Chapter 37: Chapter Thirty-Seven

**Alexandria**

When I am finally released from the pack hospital, I make it back to my house and I am currently laying here in my bed thinking about everything that has happened, everything that I have been through over the last week and a half, it's hard to imagine that I will be able to get back to normal, The nightmares have been hard to deal with, and I know waking Jaxson up at night can’t be easy on him either.

I hate that I have become such a burden to everyone, my parents are constantly worried about me, and I know Jaxson worries about me too, especially since I wake screaming at night and he is the one to comfort me and manages to get me to calm down enough to get back to sleep.

I’ve been trying to reach out to my wolf and try to get her to respond to me in any way I can think of that will get her to respond to me but my wolf hasn't fully come back yet but I can feel her in there, she will wiggle around in my mind a little bit from time to time, especially when Jaxson and I are together and he makes me feel the tingles or when he kisses me and things get a little hot and heavy I can feel her in there, but I think she just hasn’t fully healed yet.

I've been home from the hospital for a week, I don’t have any more bruising or aches throughout my body, but Jaxson refuses to let me do anything, he caters to me like I am made of glass, and I am losing it.

I need to get out and do something. He won't let me leave the house, I'm lucky if I get to walk to the kitchen by myself, he either walks right by my side or sometimes he won't let me walk at all. Which is why I am currently nestled tightly in his arms on our way to the kitchen now for lunch.

“Jaxson, I can walk you know, I'm not made of glass and the doctor said I am perfectly fine.”

“I know love, but you know how much I love to hold you, and this is just one way I get to do it.”

UGH! I am losing my mind here.

“Jaxson, please I need to get out and do something, I am going stir crazy here, you don't let me do anything anymore.”

He lets out a deep sigh and says, “I know baby, but I worry. If anything were to happen to you again, I wouldn't survive.”

This conversation isn't over. But I don’t fight him on it for now because I know he doesn't want to talk about this in front of my parents.

My mom made us something simple for lunch today which also happens to be my favorite, grilled cheese with tomato soup and chips with my favorite pop to drink.

“Hey mom, thanks for lunch this looks great.”

“You’re welcome sweety, how are you feeling today?”

“I'm feeling great, but I also feel like I am going a bit stir crazy, I need to get out of the house. But a certain someone,” I look to Jaxson and give him the eye, “Won't let me go out and do anything.”

He looks at me and I can tell by the look on his face he feels a bit sheepish, I instantly feel bad because I know he is only trying to keep me safe, but a girl needs fresh air. My mother looks to Jaxson and says, “Why don't you take her out for a bit and get her some fresh air? Take her to that special place you two saw before everything happened. It could do her some good.”

Jaxson mulls it over in his mind for a minute then looks to me and asks, “Does that sound okay to you, we could go out for a little while and maybe enjoy the sunshine for a bit.”

I instantly perk up and get excited, but I try to keep myself calm.

“Yes, that sounds perfect, Please Jax, just for a little while. Please Alpha?”

He lets a low growl escape, and I know I have him right where I want him, He can't say no to me, especially when I call him Alpha. Meanwhile, I hear my mom across the kitchen let a little giggle out because she knows exactly what it does to him, and she knows he can't say no to me as well.

Jaxson and I made our way to our special spot near the lake where we spent some time together and we got to go swimming and had a picnic together. This place brings back wonderful memories and I love being here with Jaxson.

“This is perfect, thank you Jaxson for bringing me here.”

“Your welcome baby, I'm sorry if I have been a little too much to deal with lately, I just don't want anything to happen to you. I was so scared that I wouldn't find you, or if I did that it would be too late. I spent so much time looking for my mate before I found you and when I finally did find you, I had such a short time with you, and then you were taken away from me. I was going crazy, and I couldn't think straight. If it wasn't for John and Annie being here, I would have lost my mind with worry.”

I never realized how hard it was for him with me being gone like that, I guess I didn't think it was that hard on him with us being together for just a short time.

“It's okay Jaxson, I guess I just never realized how it affected you and I was only worried about myself. I will try to be better and try to understand how things are from your perspective.”

I lean over and kiss him to show him that I meant what I said.

Jaxson and I continue our little make-out session and before I know it things are getting more hot and heavy and I feel his hand slide from my knee to my hip and he squeezes then he is hand moves up my side to cup my breast and I hear a growl come from his chest and I move my hand along his neck and I slide my hand down his chest over his abs and I grasp the hem of his shirt and pull it up and over his head. I can feel how turned on he is by what I feel brushing against my inner thigh. I slide my hand further down and he lets out another growl but this time it is deeper and louder and when I look into his eyes, I can see the lust swarming around and I know what he wants, and I can see the love he has for me there too and I know in my heart that I am ready.

“I’m ready Jaxson, I need you.”

“Are you sure baby? We do have to do anything you’re not ready for?”

“I'm sure Jaxson, you’re my mate. Selene brought us together.”