“The first day of her last period was April 3rd.” We both look at him with a shocked expression though the doctor seems to recover faster than I did.
“Okay and have you been having any fatigue, nausea, vomiting, aches or pains of any kind? I will need you to go into the bathroom for a urine sample.” Okay time for me to talk.
“Okay and yes, I’ve had all of those except for aches or pains. I was so tired this morning that I almost rescheduled. The nausea usually happens around noon which is followed by vomiting if I eat. If I can hold off on eating then sometimes I won’t vomit but that isn’t always the case.”
The nurse comes in then and hands her a plastic cup with a lid that’s inside of a little ziploc type bag. I get up and go into the bathroom and wash my hands when I’m done then come out and hand her the sample in the bag. After she leaves I start to get nervous all over again. What is going on with me? I’m stronger than this and yet I feel like a kid being sent to the principals’ office. I didn’t do anything wrong though. I mean I’m a grown woman and I know that when you have unprotected sex this is what can happen. I’m already showing symptoms so I have to be at least two months or three but I’m guessing because I really have no clue.
“Okay well lets go over a few things while we wait for the results. First off you can’t go without eating just because you’re afraid of becoming ill. It is a nuisance but it comes with the territory but the good news is that it doesn’t last the entire pregnancy. If you are pregnant, I’m going to put you on a sort of diet that should help with the nausea and vomiting by having you eat foods that will give you and the baby the nutrients and vitamins that you’ll both need throughout your pregnancy, and that hopefully won’t make you so sick. Now you know with your history that we’re going to be extra careful in monitoring you and your baby’s development. Your condition has you as a high risk pregnancy so you’ll have more appointments than a normal pregnant woman. We will monitor your blood pressure and glucose levels to make sure that you don’t end up with gestational diabetes or preeclampsia. You will need to get some exercise because we don’t want you to become overweight. Believe it or not you are not eating for two. We only want you to gain the required weight and no more because it will be hell to lose later but more importantly it isn’t good for your health and you need to be as healthy as possible during this time. Will you have any problems with getting off at work for these appointments? I’m asking because if missing work will be a problem then maybe we should consider putting you on bed rest now and you can just take medical leave from work.”
“I can work from home so that won’t be a problem.” I’m taking in all of this information and I try to look at him without being too obvious so I can see how he’s reacting. When I see him, he’s listening intently and nodding in agreement to what she’s saying. He has a slight smile that he’s trying to hide but I can tell that it’s there. My man is happy that he’s going to be a father and I’m happy that I can give that to him. I turn back towards the doctor and she’s finishing up the last few details of how we’re going to go about dealing with my pregnancy if I am in fact pregnant.
“Baby you can sit down now. I’m sorry that you’ve been standing this whole time because of me.” He kisses my forehead.
“Doll you know I’d do anything you need to make you feel better.” I smile as he goes and pulls the chair close to me then sits down. Then the doctor stands up as a nurse comes in to tell her that she’s needed for something and she tells us that she’ll be back when the results come in.
Sitting there waiting for the results starts to mess with my nerves again but this time I handle it a lot better. I was doing fine until the nausea hit and I tried putting my head between my legs but that wasn’t working. Jameson was rubbing my back and trying to soothe me but what happened next was just inevitable. I jumped off the bed and flew into the bathroom. I made it to the toilet just in time for all my breakfast to come back up. When I’m done losing my breakfast and rinsing my mouth out, he helps me back to the bed but this time I lie down. I feel so weak and exhausted and all I want is to go home and go to sleep. The look on his face tells me that he doesn’t know what to do to help me and that makes me a little sad. My big strong man is out of his element on this one but so am I, so I just smile at him and ask him to rub my back. The action doesn’t help with my nausea but it does help with my nervousness and it gives him something to do.
Thirty minutes later the doctor comes back in and she has a paper in her hands. She sits down and reads over the thing it seems like forever before she finally looks up at us. He helps me sit up and we wait for her to speak.
“Congratulations Jameson and Renee. You are going to have a baby.”
We both look at each other and he smiles first before hugging me and I hug him back. Then he begins kissing me and makes some kind of happy sound and I just stare at him smiling. He’s so excited and I’m very happy.
“Thank you so much Doll. You have made me the happiest man in the world. You’re giving me the greatest gift I’ve ever been given.” I didn’t know what to say to that at all. He was thanking me for giving him a child. I couldn’t hold back the tears any longer and I just started crying but they were tears of joy. I had never been as happy as I was at that moment. The man that I love and I were going to have a baby, a family. He wipes the tears from my cheeks and kisses both then my lips.
“I’m very happy that I can do this for you baby. The gift is for both of us though. I can’t wait to have a family with you.”
We finally remember the doctor is still in the room with us and turn towards her. I’m in full blush mode and he’s smiling like the cat that ate the canary. She tells us that we’re going to do a sonogram now and has me lie down on the bed and she pulls covers over my private area as she raises my gown up to the top of my stomach. Then she squirts some gel onto my stomach from a tube and it is cold but I’m used to it from all the ultrasounds I’ve had throughout the years. She takes a little device and puts it on top of the gel and starts to move around my stomach as we watch the screen for a picture to form. I’m holding his hand as we watch the black and white screen form into something but I can’t tell exactly what and the doctor looks at me and sees my confused expression.
“I know your baby doesn’t look like anything to you but you’ll be able to tell better as the months go by but what I can tell you right now is that you have a very healthy baby. When the time comes do you two want to know the sex of the baby?” I look up at him and shake my head no.
“He can know if he wants but I want it to be a surprise.” Then I look at him. “And if you choose to find out you are not to tell anyone do I make myself clear?”
“Yes Doll.” He pouts a little and I kiss his hand.
“Doctor I’m so sorry but are we done now? I’m very tired and feel sick and I just want my bed. I’ve already thrown up my breakfast waiting on the results and if I’m going to be sick I’d rather be sick at home.”
“Yes we are done for today. Why didn’t you tell me that you were sick? You have to tell me these things when you come for visits. I’ll get you some crackers and ginger ale while I get your prescriptions for fatigue and prenatal vitamins. I want you to take it easy the next two days if you can.”
“Thank you doctor and I will.”