Chapter 16

Annur's POV:

In two days’ time we'll be leaving to go back to new York. The last three days I told Hatina how I felt, I expressed my feelings to her and I meant it. I was in love, for the first time I didn't feel like something was missing, not like when I was with Hani and she's always fighting with me.

If anyone told me I was going to fall in love I wouldn't have believed. But they say you fall in love when you least expect it. I never thought I would fall in love especially with Hatina, I never even knew I was in love until I realized what was beside me, who was beside me always. She's always on my mind and even when I try to push her off I couldn't.

I never expected marriage to be this sweet, but with Hatina it is extraordinary, she being all innocent and all and I being wild and exposed.

The way her skin feels when I touch her and the way she looks so flustered when I kiss the hell out of her, and the way she lets me touch her which I never expected. She has been nothing but a faithful, loving and dream wife anyone could ask for. She never nags or complain but try to understand with you. She never resisted from letting me touch her even when she knew our relationship was shaky, she still gave herself like a responsibility.

I can't recall when my heart started beating for Hatina, but I do remember her being on my mind when she said she wanted to go on a honeymoon, I don't even know why I did it but I went out that day and processed two passports for us, I knew she would like Paris so I chose there.

Before we got married I never really looked at the woman. she is beautiful, smart, if I go on it'll never end. All I can think of is just her and our moments together both romantic and intimate.

I told Hatina I love her but she didn't say anything, she blushed like she was going to burst, she nodded her head and I hugged her tightly. I guess it’s a step forward, although she didn't say it back the way I wanted but I got it out of my chest.

I felt relieved after telling her, I knew I had been feeling uneasy lately but after seeing her that day and how innocent she was due to my touch, it was beautiful not to talk of how she danced, I could never have believed she could dance, and she danced so beautiful I couldn't resist but tell her how I felt.

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We get home after a long tiring journey. We are staying in my parents’ house for some time before we go back to ours.

Hatina said she wanted to meet my parents and siblings immediately, but throughout the whole flight she slept like a baby. After hours of flying we were finally back, the car was already waiting for us while we got there.

"Babe," I say waking Hatina up from the bed. "Uhm.. Are we there yet?" she speaks tiredly.

"Yes we are and you slept through out the flight," I tell her. "Sorry I was just so tired," she says sitting up.

"Feeling better now?" I ask her.

"I am. Thank you." she says why I give her my hand to get up from the bed. She smiles brightly taking my hand to get up when she falls, but slightly not before I catch her.

"Careful," I say "Guess you're still a bit tired." I hold her up.

"I'm fine." She says smiling but I still hold her leading her out of the plane.

"Good day Mr. Abubakar," The driver greets as we get out.

"How are you john?" I reply back gesturing Hatina closer to me with one hand on her waist.

"Fine, thank you. Hope you enjoyed you honeymoon Mrs. Abubakar," He continues.

"I did." She turns to look at me smiling. Oh yes we did.

We get into the car and john drives off to my parents’ house. On arriving we meet them all at the entrance. "Alhamdulilah, they're back," I hear dad say as we get out.

"Salam dad, salam mom," I say as we reach them and Hatina follow with the same to them.

"Salam my boy. Wassalam my dear. How was your honeymoon?" She speaks asking both Hatina and I.

"Wonderful," I speak first.

"It was good Alhamdulilah," Hatina adds.

"That's so good to hear. Annur I hope you treated her well?" Dad asks. I turn to Hatina to meet her blushing.

God this girl is going to be the death of me.

"I think Hatina would be the best person to answer that,” I reply still looking at her.

"Annur treated me very well dad, more than I could imagine," she replies and I smile widely.

Yeah that's more like it.

"Alhamdulilah that’s good, I wish the both of you a very happy life. By the way Faiz and Faiza have been waiting for your arrival," Dad adds.

"Where are they by the way?" I ask.

