Chapter 43 Friends with Benefits: Sending the breakup text
POV: Nayla
I pushed Kade out of my room, not in simple anger…I was fucking pissed.
He was my best friend, not the type you're thinking…besties with benefits.
I benefit from him…financially, while he gets advice on how to be a lovely boyfriend from me.
His cheating girlfriend was the most narcissistic person I know in the history of mankind.
“She just hung up, what do you think I should do? Is she vexed with me?” I could hear the pain and desperation in his voice and I sighed loudly.
I wanted to yell at him, I wanted to tell him to stop being shitty to himself, I wanted to tell him to move on but I hissed because I knew he would simply turn a deaf ear.
I moved to my bed without caring about him, he could simply break up with that cheat he called a girlfriend but he chose to suffer.
I rested on my bed for a few seconds before I heard him knock again.
“I know you can hear me out, Nayla but what can I do? I love her too much. You can call me dumb but I'm doing all these for love…I'll take you to a shopping spree.”
Shopping spree? He must have just seen me as his friend who was only after his money.
He was being shitty to me, so I stood up and walked to the mirror to check myself out, “Am I dirty? Does he just see me as a friend? Am I not attractive enough for him?”
I had loved Kade since high school and I decided to settle for the role of a best friend with benefits.
I hated that role so much, I wanted to be the woman in his life so bad. I wanted to have the role of a girlfriend in his life.
I had turned down every man that asked me out and now, I'm twenty eight and single.
“Just leave my door and do whatevers shit you want to do…I don't fucking care. You're an ass licker, a pushover too.”
I groaned angrily, hoping to hear his pleading voice but I only heard the sound of the door closing.
I simply let out a sigh of frustration and didn't say anything.
I hated the fact that I was insecure with Kade, I had shown him green lights which he ignored.
I entered my bathroom to have a bath. I was going out with my old friend Astrid. It was friday…clubnight.
I had stopped going out because I wanted to be a good and perfect girl for Kade.
“What am I wearing?” I brought out a pink thigh-length gown with glitters and petals.
“It's been almost eight years I last fucked a man. I'm bringing one home today. A tall latino…maybe an African man with ten inches…Asian, I've never fucked one before.”
I had a monologue while I dressed, I've made up my mind. I wouldn't wait for Kade anymore.
He could waste his life chasing Kamila, but I wanted something with a man and I'd do that today.
I picked up my phone from my bed and sent a text to Kade. I wanted to live my life.
I didn't want to be a wounded therapist to a broken man any more. I have my life to live.
I wanted to get married like any girl out
there. I wanted to raise kids, build my career and live my life unapologetically.
“Lets stay away from each other. You've been my best guy, I wouldn't deny that but seeing you with Kamila breaks my heart everyday and I hate to admit that I've loved you all my life. I don't want to be reduced to the role of a therapist bestie. I wish you the best with your girlfriend Kamila”
I clicked the send button and picked up my bag. “Nayla…you deserve better.” I calmed myself down.
I dialed my friend's number and she was expecting it. “Bitch…meet me at Blu hotels, don't take long okay?” she sounded urgent and hung up. I quickly hailed a taxi.
“Blu hotels” I told the taxi driver and entered the taxi but then something clicked. BLU HOTELS…
I should be going to a club and not a hotel…“I guess I’ll ask her when I get to the hotel…hopefully”
I muttered quietly and checked my message hoping to get a reply from Kade. “Fuck you Kade…I hate you and fuck you.”
I sent that text hoping to get a response from him.
“Maam, we're here!” The cab man interrupted my thoughts. I looked at the tall building highlighted from the cab, I gave him a $50 bill and walked away.
I met Astrid waiting anxiously for me outside the hotel.
“Astrid” I called out gently, she rushed and hugged me gently. I noticed she looked a bit anxious and scared too but I didn't ask.
Everyone has their private life and we're all facing problems…I just stopped being friends with Kade too.
“I thought you wouldn't come, I was scared a bit and…well you're here” she hugged me tightly, the hug was a bit awkward though but I just smiled.
“I thought you said we would go clubbing …I didn't expect Blu hotels. And I think it's a five star hotel…isn't that too expensive?”
I noticed Astrid shifted awkwardly and suddenly smiled like she just got ideas in her head…lies to get herself out.
“Ohh well, a friend of mine is having a birthday and I decided to call you out, it's been really long…”
It's been five years since Astrid and I last spoke but I only accepted her invitation to get over Kade.
I stopped going out with the girls because I wanted to be the perfect best friend that would turn girlfriend and wife to Kade.
I let out a gentle chuckle. I must have been blind and delusional.
“Your friend is having a birthday party at Blu hotels? Well, it's not bad. That shows your friend is rich and we can spend his money” I smiled happily.
I guessed that friend would be a man because no woman would spend this much for just a birthday and I knew Astrid wouldn't hurt me.
Maybe she wasn't sure how I would react, so she was a bit uncomfortable. After all, it's been five years and I might have changed.
I didn't know I was digging my own grave to get over Kade.