Chapter 30

Sakshi's POV:

I stood in the rain for half an hour. Rain became too heavy. I couldn't stand because of the force of rain. Rain in the direction where he made me to stand. Rain drops are hitting me. Within a few minutes, it became hail storm.

Hail started hitting me. I fell down to knees on the ground. It's hitting me hard. Just then I found Randhir coming to me running.

He was angry again. I tried to stand. I was unable to stand. I knew he was angry as I fell to the ground where he told me to stand.

He pulled me from ground by catching my shoulder.

"I am unable to stand because of shivering. I am sorry. Please do not punish me more. I can't bear."

Surprisingly he hugged me tight, kissing me.

"I am sorry, Sakshi. I am so stupid. I told you to stand in rain not in hail storm. Why didn't you come inside? I am sorry."

Hail is hitting but he held me in the way which hits him and not me.

"Randhir, please go inside. It hurts."

He nodded.

"It hurts you too. Come let's go inside "

I tried to walk. But my legs ached making walk a dream. He lifted me in his arms and covered me bending his head. He took me to the room. Slowly he placed me on the bed.

He gave clothes to me.

"Wipe yourself and wear these dry clothes."

I looked at him.

"I am your husband. I already saw you as I want many times."

I got angry and blushed at the same time.

"Ok. I will wait out. Call me after completing."

He said and went near the door. But came back and kissed my lips. He left the room.

I changed my dress and called him. He came with oil and hot water bag. He slowly massaged where hail hit me. Keeping warm water bag made me relax from pain and cold. He took my hand and looked at it. Still it's very black. Slowly he applied oil to it too.

"Aah," I said.

"Paining?"

"Not much," I said He can see the pain of my hand. Because it is visible. But when will he see pain of my heart and soul? Can he feel it ever? It is invisible. He can never feel it.

"I can feel it and see it too. Because I too faced it in the past," he said giving me an emotionless smile.

"Randhir."

"Yes, my heart ached many times for love that was true. For care that would ease my pain. For company that would faded my loneliness away. But until now, I never got that."

"But I am there for you to love, care and be with you forever," I said, patting on his hand.

"I want to relax. I feel so tired today," He said by making me to lie on the bed. He slowly started removing the top of my dress.

"Randhir, leave me."

"Why?"

"You are not considering me as your wife. There is no love for me in your heart. If you expect only pleasure from me, it will become mere prostitution. Nothing more than that. For this no need to marry me. You can go to any prosti—"

"Not one more word. Or I will kill you today."

He left me and sat beside me.

"I already told you. I will get such feelings only for you. Because you are my love. But don't think I married you only for pleasure. I can stay without touching you throughout my life," he said angrily.

I understood he got hurt. But I heard what I want to hear i.e. I am his love. I shut my eyes. He wiped tears coming out from my closed eyes.

"Don't worry. I won't force you. I won't touch you ever in my life," He said.

He removed his hands wiping tears. I held his both hands and kissed them.

"When I am your wife whom you love, no one including me can deny your right. Because I too love you. We have an emotional attachment which you refuse to agree."

I pulled him towards me. He smiled.

"I really need you today. Because I saw my father's family today."

"Father's family?"

He didn't say anything.

"I didn't get you, Randhir." I said expecting answer from him.

But he closed my mouth by placing a kiss on my lips. He removed my top throwing it on the floor. He slowly kissed my neck all over. His face was hidden in my neck. I don't know what he is doing. But I felt happy and some strange feeling delighted me.

His touch is soft and sweet. It's not harsh as always. He suddenly stopped and looked at me.

"Don't worry. I am not going to hurt you. I really want your love. Just love, nothing else. If you didn't like, I am ready to stop now itself."

I encircled my hands around his neck and kissed him. He smiled again.

"Can you be like this forever?" he said looking somewhere.

"In the sense?"

"Loving me ever."

"I love you forever, Randhir" I said, placing a kiss on his lips again.

"Do you really love ONLY ME?"

I turned my gaze from him.

"You wanna hit me, right? But I too want to hear that you love only me. I know you refused first to make me confess my feelings."

"I love only you. No one else. Only you are the one who is in my heart," I said looking straight into his eyes.

"I am really a virgin before our marriage," I continued.

"It doesn't matter until I am the only person whom you love," He kissed me below my neck.

He slowly unhooked my bra. He kissed my breast touching them lightly with his tongue. He moved his tongue in different patterns.

"Today I find you so beautiful. You are making me crazy," He said moving down.

After a few minutes I found him undressing my bottom too. His clothes too reached the floor. He kissed my belly. He slept beside me and covered both of us with a blanket.

"I love you, Sakshi," he said coming on top of me.

"I love you too," I said which is just a whisper. Because of his touch, new sensation created in me. Because I felt his love this time. I lost total control. I gave complete control to him. Just experiencing whatever he did to me with love.

He hugged me tight and placed kiss again on my body everywhere. He made love to me and then hugged me. He slept peacefully.

I caressed his hair. But my mind was not peaceful. As I know he is an orphan. Then from where did his father come from? Who is his father? What is he hiding from me?

Until now I thought he was doubting me. He was angry at me. But now I felt something else was wrong. Did he love me? Then what made him hurt me every time? Why was he upset seeing his dad?

How to make him trust my love? How could I make him share his grief? I looked him and kissed him on the forehead, pulling him closer to me. He was my life. He was my love. He was my everything.

Whatever he did, I couldn't stop loving him. Because I had loved him forever. I would continue to love him forever. Whatever it took to make him happy, I would do it for him.