MAKE LOVE: HER REQUEST I
ZARYA'S POV
I shut the door of my apartment. I just waited for Colden to leave before I burst out all my emotions. He should not see me like this because he could not go back to the Elemental Kingdom if he knew that I needed him. He is the Alpha King of Ice, his presence should always be in there. Who am I to spend his time and effort? I am nothing, but a piece of shit who killed her best friend love of her life.
"No! This is absolutely insane!" I crumpled the paper where Trace Hendrix had written. "Why was it to be you, Trace Hendrix?" I hugged my knee as I cried with my bleeding heart. "I'm so sorry, Amari! I'm so sorry!" My cry was becoming more and more severe.
I thought Trace Hendrix would never love her. I should have listened to Amari when she said he loves her.
If he is not her murderer then, who?
I let all the tears stream to my face. I gave all the pain in one crying, but unfortunately, it could not soothe my heart. No matter what I did, I still murdered Trace Hendrix, he should not be punished for the things he did not do. He may be a tough man. He had a dark side, but it did not mean, he was not capable of loving someone? Bram was right, perhaps, he fell deeply to her, but he just did not show it. According to the letter, all expression was revealed. He wanted her safe, which was why he pushed her away.
Who killed her? Probably, Trace Hendrix enemies? He is one of the Mafia Boss' sons. That would not surprise me. Or else his father? Tyrant Hendrix?
The tears had never left me until someone had knocked on the door. "Who's that?"
"King Water."
"Not tonight, Hali. I'm tireー"
"If you don't open the door, I will ruin it!"
I held the doorknob, and slowly spun it. I wiped my tears. I was sniffing when his dark expression was exposed to me. It felt like the world stopped moving when our eyes landed on each other.
"Why are you her一" There was no need to speak. He knew how difficult my situation was. He hugged me so compactly. I let all the pain be revealed when I cried out in his chest. "I killed a false person. Not just not, he was my best friends' lover. They loved one another. They loved…" My sob was so loud. It did not matter if he would going to slap me to punish me for crying, but instead of hitting me, he caressed my back and embraced me even more.
No words came out of his mouth. He kept silent, but little by little, the pain was taking away. His hug had the power to soothe my heart and calmed my system. He was not a man of good words, not a man who would comfort a woman, even when the night my family disappeared, he made things worse. However, his silence made me comfortable. It would not heal my heart, but it could free my suffocating chest from all the burdens I was involved with.
Until the tears drained to my face. Until the acne was just us, hugging each other. My eyes were closed. I could not see his face, therefore I had no idea what was the expression in it.
"Done crying?" That was his lines after a long sob of mine.
"Yes." I whispered. No voice had burst, just a sound of air from my mouth.
"I don't wanna hear a sob anymore." He lifted me, placing me in his arm. I gazed at his face that was concentrating on the way, going to my room.
"Are you going to take me?" I felt the smoothness of the bed at my back. It dipped when he placed me in there. He climbed to the bed and lay next to me. "The agreement is not valid. I already refused it."
"Stop talking while I'm calming my damn dick." He glared at me with the fire in his eyes. Shut the heck up and sleep. Don't open your mouth again or else my tongue will be inserted into it."
I bit my lips. I should be not creating any noise. I wanted to make love with him, but by thinking like that, I felt I was cheating on Colden. I gave him my words that we would start. We were not lovers, but I promised to work with it. It was so frustrating if I would break my words.
I adjusted my body to the left side, so I could not face him. I viewed the lamp, the only light was coming from it. He turned off the light, it was dim.
I closed my eyes, but the only image that flashed in my head was the way I ripped Trace Hendrix. His scream when little by little his meat was separating.
"You have no idea how much I love her!"
"You are lying! You killed her!" I screamed back at him. I gritted my teeth as I showed him my claws. I had not yet shifted into my wolf. I just presented him with my claws. By that, he knew I was not a human.
"Kill me, then! Kill me!" He shouted while giggling. "Kill me because I felt like I'm dead when I saw her floating in the river!"
"Your words are not authentic! I will rip you into pieces and show you what you've done!" I shifted into my wolf form. I attacked him as he screamed loudly, biting his meat.
I would never forget his last words. "If you murder me, I can't give her justice. It's in your hand… don't let her killer travel around."
I never heard his words because I was so livid. I felt like everything that had come out of his mouth was a lie. I never think about the possibilities. I only believed my guts, but it did drag me to the wrong decision.
Gradually, the hot liquid rolled to the side of my face. I needed something to convert my emotion. Something that would make me forget my mistake. I faced Hali, his eyes were closed, and his arms served as his pillow.
"Do you have suggestions on how to forget?" I spelled out.
He opened his eyes, looked at the ceiling, and then gazed at me. "There's no way, except one thing."
"What is that? I can do everything just to stop this pain." I pointed at my chest. "I can't hold it."
"You wish to?"
"Forget," I whispered as the tears escaped to my eyes, followed by millions of them.
Suddenly, I froze when he raised his fingers, wiping my tears. "Do you wish that Colden is here instead of me?"
"I wish it was you… always." I sobbed even more. "But you can't keep yourself beside me. I am no longer important to you."
He shook his head, opened his mouth, and eventually closed it. Saying nothing. He blew a loud sigh before he went to my top. "You wish to?" He repeated his words.
"Forget," I repeated the same way.
My mouth opened when he held the hem of my shirt, pulled it up, and unfastened my bra. I covered my breasts when they finally showed up to him. "There's no other method to forget, except acceptance. Except for a mind-blowing wave of pleasures."
I revealed my breasts, cupped his cheek, and settled my eyes on him. "Can you call this as making love? Just for… tonight?"
He gave me a cold look. "I don't make love. I fuck."
"Please?"
He moved his face down to my face, gluing the peak of our noses. "I give into you… just for tonight."
I nodded my head slightly. "I want to kill you. Funny, right? I felt like murdering you can have justice for abusing me plenty of times, but… now, I can't understand why am I pleasing the asshole to make love with me?" My voice was just low, full of emotions. The unwanted expressions.
"I'm out with your problem." He held the garter of my shorts. He was about to rip it when he remembered something. "Making love, Hali. Making love." He reminded himself, therefore instead of ripping it, he gradually pulled it down. He left my body with just panties on it.
He moved up, unbuckling his belt. I could hear the sound of steel. He did that while our eyes were glued to each other, watching every action, observing each expression.
"This will just happen once." He muttered in my ear before he fixed our lips together.