my feet. The room spun before tilting. I bent over throwing up bile and narrowly missing Reid's foot. Walking over holding my breath, I washed my face under the sink and rinsed my mouth, trying to bring my temperature down. My body felt like it was on fire burning up and to think he wants me to keep going through this for another twenty weeks. Grabbing a tea towel and wetting it, I walked back over to where I threw up, intending to clean it. Reid snatched the tea towel from me.
"Sit, I will clean it." He sounded furious like he thought I did it deliberately. I suddenly wished to be back in the cell, anything to stop this heat that was overtaking my senses boiling me from the inside. I sat in the chair and watched as he cleaned the floor before walking out and chucking the tea towel in the laundry. A few seconds later, Wendy walked in with a mop.
"Here Wendy, I will do it," I said, trying to take the mop from her hand.
"Sit back down, Aria, I didn't say you could move." I glared at him.
"I'm pregnant, not fucking disabled." I spat back at him, snatching the mop from Wendy's hand. I was not going to make her clean up after me. Especially something so embarrassing like vomit. When I was done, Wendy took the mop and bucket and left. She didn't say one word to me the entire time. I wonder what Reid has said to them, usually even Wendy would have pushed the limits with Reid and tried to reach out to me. Only she didn't this time. Was she mad at me too for wanting to abort this pregnancy? Was I the only one who thought this was a disaster? Maybe I had gone too far, gone against the Moon Goddess.