Chapter 21

Sakshi's POV:

Randhir behaving normally with me as if nothing happened. He is caring for me and baby. He is not at all serious with me.

His behavior was killing me with guilt. I should have told him everything before our marriage or at least after marriage. I really broke his trust. But still he forgave me even without compelling me to tell him about my past.

"What are you thinking so seriously, my dear wife?"

I looked at him and smiled to hide my feelings. Was it really true that I loved him? If it was true, how could I hide my past from him? He was my husband and he had the right to know about me. But I was hesitating to share it with him. I was unable to look into his eyes at least. I didn't deserve his pure love and forgiveness.

Sometimes forgiveness is more painful than rudeness. I have to be as honest as he is to me. I must tell everything to him. Only then I can move freely with him. Until then I can't.

He patted on my shoulder.

"Are you ok?"

"Yes."

"Your phone is ringing from a long time. But you are not receiving the call."

He handed my mobile to me. I looked who's calling. It's Ajay. I am scared seeing Randhir.

"I…I am really...not in touch...with him. I have not talked to him in 4 to 5 months. Please, trust me."

Randhir looked at me seriously.

"I didn't ask you all that, Sakshi. I trust you. I still feel guilty for doubting and talking so rudely blaming you and your character. Don't make me to feel more guilty by getting scared of me. You can talk to Ajay or anyone. Be as you want."

"Are you angry at me?"

"What?"

"Then why are you saying that I can do whatever I want? I..."

"I am not angry with you. I am saying you can do anything because I trust you. I know you won't hurt me anymore."

I hugged him.

"I am sorry, Randhir. I thought to tell you about Aayudh before our marriage. But I got scared seeing your behavior on our engagement day. Even after the marriage, I tried to tell you. But you doubted me every time, and just for talking to someone at the wedding party, you became very angry and punished me. So I thought if I told you about my marriage, you would kill me."

Randhir's POV:

I remembered the incident where I was so rude to her after I saw her with my business partner. If I was that rude even though she didn't make any mistake, how can she expect me to understand her when she tells the truth about her marriage.

It's all my fault to suffer her that much. I insulted her many times. Every time I pointed towards her character, blaming her saying that she seduced every man with whom she talked. Now I really felt guilty for my words, which I had spoken to her in anger.

She really loved me. If not, there was no need to stay with me, bearing my torture. She even bore Sneha's insults for me. She worked as a maid in her own house. How could I be so stupid to her?

She betrayed me before the marriage. But there is no need to hurt her that much. I should have given at least one chance to her to rectify her mistakes. At least from now, I will try to keep her happy. But first, I must solve this problem of Sneha. I don't understand why Sneha is so silent and caring for Sakshi. She may be planning something. Because of her, I can't speak or apologize properly to Sakshi. I need to know about Sneha. Why she wants to take revenge on Sakshi? I should know the reason, only then I can save Sakshi from her.

"Randhir, I need little time. I will tell everything to you. Can you please give me some more time?"

"It's ok, Sakshi. Take your time. You can tell me when you feel comfortable enough to share it with me. Whether you reveal it or not, my love for you won't change. I can assure you that."

"May I come in, Mr. and Mrs. Randhir?"

We both looked at the side where the voice came from. It's Sneha. We broke hug and got away from each other.

"Can't you knock the door before coming?" Randhir shouted at her.

"I should have knocked it but I think you both are not in a mood to listen to the sound of knocking of the door. You are busy in romancing."

"Aft all I am romancing with my wife and not with someone else. You better realize it."

"Did you forget the promise you gave to me? Randhir, tell me when is our marriage?"

Sakshi looked at me with fear hearing about her marriage with me. I took her close in front of Sneha and hugged her from the side.

"She is my wife. I am not going to leave her at any cost. I know how to save her. Do whatever you want."

"You may not leave her. But I don't think Sakshi will accept you after seeing this video "

She showed a clipping to us.

Sakshi's POV:

I was shocked, looking at the video. I can't see video properly as my eyes filled with tears already. How could Randhir do this to me? How could he betray me? Is his love an action? I looked at Randhir.

"It happened when you left me, Sakshi. To forget you, I chose to destroy my life."

"Get lost from here right now, Sneha," I shouted at Sneha.

Sneha went out. I sat on the floor. The scenes in the video started appearing in front of my eyes again and again. Randhir was in the drunken state with girls in the bed. I want to kill myself. Randhir didn't speak even a word to me. Whole day we both stayed in the room itself without talking to each other.

Just my one mistake spoiled the life of two persons. I spoiled my own life and his too. I thought I can rectify the mistake but now I realized it's too late. Should I accept him? Should I forgive him as it's all because of me? Or should I leave him not because he did wrong but because I am the reason behind it?