Chapter 96

Bella

I had my babies back. But at what cost? Life was going on pretty well since last week. Who am I kidding, first I would be doing the laundry next thing I know I'm curled up on the floor with my vision blurred.

This week has been hell and back. Today not many hours ago Claire paid me a visit. So much for thinking that they didn't know my current location.

Aiden hasn't since visited me or even tried the slightest communication. What was I supposed to think? How was I to know that all those nightmares I have been having were all a lie. But no, he left me and was afraid of showing me his filthy face.

Once again I break down in the kitchen, good thing this time I was seated by on the chair by the little dinning table that I had installed. My pups were fine and playing around.

They were beautiful in their human form, I missed that. When I had a whole thing planed out for one of the most important changes in their werewolf lives. All the more still I was grateful. I had them back that's all that mattered.

Not wanting to leave them alone for long, I pick up the manila file that was on the table and head to the little living room in the small house.

I wouldn't say I didn't like the house but it didn't feel like home. For now it worked and I did all I could to keep it clean. Try doing that with two toddlers who were trying to walk.

Yes, I am proud to say I am mother to two healthy were-pups whose growth would make any were-mom proud of her pup. As much as the place was comfortable enough, I was afraid it could no longer provide that comfort anymore.

I have thought long and hard on the decision I am making I even weighed the pros and cons. The cons weighed more.

Raven crawls up to me and looks me in the eyes then smiles, this touches my heart. Raven has always been able to tell when I'm not in a good mood, she is the first who tries to cheer me up. When it doesn't work, she goes and grabs her brother so that they can pester me together and forget about what I was worried about.

I loved them so dear because of that. They showed me that they were my people and that when with them, I didn't have to be sad or worried. They were also the reason why I was making the decision I was making.

Before she had the chance to think that I'm not cheering up I pick her up and plaster on the most brightest smile I could conjure up. I whisper little sweet nothing to her ear and let her giggle away in my arms.

Soon Rafe comes to join us when he sees that we are having fun. He crawls up real slow and touches my leg, just that the leg. He even withdraws his hand like he was expecting my leg to bite him.

I slide Raven to one arm and pick up Rafe with the other. Holding them so close to me, I tell them that everything was fine and that mommy would take care of them. But Rafe looks up at me as if to question why he hasn't seen daddy in a while. It broke my heart that someday I was going to tell them what had happened to their daddy but that day wasn't today. Maybe by then I would have moved on with my life like he did.

I mean, wouldn't you think so too if you were in my shoes? The way we left off things. I don't know if I am exaggerating but the whole scene was messy. In the back of my head his voice kept ringing. This particular voice was from before he nearly raped me, "Trust me" he said.

Oh how I wish I could do that, after seeing what I saw, no. I didn't like it when the images of them tangled up together flooded my mind's eye. But it was the only thing I saw when I closed my eyes. I even skipped a few nights without sleeping since that day. And staying here was no longer an option. I had to leave.

I was avoiding making this decision in haste but now I couldn't take it anymore. If I was going to raise my pups I was going to do it happy. This place failed to make me a happy person, I didn't want my pups to grow up witnessing their mothers sorrow. It would be too much for them plus I didn't want them to grow up hating their father. It wouldn't be nice of me.

But then again, he was the one who wasn't nice to me. Letting that other woman touch him like that in front of me. The world was a funny place to be wasn't it, the times you thought you were loved only to find out he is just a very generous guy with very generous body parts.

I once thought that those body parts only operated for me, ha, how dumb I was.

I swallow down the tears that were forming in my eyes threatening to spill out. I work my throat so that the huge lump that is lodged there doesn't choke me with unshed tears.

Trying my best not to make my voice shake, I whisper into Rafe's then Raven's ear. "Do you want me to make you food?" I ask my babies. Rafe immediately brightens giving me his most widest smile. This truly made me emotional, my dear son was not a smiler but food made him this way. Well baby food. I think he has always liked it when he played grown up than baby. Raven on the other hand looked like she was happy that her sibling was happy. What a beautiful sight.