Cheryl’s POV
Blake caused me a lot of pain before he came to bed. He visited her room, and they had a thorough session, if anyone would know that besides them, it would be me. He always goes immediately to the shower when he returns. I am at least thankful that he has the decency to wash their scent off of him before getting into our bed. He pulls me to him and nuzzles my neck, placing kisses from my jaw, down to my mark, and nipping it. He must have lost his mind, he just got his dick wet, and he is coming to me for dessert. I think not. I can feel the little bit of dinner I managed to get down, trying to fight its way back up. I can’t keep it down and I had to run into the bathroom to completely throw up my dinner. I feel dirty now from his touch, and strip off to get in the shower again.
I allow myself to cry over this situation, and just remind myself that it is almost over. I then go to brush my teeth again after rinsing my mouth repeatedly in the shower. I got dried off and headed into my closet to find another set of pajamas. I got back into bed, and he pulled me back into him again. I heard his low question, “Will we ever be OK again, Cheryl?”
“Blake, you chose to go outside of our bond. Yes, we are chosen mates, but we marked each other. You have never felt that pain, you know that in your own heart. You would absolutely know if you had felt the ache in your heart. The one that lets you know that your mate was intentionally trying to hurt you. That is all that you have put me through for these last 6 months. But before that, you have called me a liar, almost daily, and been a horrible father to Kevin. You deliberately can’t, or just plain refuse, to see his resemblance to Forest. I cannot be happy and be with you knowing how little I meant to you for you to be able to treat me like this. How you swore you loved me when you claimed me. For you to just stop loving me, all because of a rumor by someone who was leading you to this very place. Just because you can’t see it doesn’t mean that I can’t. It is going to tear your heart out one day when you finally realize what all your allowed Graham to do to our bond. What his involvement has truly cost you. I am sorry, I could accept a lot of things, but the moment you started fucking other she-wolves, we were done. You are getting plenty right now, so don’t act as if you need me anymore. Sometimes the pain I feel is so bad, I can’t even stand up. You have made your choice. You knew my bottom line, and you willingly crossed over it anyway. That is all on you. You are slowly killing me with your actions, but you seem to be OK with doing that to me. Please don’t give me a hard time over this. I am sorry your little girlfriend isn’t going to get to go shopping on the pack's dime again this time, but we both know that you will take her to the mall to reward her for betraying her Luna” I replied back to him, just as quietly as he had spoken to me.
“I was wrong, Cheryl, I messed up badly. If you will agree to come back and allow us to go back to where we were again, I will give them all up for you. I still love you, no matter what I do. It is your face that haunts me in the night. It hurts me to see you so hurt over this, but I was angry at your actions too. I just cannot accept that you cheated on me. You have hurt me just as badly, if not worse than I did to you. To have to see a child that you are still claiming is mine when I know in my heart that he isn’t. It just isn't fair to me. Just let him go to live in his father’s pack, and we can move on from this. I still want you. I need you, Cheryl, our relationship as it stands today is breaking my heart baby. I won’t be able to survive without you. I miss how easy we were together. I want you back, and whatever I need to do to get that done, is what I will willingly do for you. I want it to be just us again, and no one else” Blake said to me, and then had the nerve to kiss my mark again after saying it.
I have nothing else in my stomach to throw up, or I would be having a problem right now. I want to scream at him and tell him that he is 7 years too late for that. That when I begged him to think for himself, and not be led, I only wish that he had listened to me then. There is no coming back at all from where we are. The minute I found out that he had fucked Kara, he was past the point of no return. He can act like he doesn’t fully know that. He can act like he isn’t completely aware that I told him when we got together that I can deal with anything, except cheating. He knows what my bottom line is and that he is well past it. He just wants to think that he still has a chance. Well since he wants to hear things that are not ever going to happen, I will play his game with him.
“I will think about it, Blake. I guess we can sit together tomorrow, after I come back after the driving lesson, and we can discuss it then” I told him. Because I am absolutely done with discussing it now. He released the breath that he was holding and hugged me tighter. He really thinks that is going to happen. He is more delusional than I thought he was. I have to stop myself from shaking my head. No fucking way will that happen, as I am never going to be coming back here to this hellhole again. He is still basically calling me a cheat in his little fake apology. Him telling me that he is wanting to send our own son away from here. How in the hell does he think that I will ever be OK with that? He has indeed lost his mind. He is wrong on both counts. He can kiss my ass if he thinks that will ever happen. Plus that “no one else” that he said, I could feel that it was deliberately aimed at me, for me to stop with other men, not him stopping with his women. I almost want to find a random man to prove to him that he has never been cheated on. He is basically wanting this because he knows that his wolf is about to be tearing his own pack apart if he doesn’t make changes right now. If his wolf Kona does go nuts, I hope to hell he starts with Graham, as his first victim.
