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AALIYAH 

It's strange how Nikki helped me continue on to live a normal life. I'm taking her with me when I escape these walls, without a doubt. I never want to lose her since our love can create more than just heart-breaking memories.

Lady Sasha enters the room with deep claw wounds from Alpha Hunter still visible and some parts of her body are covered in bandages. Since I had misjudged Hunter's power, Nikki told me everything she had heard, including how he had jumped on her and lost his temper. I grin internally, so pleased with him.

"Your life is only but temporal, I assure you, you will pay for every mark I got." She promises that.

Since I have nothing to say, I choose not to reply. I can't go crazy on her and have him lose me along with the child because my shield is deep in the woods.

“I learned that you lost your child." She laughs. She says with a wider smile, "Because of me. I will make sure to frame my accomplishment because that is the best life I have ever led. Speaking of which, you will not be allowed to go even if it is past time. In your womb, it will decay and stink.” She makes threats. 

A panic attack causes me to stumble backward, and a wave of melancholy joins it. This time, her voice is playing in my thoughts without charge. My knees are to my chest, and my arms are wrapped around it as I fall to the ground, using my hair as a barrier. 

“Someone surely needs to be admitted to the asylum” She jeers.

I make an effort to maintain myself because Nikki would be disappointed. Her message must not fall flat.

Lady Sasha grabs hold of my hair and pulls me into my face. "Come on, act foolish and wild." She dared to smash my head against the wall. She moves forward one step more quickly than I do since she knows I'm headed for the restroom. I had to stop because she steps on my hand. 

I shudder and cuddle up against the wall in my typical sitting position. My hair is down. She slaps me with her whip despite knowing how much I detest it. It's crazy how she manages to get me alone as I cry in terror and no one comes to my aid.

She observes contentedly before exiting the room. I'm devastated, afraid, and anxious... Even better, lost. I close the door after using the restroom before leaving. 

Not a memory that makes me cry or lose my mind, but one that demands my soul, infused the air. His warmth envelops me; he must have struggled more than I did.

I clutch the necklace he gave me the night he stripped me of my badge. 'This is me, keep it next to your heart, that's the only place I should be.’ I feel my heart throb, not out of pain or a broken state, but genuine affection. I can't deny this one alpha a place in my heart. It gets harder, but it's easier loving him.

I rub my stomach as I long for my child. I simply wanted to feel how my baby used up all of my energy, thus I missed being weak. I sob and collapse on the ground, now broken. I detest the void. 

My eyes have turned silver, and I have white fur growing on my body. Energy is oozing through me like a weak membrane, making me feel queasy and like I might pass out. 

My beast awakens, ripping my garment to pieces. I crumble into my half-lupine form because the force possessing me has grown stronger. A little, smooth rumble then appeared, and it grew louder again. I was mistaken.

I sob, wishing Hunter were here to share in my happiness. I know he would be ecstatic and would never allow me to leave his sight. Because he will be extremely cautious even when he just cuddles me, his fear will be obvious. Nikki? Where would she be at this moment?

The only difference between this time and the last is that I'm not in my shield's arms while I lie feeble, gradually developing into a full human, nude on the ground. 

Nikki is certain she saw me in the room before she left, and I can hear her yelling my name. 

She is informed that I am inside and defenceless when I crawl to the door and make a weak knock.

“It's just me, sweetie. Kindly open.” She reaffirms.

I find it difficult to grasp the latch and open it after hearing these words. She bursts inside, grabs me in her arms, and closes the door.

She assumes I transformed once she noticed that I was naked and that my garments were torn.

"What happened?" Her eyes meet the blood dripping from my face and the shattered skin on my back "Lady Sasha?"  she asks.

I nod while crying.

“Did you experience a new panic attack?”

Since lying to her is pointless, I nod once again.

“You are going through a lot, my darling. Take no offense; it happened. You are powerless to change it, but I am, and I will never leave you in the dark.”

“And get whipped along with?" I observed quietly.

"As long as it will decrease your sentence, I don't mind. She can't continue to treat you horribly. Say you had passed away.” She observes my gushing skull. She gently places me on the ground. "Let me treat your wound," 

I don't object and I let her use a wet handkerchief to clean my face of the blood. She twists me laterally to prevent me from laying on my wound. She quickly dashes outside to retrieve her first aid kit and my dress, then quickly returns.

She wears that look she had earlier after dressing me and applying a tent to my wound. "Aaliyah, you did shift, and the next time it happens, I'm going to thrash your ass.” She stomps to my level and whispers in secrecy. 

"Can't you realize that you could lose your life? Nothing I've done, not even my love, can be trashed. Please.” She cries out, "I could talk to Alpha Hunter on your behalf and make him see reasons."

"Aaliyah, believe me, if you are not protected, you cannot go without your badge. You still haven't tamed your beast.”

“However, I could.”

“It was imprisoned for a very long period. It's distinctive.”

"I'm sorry," I mumble.

"I simply ask that you behave morally and not apologize. You don't have a child to keep safe. So please, keep yourself safe.”

I grab her hand and softly stroke it over my stomach. She appears perplexed.

“Do you wish it to be evacuated right away?”

I continue to stroke my stomach whilst shaking my head. 

"Is it painful? Need your belly rubbed? You scare me, Aaliyah; say anything.”

I managed to muster up a flimsy smile. Her eyes widened, so I know she understood.

"No way."

"Yes in that way." I grin and nod. "Please keep things under wraps.” I mumble.

She hugs me and then starts crying, soaking my arms with her tears. Nikki is one big sister about whom I will not stop talking. I never stop thanking the moon for bringing us together.