"Brother!" I hear Faiza say as she and Faiz come out. "It’s so good to see you."

"Salam brother." Faiz comes out embracing me into a tight hug.

"Salam Faiz and salam to you too Faiza," Faiza comes in too for a hug.

"I see you've all missed me, how are you kids?" I hit Faiz's arm playfully.

"When will you stop calling us kids Annur, as you can see I'm a big girl, who has grown into a beautiful young woman and we're fine by the way." Faiza disagrees.

"Like never." I tell her before turning back to mom. "We're both tired why don't we go inside " I request holding unto Hatina's hand.

"Sure," Faiz replies while we get in.

"Brother you are a damn lucky man, she is really beautiful," Faiza speaks coming closer to us on the couch. I turn to Hatina to find her smiling and I couldn't resist, but drag her closer to me. "I'm Faiza its really nice to meet you, I've been waiting for so long." Faiza giggles like a little girl.

"Thank you. It’s my pleasure by the way you are really pretty Masha Allah" Hatina spoke.

"I'm Faiz by the way, don't mind my little sister. it’s really nice to meet you, I'm so sorry we couldn't attend your wedding." Faiz says sincerely.

"No worries at all, I understand. Please don't apologize it wasn't your fault," Hatina speaks sincerely.

"Wait who are you calling little sister? When will I stop telling you this. We are twins!" Faiza defends rolling her eyes while we just chuckle.

"Enough you too, don't you see they're both tired, they need to eat, have a good bath and rest not to be debating with the two of you." Mom speaks.

"Yes mom." They both reply.

"Annur, Hatina the food will be ready soon okay? Why don't you rest a bit?" Mom turns to us.

"Yeah that's good. Thank you." I say back to mom.

"Well since dinner isn't ready, yet why don't have a little chat, what do you say?" Faiz pats me on the shoulder.

"Yes, that's good it’s been long." I get up. "I'll be with Faiz in the garden" I speak to Hatina. "You know where to find me if you need anything?" I ask and she nods. I move closer to her so I can whisper in her ear. " I want to kiss the hell out of you right now but I can't.

These kids don't need to see that." I whisper to her alone with one hand on her thigh and I could feel her shiver.

"I won't be long," I say composing myself then leaning in to kiss her temple. I can see her cheek heat up and that made me so happy that I didn't need a reply from her.

"Aww, see Annur can't leave his wife for a Second." Faiza says well of course she'll be the one to say that, as they both laughed.

"Yes I can't, so finish your studies and quickly get married so you can leave this house." I reply dragging Faiz.

"Are you chasing me away?"

"Yeah, I am" I yell so she can hear me as I and Faiz reach the door before walking down to the garden and sit.

"How is marriage life brother?" Faiz asks turning towards me.

"It’s good actually, like really good, better than I expected," I reply sincerely.

"It’s only been two months and I can see love all over your face." Faiz says.

"Like they say you never know when you fall in love, suddenly all that occupies you mind is that person." I say to him.

When he said that, a thought came to me, I remember not liking Hatina and didn't want to get married but after we got married I started seeing her differently. Dad talked to me, advised me like a father is supposed to do to a son, shared lessons with me and who am I not to take heed. After all, Allah did join us together through our parents.

"She's really beautiful." Faiz says breaking me out of my thoughts. " She's more than beautiful."

************ Hatina's POV:

Seeing Annur's siblings is really nice, especially Faiza, she is really beautiful and has brown hair but looks more like her mom, while Faiz has black hair but looks a lot like Annur just the miniature version.

Talking with Faiza is really nice, I love her sense of humor, she is bold, a talkative, and she is just awesome and we connected immediately.

"So Hatina, do you love my brother?" Faiz asks me. "I know he could be a jerk sometimes." She kicks me with her arm making me laugh.

"You're very funny." I chuckle the more. "To be honest I never thought I would be saying this but yes I do, I love him but I'm scared to tell him. Is that weird? " I ask bringing my face down.

