No right thing to do

No right thing to do
DARIUS’ P.O.V
Any form of heat was cleared off my mind in that moment, making me blink rapidly, trying to get my thoughts together.
“what?” i said, my throat tightening as i looked at him. I could not believe my ears. I looked at her, hoping that i heard wrong, that she would say something else, but she was quiet for the longest time.
“you used me” there! There it was, her words. Those words that ripped my chest from the inside out.
“what?” i said again, still not wanting to believe what i had just heard. She said nothing. Looking at me like she was scared to say it again. “I begged you to leave me alone, to go before things went south” my voice was raising with each word that i spoke.
“I…”
“I am still speaking, Mika” i said, silencing whatever it was that she was going to say. It was no doubt going to be hurtful.
I mean that was what she ever spoke about anyways… hurtful stuff.
“I am sick and tired of you painting me to be the bad guy”
“What are you saying Darius..” there was fear in her voice but i did not mind.
“I will send you back” i saw her go visibly white as I spoke
“what does that mean” she said, her voice shaking so much, it was actually a miracle that she had gotten those words out of her mouth.
“It means i am trying to do right by you” i said, looking her straight in the eyes, trying to make her understand that it was not me throwing her away, not in the way she was thinking. “there is nothing under the sun that i am going to do that would even make sense to you anymore. You are always going to be on your guard, so let’s just stop it. I will drop you back in the human world…” i paused, expecting her eyes to light up at the mention of that.
I remembered how she looked happy there, how she always looked at her ‘sister’ there, like it was her best friend in the whole world. How she had looked at her ‘mum’ there, even though she had never gotten fully along with her, the light in her eyes.
I waited, patiently waited to be told that at least i had done something right, but it never came.
“so this is it?” she had said instead, looking at me with horror in her eyes.
I tugged at my hair. The anger in my chest along side the frustration could not be stopped. “what more would you want!!! you wanted this!! you literally walked in here!!! i tried to force you away!!!! i tried to make you see reason!!!”
“so because of this one time-”
“it was not this one time!!! it’s the countless other times before this!!! it’s the times were it just feels like i am doing wrong!!!”
”Darius..” she tried to stop me but i was too far gone, i could not continue to see that i was doing wrong to the one person i wanted to give the world for
“i wasn’t even there to save you from falling into oil!!! if not for the swapping!!” i yelled, remembering how her face twisted in pain.
I watched for a second, guilt on her face evident before it was gone.
I shook my head.
It was just me overthinking everything with how stressed i was feeling. I mean what did she have to be guilty of?
“Look..” she said when everywhere was a bit quiet from my tantrums “why don’t we just calm down, by tomorrow, we should have at least…”
“you may not agree with me, but trust me, this is what is best Mika, tomorrow morning, i should have…”
“Darius… don’t do this. Don’t throw away the little thing that we are building” she looked at me for the longest of time, making me to let out a breath, then i touched her.”
I said nothing, just looking into my eyes, prompting me to explain what that was all for. “do you feel that?” i said, my voice coming out in a low whisper.
“feel what?” she asked, looking genuinely confused at me.
“exactly” i said, the sad smile finding it’s way to my lips before i could even stop it. “our spark is dead Mika” she opened her mouth to say something else so i knew i had to change my tactic.
“you would be safe there. Aria might be in the cells now, but Azenith. It’s only a matter of time before she comes for her daughter, and Valarrak..” i watched her take a deep breath as those words came out of my mouth.
I gulped, another way i had hurt her, another way i had failed to protect her by not believing her sooner. “I…”
“Save it” she snapped, making my eyes widen “you’ve made your point absolutely clear Darius, good night, i would get my things packed. Or would you mind that i drop everything that i have acquired here too” there were tears in her eyes. “you know what? It does not even matter” she said, walking out of the room, leaving me there to my thoughts.
“it’s for the best” i sighed to myself after a long while, climbing my bed to deciding if sleep was going to come to me or not.
A knock came at the door, pulling me to my feet faster than any attack had ever gotten me to my feet. “Mik-” the words died in my mouth when i saw that it was a guard that was in front of me” i took in a deep breath, trying to keep in my anger and disappointment.
“what!” i snapped, looking at him with irritation that could not be hidden.
“I am sorry my lord…” the guard said, trying not to stuttere. “i just… i just had this note” he said, stretching his hands to give me the note.
I took it from him, ripping it out of his hands.
“I AM COMING FOR WHAT’S MINE”..