Chapter 35: Chapter Thirty-Five
**Alexandria**
I have been here for so long; I don't even remember what day it is. I have pretty much given up all hope of anyone coming to save me. The rogues come in from time to time to mess with me they quit bringing me food, when they do bring in water, they don't bother giving it to me to drink they just throw it on me, and they have resorted to beating me from time to time when they get bored, and I give them no reaction to the water being thrown on me.
I just lay there and let them do whatever they want to me, I have nothing else to live for anymore, Jaxson has moved on with Jackie and my parents have probably figured out that I want nothing to do with anyone from the pack, so they probably have come to terms with that. I know anyone else from the pack won't care one way or the other about me. I have come to terms with the fact that I am going to die here, and I am at the point of just giving up, I fall into a deep sleep from time to time.
I can feel my body becoming colder, there are no blankets in here to keep me warm, I have no wolf to help me stay warm and alert, I have even begun to have hallucinations, I dream of Jaxson coming to save me and I can sometimes hear his voice calling to me, but I know it's just my mind trying to comfort me in the end and I know there is no one coming for me.
I have been praying to the Moon Goddess to comfort Jaxson and my parents when I am gone, because I know that once I am dead they will feel my life force leaving this earth, they will feel a sharp pain in their hearts, Jaxson may even feel it most because we are mates, even though we aren't fully marked and mated he will still feel some sort of pain because we are fated to each other, it may not be as a severe as if we were fully mated but he will still feel something.
I wake up again sometime later to loud banging and it sounds like it could be fighting but I don't let myself be too excited over it because I know it's just my mind playing tricks on me again. This is when I drift into a sleepless slumber, and I feel like I am finally ready to meet the Moon Goddess and have her take me home.
I continue to just lay here and I let the darkness take me over, I know there is no point in waking up fully because I will just drift off and I hope I don't wake up this time because I know if I do the rogues will come back in here and throw more water on me and beat me some more they may even escalate their torture this time and I don't want to think of what they would do to my body, I think I will just go back to sleep.
When I wake up again, I hear banging on the door to the room I am being kept in, I don't know if it's my hallucinations or if it is real, so I don't get excited about it. I continue to lay here, I hear more banging and I hear yelling on the other side, it sounds like Jaxson, but I know it can't be him, he is supposed to be with Stacy. I hear something about how he is here, and he is going to save me, but I know it’s just my subconscious trying to comfort me in my final moments of life on this earth. “Moon Goddess, I am ready to go home now, I am ready to spend eternity with you in your garden.”
Finally, the door bursts open, and I cower more into the corner because I know it must be the rogues to come and finish the job. I turn my head just a little so they can hear me, “Just get it over with already and kill me!”
The figure stops and stares at me in shock.
“Alex, baby it's me. I came for you, I'm going to take you home.”
The voice sounds like Jaxson, but it can’t be.
“No! you're not real, you with Stacy now, just leave me alone and let me go to be with the moon Goddess.”
I turn to look at the figure and it looks so much like Jaxson, but I can't let my mind go there.
“No, you’re not real, she said you weren't coming.”
This Jaxson figure has come close to me, and he smells like Jaxson and makes my skin tingle like Jaxson, but I think it could just be my mind trying to comfort me at the end.
“What are you talking about baby, it's me, I promise I'm real.”
He gently grabs my hand and places it on his cheek to show me that he is real.
“Look at me Alex, feel it, feel the sparks. Alex, baby look at me.” I turn to try and look at him and he can see that I am trying to focus on him.
“See baby? It's me, I've come for you, I will always come for you.”
He says this with tears in his eyes and his voice wavers with remorse and sadness.
I hear more bangs and crashing outside the door and when I look to the doorway, I see a figure that looks so much like Annie.
“Oh, my goddess, Alex.”
The figure comes close to me and kneels next to Jaxson.
“We came for you Alex, we are going to get you out of here.”
She then turns to Jaxson or at least who I hope is Jaxson
“We need to get her out of here. NOW!”
Next thing I know Jaxson gently grabs me in his arms, and I can’t help but wince at the pain my body feels after the beatings I have endured. “I’m so sorry baby, you are safe now, we are going home. You are back where you belong.”
He carries me out of the room and through the hall, By the time we make it through the main doors I see nothing but blackness as I drift off again. The last thing I remember is trying to keep my head in the crook of his neck to hide from anyone else seeing me. I must look awful, and I don’t want anyone to see me like this. I just hope that whoever this person is who has come to save me and that he claims to be Jaxson is really him and I’m not being taken somewhere else to die.
Without my wolf, I don’t have it in me to survive anymore heartbreak or torture. I don’t have her to tell me if this man is really Jaxson or not, I can’t tell if he smells like Jaxson or not, but I can tell this person feels like Jaxson, but I have been through so much trauma that I don’t know what to believe right now.
But he feels so comfortable that I can’t help but stay in his arms and make myself as small as possible. I feel this person who claims to be Jaxson, shift me a little higher so he can whisper in my ear.