"Why?" she asks concerned "You know why," I told her.

"Because of the way you guys got married?" She asks and I nod. "And you're scared he won't feel the same way." I nod the more at her.

"Hatina, can't you see, Annur is madly in love with you." she says.

"Yes I know, he said it but I just have this fear, I don't know if you get?" I know Annur says he loves me but I'm too scared to believe that.

"Yes I totally understand. But trust me if Annur is in love, he doesn't hide it, and another thing about him he's always honest. So I know he loves you." Faiza says making me feel a lot better, but that doesn't still mean I'm ready to tell him how I feel.

We get to know each other better, her birthday is March 2nd, Annur is April 10th, and she got to know mine which is June 13th.

"Really, June 13th?" She asked surprised. "Yes why are you surprised?"

"Because it’s in two days." She says as a matter of fact. "What's in two Days" I ask dumbfounded.

"Your birthday, you don't even realize it," She giggles. "I guess Annur has taken so much of your brain in Paris." I laugh as she said that.

"I totally forgot." I say seriously.

"Well we better start preparing, let me go and tell Annur." She says happily.

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The rest of the night is pretty simple, everyone comes down for dinner and we all talk. I am quite surprised Annur didn't bring up anything about my birthday, maybe Faiza forgot.

After that everyone becomes tired and just go straight to sleep. "Babe," I hear Annur say.

"Yes," I answer looking up at him.

"When are we going to have kids? I'm not forcing you, I just wanted to ask, you know so I wouldn't rush things and make you uncomfortable." Annur asks taking me by surprise.

He wants to have kids. No, not that I don't want to, I do in fact I always dream about having my own kids, taking them to school and feeding them breakfast.

I sit up moving my head from his chest and bow my head. To say I feel bad would be an understatement. I am depriving him of something just because I'm scared.

"Hey, I'm sorry I didn't meant t..." Annur speaks from behind me but I stop him midway.

"No please don't apologize, It’s not your fault. I should have known sooner or later this topic would be brought up. It's my fault I'm depriving you of something just because of my fear, I'm really sorry." I tell him still bowing my head.

"Don't talk like that please. You know you can tell me anything. Babe what's wrong? Why don't you want us to," He asks and tears well up in my eyes.

I'm so grateful to have someone like Annur who doesn't pressurize me. It's been more two months now and I haven't let us been intimate and still he isn't mad about it.

"I'm scared Annur, I'm sca..." I tried to speak but the tears stroll down my eyes. Annur sees that and comes closer to me holding me still. "I'm scared to have kids, I'm scared I won't treat them right or be like a mother should. I want to give them all the love and not treat them like I was treated. I don't want to become like my mom," I speak as the tears continue to fall.

"Shh, come here," He drags me to face him. "Look at me." I raise my head up.

"You are not your mother Hatina don't ever think like that, you are the most caring, loving person I have ever seen and to talk about our kids I have no doubt that you will be a great mother, by the way you're not alone in this, you have me. Know that." He says as I stare into his eye seeing all the sincerity there is in his words. "I love you Hatina and I'm willing to wait to the time you are ready," He speaks.

"I'm so happy to have you as my husband. Thank you so much Annur. I promise we will, real soon, we will consUmmate our marriage I promise inshaAllah." I tell him.

"I believe you." He says smiling. I lean in as he does the same giving him a goodnight kiss.

"I love you okay?" He says and I nod. I lean in again and intertwine our lips blissfully. He lies back as I return back to his chest wanting to sleep when my phone rings.

I pick it up seeing an unknown number wondering who it is by this time.

"Hello," I answer the call but there isn't a voice speaking and it feels weird, so I decide to pray and then hung the phone, maybe it is a wrong number.

"Who was that?" Annur asks.

"I don't know, I think it’s a wrong number." I say going back to lie down with Annur.

"Okay, be careful, now get some rest."