Sakshi:
I remembered Randhir's words asking me whether I love him or not.
Randhir, I love you. I love you so much. But I know even if I say that you won't trust me. I left you when you needed me the most and that was my biggest mistake. Please, forgive me once. I need just one chance.
I heard the sound of the drizzling and went out to the garden. Randhir stood on the balcony and seeing me from there. Rain drops fell all over me as if to comfort me from my sorrow. I closed my eyes and raised the head feeling that these rain drops cleanses my heart forever. My tears mixed with the rain and started flowing down. I sat on my knees and palmed my face crying. I cried heart fully I am holding these tears from a very long time.
Suddenly, I felt everything blank before me and fell unconscious.
Randhir:
I immediately went to Sakshi seeing her falling unconscious while crying in the rain. I brought her to the room and placed her on the bed. I tried to wake her up and she came into conscious after sometime. But, she looked at me with fear.
"Please, I am so tired. Please give me rest for today. I beg you," Sakshi said
She pleaded me with tears. I got angry but felt pity too at the sametime. What happened to me? Why did I become that worst where my wife fears for me even if I care for her?
"You are drenched in the rain. Change your dress. Otherwise you will fall sick. I woke you up for that," I said.
I noticed a small smile appearing on her lips.
"Didn't you hear me?" I said, raising my voice.
"Yes, I am going. I am sorry."
Sakshi said and went to change her dress.
Am I really that harsh towards her? She frightened seeing me. She is fearing with my touch. I didn't wake her up to fulfill my wish. But she thought that I am going to force myself on her. No, How can I do this to her? But no. She deserves the treatment I am giving to her. She is the one who changed me into a rude and cold hearted person. Hence, she is the one who has to face the consequences of my transformation.
Silent tears dropped from my eyes. Seeing her coming to the room, I turned another side.
"I will prepare the dinner for you," Sakshi said, but I pulled her towards me by holding her wrist.
"Why did you faint? I didn't even touch you all these days as I am on thebed. So it is not because of my torture. Then why did you faint? Are you not having food properly?" I said.
She didn't respond to me and tried to get free from my hold. I tightened the hold and pinned her to the nearby wall.
"Answer me, baby "
She frightened with the change in my voice and calling. I understood that she remembered that I calls her as baby only when I get angry with her.
I moved my finger from her forehead to the lips touching her cheeks and nose.
"I...am...on...fasting.."
"Today?" I said.
She didn't reply. I pressed myself towards her. There is no gap between me and Sakshi. She is breathing hardly as I placed my whole weight on her. She bent her head to avoid the eye contact with me. I made her to see me. I grasped her lips and started kissing it. I licked her lips and Sakshi clutched her fist. Though I hurt her with my touch but I still feel that she loves my touch as she feels my love rather than anger. I bent towards her neck and started kissing her all over the neck.
"Why are you on fast?"
I took the pin of her sari and took it from her blouse. She unknowingly answered me.
"For u. I prayed that I will be on fast for one month taking only liquids if you recover fast".
I looked at her. Her eyes were closed and her hands were on my shirt holding my collar tight. I pinned her sari to the blouse again and left her.
"I got my answer."
She came into this world and released what she said just before. Actually how I made her to say the truth. She is looking at me
"Do you love me?"
Sakshi nodded in no. I smiled at her. She didn't understand why am I smiling instead of being angry at her answer. I again went near to her and started kissing her on the forehead, eyes and cheeks.
"Ple....please...lea...leave....me.."
I kept finger on her lips. I then turned her back and touched her back slowly with my fingers. She clutched her fist again. I kissed her.
"Do you love me, darling"?
I licked her back and placed kisses in between and caught her by placing my hand on her bare belly removing sari aside. I pinched it a bit romantically but not to hurt her.
"I love you so much. I can't live without you. Forgive me, please."
She said in a trance created by me by touching her romantically. I hugged her tightly from the back.
"This is what I want to hear from you. Why did you lie to me saying you don't love me? Answer me, Sakshi."
Due to my shouting, she opened her eyes and pushed me away. She went to the washroom and locked it.
I sat on a sofa remembering what she said just before and smiled for her confession. After sometime, I went to the room with a glass of milk for her. She is on the bed and looked at me.
"Have it. This is the milk with turmeric powder. You won't catch with cold. Fasting for one month and taking only liquids is really a bit too much of loving a person. Thank you. I love you too," I said.
I gave milk to her. She drank it in one go.
"Hey, it is hot. How could you drink like that? Falling in love with the one whom you loved once is strange yet a good feeling because he is none other than your husband. Today I understood how to make you confess the truth. Don't worry. Soon I will know the whole truth."
I placed a kiss on her forehead and laid beside her. She looked at me with surprise and shock.
"Won't you sleep, cutie?"
Sakshi immediately laid on the bed beside him and closed her eyes. She turned other side to hide her smile. I smiled and placed my hand on her and went close to her. I started breathing deeply near her back. I made shapes with my finger on her back. Sakshi shivered and clutched the fist. I kissed on her back.
"Good night, dear."
I left her and slept in my place. Sakshi smiled unknowingly.
"Good night."
"Tell me the truth, Sakshi. Why did you leave me?"
She didn't reply and I found her sleeping. I slept quietly.
"I know that you are not sleeping, Sakshi. I even know the reason behind you leaving me without even informing me. I can't trust you and never forgive you. You are not the one whom I loved. If I know your true colours before, I would never waste my love and emotions for you.
But whatever I want you and I just made you mine. Even if you beg me I won't forgive you. But it's true that I love you and now you love me too. Whatever, you can never fix a broken heart. Though you try, you will find only heart with cracks."
Next day, I got ready to the office. Sakshi came to me.
"Did you come to call me for the breakfast?"
"Ye...Yes."
"Don't you dare to lie to me, Sakshi. I know you didn't come for that."
"I..I..want to.....go out...to meet a friend. I will come soon."
"Ok. You can go. But only after completing all the household chores. Don't use the car. Give me your wallet."
She gave her wallet to me. I took all the money and cards from that wallet.
"Take this hundred rupees and go," I said.
"What?"
"You will understand the value of everything in life and the behaviour of your circle too when you have no money," I said.
She took the money calmly. I left to the office after having the breakfast. I didn't say anything to her and had it silently. Sakshi went out to meet her friend. I was going in my car and saw Sakshi near a ice cream parlour with Ajay. Ajay held her hands and both are talking and smiling. I clenched my fist and went to the home. I waited for her to come home from the afternoon. She came home at 8 PM. She was scared of me.
"You came so early?" I said.
"Tell me, dear. Did you meet your beloved friend? Do you mean that this is reaching home soon?"
"I...am...sorry."
"Shut up. Tell me where did you go? Who is your friend?"
"She is my childhood friend. Her name is Pinky," Sakshi said.
I smiled seeing her and kissed her on the forehead. She stood startled.
"Come, let's go to our room. I need to discuss a lot with you today, baby."
Her body started sweating but she silently followed me to the room.