Chapter 76: Truth is Hard but True
Selena
I was really excited for Asher’s wedding. To be honest, I always dreamt of doing this and that in his wedding because we only had each other and I usually thought that one day he will find the one, and when he will get married, he will think about her more than his sister.
So yeah, sometimes I stayed jealous of his non-existent girlfriend and wife. I don’t know why though!
I was glad about his marriage although still I haven’t forgotten that he yelled at me at that time because of her. And what I mean by that… is that he had a change of behavior. I don’t know why. But he changed for a few moments and it scared me. Why would he become like that?
I don’t know if my thinking made any sense or not, but it was plausible. Although I think that Asher should have taken more time to assess her. I mean, he can’t literally just trust her like this after what she did, right?
I sighed. I felt a hand on mine. I looked at my left side and saw Nick looking at me with a worried face.
“What’s bothering you?”
“Nothing”
“Oh so if you want to hide it--”
“It is just Asher. Nick, how can he trust her?”
He sighed. “Yeah, something is weird. But can we do something?”
“Nope”
“So don’t worry. See, I know he is your brother and you are worried. But he made a decision so he must know why he did so. I mean, you know he is not immature. He is mature beyond his years. So, just don’t worry. He must have thought of something”
“Hm, you are right” I smiled at him. He sure knows how to make me happy and I guess that is one of the things I love about him so hell much.
I got up. “Okay, then come on, let’s buy our clothes for tomorrow”
“Oh yeah,” he got up too.
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Alicia
I was waiting for him when the doorbell rang. I opened the door. He smiled at me.
“Hey,” he said.
“Hey”
“Did you eat anything?”
“Nah”
“Why, may I know?”
“Because I was waiting for you”
He smirked and kept a box he brought on the table and I closed the door. “What’s in it?” I asked.
“Your present”
“What’s my present?”
He came near me and I looked at him in his eyes. Maybe I just liked this, but I don’t find the same love in his eyes anymore.
Maybe I don’t want to find it because somewhere I don’t want him to love me because I don’t. I don’t and I don’t want his heart to break again.
But I don’t want to get hurt and I will if he is faking it because then he would hurt me after marriage. I wish I had a way out without hurting anyone in this. But I don’t think so…
He leaned closer. “I will tell you if you kiss me”
I looked shocked. He knows I am still not sure about my feelings. Why is he talking so stupid stuff?
“Asher…”
He got away and laughed. “Ohh don’t worry, just kidding, you know… uh, wedding jokes?”
I laughed for a second to reduce the awkwardness and went to the sofa and sat down. He went to the bed and sat.
The awkwardness was like, spread in the air and he was definitely aware of how awkward he made things. But well, I don’t know if I should blame him either.
I sighed and sat beside him. Maybe i am not in love with him, but he is acting so nicely, maybe I can just be good to him too.
He looked at me and smiled.
“So, Asher. How was your day”
“I spent my day with you. You know better”
“Well, yeah you did but still”
“It was great”
“That’s good to know”
“Mmm. But what matters is, how was your day?... with me?”
I sighed. I can’t be like, it was amazing!! And stuff because he will get the wrong idea and how good it would be if he just figured out by our talks and my behavior that I am not in love with him…
“It was good” I smiled back at him. It was good, really. I like him, as a friend maybe. But not in that romantic manner. Not anymore.
“Great to know”
“Mhm”
“So, um, let’s have dinner”
“Oh yeah”
He got up and ordered the dinner on the call. It is great to be in a hotel, we don’t need to make our own food. I mean, at home we can do this too but there we have an option so we really don’t go for this.
I was just roaming around in the room and had no idea where I should be going. The room was big enough that we can be in different corners, out of each other’s sight, but it was like… I don’t know. It was still awkward. I don’t know anything.
“Um, the arrangements were good” he spoke and I looked at him.
“Oh? Oh! That’s good”
“Yeah”
“Hmm”
He nodded and just looked at the door as if it would make the person come fast. I just looked down at the mattress. He has changed again and I don’t like dual personalities. I mean, why? Can’t you just be bad as before so I don’t feel that bad if I hurt you? Why do you have to be so cruel? Like, hurt me when you want to, and when I have to hurt you, you become so good?
I sighed. “What is wrong with you? Tell me now” he asked me and sat beside me.
“Nothing Asher. Really”
“I know I am not the best guy but I would really like to solve your problems”
“Asher really, it is nothing”
“Tell me… what is bothering you?”
Maybe that was the time. I should tell him.
I know maybe he will get mad and things. Or maybe he would understand and give me time?
I sighed. I have to do this because I don’t wanna regret for the rest of my life just because I didn’t have courage for a little sentence.
“Actually…” I took a deep breath. These moments really make you lose your breath. Your heartbeat is so fast that it hurts. “Well, I am not sure about our wedding…”