Chapter 36: Chapter Thirty-Six

**Alexandria**

I’m in and out of consciousness and with all the voices going on around me and the whispers in my ear I’m not sure if I should believe what I hear or not.

“Your safe now baby, I'm going to take you home and we will get through this together. I am never going to let anything bad happen to you ever again.”

I look up into his eyes.

“Thank you for coming.”

Before I drift off to sleep again, I hear him say something. I feel too safe in his arms, and I feel like I can get some decent sleep now that I am safe. Or at least I hope that I am, but right now I feel too safe and too tired to care, I just let the sleep take me over and I drift off into darkness.

When I wake up again, I still feel sleepy and I'm having a hard time trying to figure out what the hell is going on and I quickly realize I am in a more comfortable bed, I try to remember everything that has happened over the last few days and I come to remember being in a cold room and everything that happened with the rogues and then I remember dreaming of Jaxson and Annie coming into the room and taking me out of that horrible place.

I try to open my eyes but the lights in the room I'm in are too bright, then I hear a familiar voice.

“Look, she is waking up, turn the lights down a bit.”

Then I feel the lights go down and I try to open my eyes again with more success, I blink my eyes a few times to adjust to the dim lights, I look around and I see nothing but white everywhere. I look around more and I see my mom and dad on one side of my bed, and I feel tingles on my hand, and I turn my head in that direction and I see Jaxson sitting there with tears in his eyes and I see nothing but the love and devotion he has for me there as well.

I try to open my mouth to say something, but my throat is so dry that I can't get anything out. I hear rustling around on my other side and when I look that way, I see my dad offering me a cup of water, I take a small sip and I try again.

“Where am I?”

My mom takes my other hand.

“You are in the pack hospital sweetheart. After Jaxson found you, he brought you here and he called us, and we came here right away.”

I turn to look at Jaxson and I see more tears in his eyes and I can tell he is trying to be strong for me but I just need him as close to me as I can get him, so I reach for him with my hand on the back of his neck I pull him close to me with our foreheads touching and with tears in my eyes and emotion in my voice I look into his eyes.

“Thank you. Thank you so much for coming for me and not giving up on me.”

With the same emotion in his voice, he replies to me.

“I will always come for you baby.”

He kisses my forehead and sits back down in his chair and with our fingers still entwined together.

“How long have I been asleep?”

My dad is the one to answer this time.

“You have been here for three days, and you fell asleep when Jaxson carried out of that horrible place and you have been asleep ever since, the doctors say that sometimes it is normal when someone goes through something traumatic like you went through, but we are just so happy you are awake now.”

Three days, I've been asleep for three days.

I lay my head back and close my eyes for a minute and I try to reach out to my wolf to see if she is still there, I know during the whole ordeal I went through she wasn't there but I'm hoping that with me sleeping for so long maybe she was able to rest and she will come back to me.

“Alex, baby, are you okay?”

I slowly lift my head and turn to the sweet voice of my mate.

“I don't know, I tried reaching out to my wolf, but I can't feel her.”

“Don't worry baby, she will come back. she is probably just resting and trying to heal after everything you girls have been through, she will come back when she is better, and she will sense me, and my wolf and she will want to come back.”

I hope he’s right; I wouldn't be able to handle being wolf-less.

“I think I'm going to go back to sleep for a little bit, maybe give her some more time to heal.”

“Okay sweetheart, you get some rest and your dad, and I will come back tomorrow to see you. We love you.”

I look to my mom and say, “Okay mom, I love you guys too.”

I try and look to Jaxson I can see the pity in his eyes, and I don't like it, it's like he knows something he isn't telling me.

“What aren't you telling me Jaxson?”

He takes a deep breath and lets it out before he says what comes next.

“The doctor said it could be sometime before your wolf comes back, he is set that she WILL come back but it may not be for a while because the rogues gave you so much wolfsbane that she has just receded into the depths of your mind, but I have faith that she will come back.”

I take a deep breath and look into his eyes.

“What if she doesn't come back? What if I am nothing but a worthless human now?”

“Hey, don't talk like that, you will never be worthless to me, you will always be…”

I cut him off before he could finish. “I’ll understand if you want to reject me because I won't have a wolf, I wouldn't want to be mated to me either if I didn't have a wolf how can a human be a good enough Luna to a pack if she doesn't have a wolf.”

He takes a deep breath and when I look back into his eyes after what I said, I see is anger in his eyes, I knew what I said could make him mad, but I needed to say it.

“Alexandria, don't you ever talk like that, you are my mate, and you will always be my mate, no matter what,”

He stands and comes close to me with his forehead touching mine and looks into my eyes and to continue what he was saying, “You will be an amazing Luna for our pack and that is all there is to it, whether you have a wolf or not I will always want you as my mate, but you don't need to worry about that because she will come back. You are mine and I will always love you.”

I feel my heart skip a beat and I feel my breath hitch.

“You…you love me?”

He continues to look in my eyes with a smile and I can see all the love and devotion he has for me in them when he adds, “Of course I do baby, we are mates, and I can't wait to spend our lives together.”

I can't help but smile at his response.

“I love you too Jaxson.”

He kisses me with such passion and when we finally break free, we are both panting and trying to catch our breath. After we pull away from each other he sits back down in his chair, and I lay my head back and I start to feel tired again.

“I think I'm going to get a little more rest; you can head back to the pack house if you want.”

He shakes his head and says, “Not a chance, I’m going to be right here by your side the whole time. Get some rest baby.”

And I close my eyes with a smile on my lips as I drift off to sleep with dreams of my life with Jaxson, we can deal with James, Jackie, and Stacy later.