No, I don’t. I want Graham to have to suffer for what he has done. I want Graham to be blamed for whatever actions Blake is about to make. I want the whole pack to turn on him, and I want him to suffer like I have, for the last 7 years. That would be what was fair if the Goddess will allow it.
“Cheryl, I appreciate you giving me another chance, and I just wanted to mention that Kara will be one of the two warriors with you tomorrow,” Blake said in an even quieter voice. The guilt was back, and I knew exactly how she managed to get him to override me on it. I still felt the residual pain of it now.
I immediately sat up and stared at him in disbelief. “So that is what was happening tonight, Kara was convincing you with sex to let her come with me. After I told her not tomorrow. She could have waited two more days for the next driving lesson, yet she convinced you that she has to come now. I cannot believe you, Blake" I told him, and I really cannot believe the nerve of him. This was the last slap on the face that I will allow. "You know what Blake, sure she can come tomorrow. That is fine. I can wait until I calm down from being angry for us to talk again” I told him and with the ice in my voice, you would think a frost would be all over the room. I laid back down and made sure I was right on the edge of the bed. He took the hint. I would rather sleep on the couch, but he would just bring me back. He needs me near him to keep Kona happy. I was not able to sleep for hours to readjust my plan.
I could tell that Blake felt bad for it, that he had agreed to it in the heat of sex, and now that he had a clear head, he knew he messed up. But he knew what she was doing before he went up to her room. He wanted her to con him into it, by using her body. He hadn't messed my plan up, because my plan worked regardless of who the warriors were. He chose her to be the second warrior, and I am actually glad for how it ended up playing out for me. I think the Goddess is finally smiling down on me. I was glad that my knee-jerk response to him was an accurate one. This is going to hurt him even more than it originally would have, and I smiled into the dark as I worked through my plan again. Me learning how to check, and recheck again, was actually something I learned a long time ago. From Reagan of all people, with the very tips her dad gave her. It is funny that I will be using his own information against him. Blake's even breathing let me know that he was asleep. I just kept running through my checklist of what I needed to get done before we leave.
I was running on about 3 hours of sleep when I got up at 6 am the next morning and went through my regular routine. I went to my office with my backpack and got it loaded up after I got done with my training. I had over $40,000 put aside, hidden in a floorboard under the bottom desk cabinet. I have to roll the bottom drawer out to even reach it. I was planning on asking Blake for $5,000 for us to go shopping with today. I know that he will give it to me, as he feels really bad about allowing Kara to get her way by going. I will play on that guilt, as I haven’t committed to where I was actually going to land. It was down to two places, and I knew which one I had to go to. I will take the hit, to save my son. This is all for him, he deserves to go somewhere where he can truly thrive, and not be bullied or picked on. I gave a slight laugh as I realized just what the Goddess had done. I just hope that she is with us today as we manage to break free from Black Moon.
I went to Blake's office and knocked. I waited, as he was having a meeting with his ranked wolves. At least that was better than the alternative of one of the she-wolves that he usually has bent over the desk. I saw Kara coming this way and she knocked as well. The door stayed locked and she was embarrassed. I guess she really thought that she was just going to sashay right into his office after he didn’t let me in. She really thinks that she has his ear, and I guess she has for the last couple of months. But I have been the Luna here for 15 years now, her slutty ass has nothing on me. She was smart enough to stay back away from me while we waited. I might be too thin right now, but I can still kick her ass. I made sure that both Kevin and I had a good breakfast too.
We are going to have to keep our strength up, and we did the normal routine this morning. I didn’t deviate from any of what we normally do. I had taken my backpack right back up to our room from my office and hidden it in a drawer in the back of my closet. I needed to be ready to go with this, and I was trying hard at keeping my calm. I was getting very anxious as we were leaving in an hour, and I was worried that something else was going to pop up on us now and ruin the whole thing. I hear the lock disengage on Blake's door, and his ranked wolves exited the office. They all nodded at me in respect, but then I watched as they also nodded in acknowledgment of her too. Another slap in the face that lets me know that my decision to get the fuck out of here, was the right one. She runs into the office ahead of me and is already asking Blake for money to shop with, as she sits on the corner of his desk with her regular pouty face on. He sees me enter and the smile that he had on his face for her disappears quickly.
I want to say something to remind him that just a few hours ago, he was willing “to give them all up for me” and yet, he looked really cozy with her in here. “Good morning, Cheryl. What can I do for you?” Blake asked in a pleased tone at seeing me in here. Ever since I busted him and Kara in here that first time they were together 6 months ago, I had not returned to his office, for any reason.
“I was here for the same thing your special sex friend here is, money to go shopping with. On a trip that I had specifically told her she wasn’t welcome on” I said in a hard voice. I am reminding him of two things. He overrode me and allowed her to come, and that apparently her coming to get money from him was something she had clearly done several times before. She is not aware that their relationship is in any difficulty probably because, until I agree to get back with him, he will not be dropping her. That makes me feel sick too, and I have to step back away from them both. They completely disgust me.
