Chapter 97
After their happy meal, the pups didn't take long to fall asleep. They had dosed off in the most adorable position. In the small living room I had lay down a mat so that they may play on it while I did the dishes, when I came back I found them fast asleep holding each other's hands. So adorable. But I had to put them to bed. When I did, I went back to the living room and sat with a cup of tea in my hands.
It wasn't dark out yet, we still had rays of sun before they disappeared. Sitting here gave me a lot of time to think, like most of the nights. Sometimes I even wished that my pups were the kind to keep you up at night since I was already failing to sleep three of five nights.
This place felt lonely, but wasn't that what I was despite having the company of my two pups. I was a lonely woman abandoned by her husband to be with his ex-lover.
The images come flooding back to my mind, the way she touched his crotch. Those, those words she said. Why remind myself of pain. It clearly knocked me out when I saw them. Because I do not remember getting here, all I remember is me waking up on the bed in the bedroom. My pups were in the crib beside the bed.
It was a relief to see them there with me. The place was new and no sign of Aiden anywhere. This should have been proof enough for me not to stay here anymore. But no I had to wait till something had to visit me and ruin my mood for the rest of my miserable life.
Yes I had definitely leave before they come to find me and decide that they love to see me in pain. My chest feels heavy with all these feelings I am feeling, how was I to forget him when he was the one who showed me what it meant to love. What it meant to be with someone.
Aiden wasn't like my previous boyfriend, Aiden showed me that I didn't have to change myself to love or be loved. I guess it was all a lie, otherwise why would he decide to share my bedroom duties with another. And I was supposed to sit quiet and wait on him?
I don't think my patience would let me do that, there was no hope if so then Aiden would have dropped the file that now sat on top of the coffee table himself. He should have been here to explain to me, I deserved an explanation. But he was giving none and sent a person to drop them off.
I had lost track of time sitting here, my tea had grown cold long ago without being touched. I had to go to bed, what else was a single to be woman to do.
Getting up, I make my way to the kitchen where I disposed of the cold tea into the sink and cleaned the cup. I make my way back to the living room and pick up the file sitting on the table. I contemplate opening the file once again, since Claire told me the contents of the documents I didn't want to open it to confirm my fears.
No, I wasn't going to open it. I will let myself this for now, I will live in a fantasy world where Aiden was going to save me in his shining amour on a strong black stallion. He was going to sweep me off my feet like the first time we ever met. The way he looked at me, the only difference would be that this time I would not be afraid and go willingly.
The things I would give to feel those huge arms again, I would even pretend that another wasn't in those every arms. I would fall asleep in them and wake up in them without having to let him go. But I was betrayed.
I might not be rational at the moment, but rational wasn't the most comforting right now. It all seemed like lies. I know that to begin with, he was trapped as much as I was, he was trapped at the mercy of an evil witch. Its what I choose to call her from now on because it is what she is, a witch.
He was no longer trapped now, if he was I don't think he would send divorce papers to me. If anything he would have at least tried to contact me to tell me that he was working on things.
Sighing, I carry the folder with me to the bedroom. I drop it by the little dressing table in the far corner of the room and make my way to the crib. The pups looked so peaceful and cute holding hands the way they did. I had noticed this when I had gotten them back, they would hold hands while they slept. My thinking was that this had became a habit when they were kidnapped. They must have learned that they were safe together.
When I first saw it, it broke my heart that they had to go through such and finally learn that the world was not a safe place for anyone and that they had each other to protect. It was not fair, they were supposed to be innocent little pups oblivious to the worlds suffering. But nothing can be done about that now, it was too late.
I stroke each cheek with a gentle finger before whispering good night to my family. They both stir but never leave each other's hand. Now this was a bond that no one was getting in between. How I wish my bond and Aiden's was like this, anyway, I wasn't the first to think a mutual thing was actually a one sided thing on my part. It was okay I was going to heal.