“Of course baby, I want you to get something nice while you are out. You never leave, and you haven’t been shopping in a while” Blake told me and got into the safe quickly to give me money. I am sure that he wanted me out of here quickly, as she probably has to earn her money, and I swear that if he does what I think he is going to, I am going to enjoy my day much more than I thought I was today. I closed my eyes so I wouldn’t see her leaning into his body as he opened the safe like she was the Luna here. His allowing his men to respect her like that, made me furious with all of them. I was fooled by my love for him, they may have always been this way. I linked Kevin and told him to meet me in the dining room as soon as he could get there. I just want to get on the road right now. To hell with all of them. I just need to have some patience.
“Cheryl?” I heard Blake call out to me, and I slowly opened my eyes. I see her sitting perched on the arm of his chair now like she owns the place. She is smiling at me like she is the one being benevolent to me and personally giving me the packs money. I smiled back at her, and I watched her flinch. I hope my smile was scary to her, and she has no idea how her day is about to go.
“Yes,” I said to him and turned my head in his direction. He has two stacks of bills sitting on the counter, the same height, and banded together with a strap. They are both a total of $4,000 in twenty-dollar bills. I already know without asking that one stack was for me and one stack was for her, just like how he had them put out on his desk. But I have the warrior, Kevin, my mother, and Cassandra on my end too, that I will need to take care of today. Her money will be just that, her money. But I am going to make him say it. I want to hear him say the words. That way, I will have the strength to do what I needed to do today. I needed to leave, and I didn’t want to have any guilt in me about it. I stare right into his handsome face, his silky dark brown hair, and those dark brown eyes with the long lashes that always made me think of melted chocolate stared right back at me. Kara just looked at me, angry, like I couldn’t take a hint to leave. I heard a knock on the door and turned to see Casey standing there, That was good. I wanted to kiss her goodbye, and Robert too. I don’t kiss Forest anymore. He has become a huge jerk where Kevin is concerned and became his biggest bully.
“What did you need honey?” Blake asked her.
“Dad, we are going to go into the city to shop. Can I have some money for us to spend please?” Casey asked him with a smile on her face. She is only 10, but she has him completely wrapped around her finger. She loves him as much as he loves her, that is why it was no surprise at her taking his side. I know that Forest sent her in here because he never argues about giving her money, he just does it. She is no longer nice to me because she believes the crap her father spews. She and her brothers also ignore Kevin. It is clear that with each passing year, the pressure on us gets much worse.
“Sure baby, who all is going, and are you taking any warriors with you?” Blake asked as he bent down and got money from the safe again. Kevin hasn’t been shopping for a while now, the same as me, and Blake comes back up with a strap for each of them to be able to spend $2,000 each, they also had twenty dollar bills. The difference was that my children get to go do this each month. It had been a very long time since Kevin, or I had gotten anything new. My face is now completely red, with this new slap that I felt to my core, landing squarely on my other cheek now.
The only people in this family that didn’t rate, were me and Kevin. My work here is done, I gave him three pups that can lead this pack. They will, straight into the ground, after he steps down. It will not matter to me, as I won’t be here anymore to be affected by it.
Casey ran around the desk to grab the money and gave him a big kiss. She then nodded at Kara, and then said, “Bye mom” to me before she raced back out of the office. I guess I didn’t need that hug after all. It seemed like the care for her was one-sided, and not in my favor. I see where I stand now, and this is yet another reason that I needed to get out of here. I focused my eyes back on Blake, and he smiled at me like he was expecting me to say something, and I will. I just want him to say what I need him to, first. I need this one final blow to know that all 15 years of my life here were a complete waste of my time and energy.
Blake pushed one of the stacks to me and smiled again like he was the one doing me a favor. “Did you need anything else, Cheryl?” Blake asked me and looked up at me like he was hoping for me to beg him to take me back. I did need something else actually, a dependable mate, one who wouldn’t cheat on me, or believe others before me, but I cannot say that right now. We will get into a big fight, and then he wouldn't allow me to leave. It won’t matter soon, that was what I needed from him. To let me know that he never intended to give anything up, he just wanted to have me, along with them. I gave him one last look and tried to control my anger as I did. I cannot wait to get the fuck out of here and get my son to a place where he can be safe. “No, I don’t need anything else from you, Blake,” I said and then gave Kara a scathing look as she was now sitting sprawled all the way across his lap. I shook my head and exited his office hearing her laughter behind me as the door closed. Yes, I am really going to enjoy today. The days of Cheryl being pushed down are over now. Whatever chapters are to come, I will greet them head-on and accept the punishment for my actions, and pray that the Goddess forgives me. But whatever happens, I know for a fact, that my day will be a great deal better than Kara's is going to be. I walked away from his office with a smile on my face. I just need to go grab Kevin, get my backpack from my room, and get the hell out of Black Moon.
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