Chapter 59

I can't leave with this uneasiness in me and that's the reason why I'm sitting in this cafe and waiting for that person who will tell me the truth. Yes, I called that number and said I want to meet but no one spoke from another side and the phone got disconnected but in a few minutes a message came with an address telling me to meet here if I want to know the truth.

I was waiting patiently for that person. I smiled nervously at the waiter who kept the glass of water on my table and said thank you. With sweaty hands I gulped the cold contained to lessen my anxiousness and at the same time, I heard “Jane” making me lift my eyes and see that person. My eyes widened in shock seeing that person and It made me think hard about that.

How does this person know the truth?

Looking at him with still wide eyes I stood up in shock.

“How are you, Jane. it's been so long since I last saw you,” he said with a happy smile while hugging me. “I missed you so much,” he said while breaking our hug and cupping my cheeks with affection. I was just looking at him blankly. “I'm so happy to see you. I was looking forward to meeting you” he said in his cheerful voice while giving me a happy smile like always. I too missed him so much but I can't say it because I'm tongue-tied due to shock after seeing him.

I just kept staring at him blankly. My brain was trying to process everything. I was trying to find some connection between him and my family accident but I couldn't find any connecting link between us. I'm totally confused about what is going on and lost in words. Looking at my lost state he smiled at me with a known smile “I know you are confused about everything and I understand that it was a very hard decision for you to take a step and come here to know the truth by knowing how much you love your husbands family. I almost lost my hope that you will ever call me to know the truth. After knowing the fact of how much your husband's parents love you. They love you as their daughter and it put my heart at ease because you were lucky enough to get a love of mother and father from them” he said in a soft voice with an understanding smile.

“But at the same time, my heart hurts knowing all of this you got now. All of the relationships and happiness from your family today's family has cost you your own parents' life,” he said with sad eyes with a bitter smile.

I couldn't understand what he was saying. He is making me more confused. “W...what are you trying to say,” I asked in a breaking voice.

What does he mean by that everything has cost me my own parents' life?

When he said that my heart started beating fast with this unknown fear making me afraid of what was coming next. I looked at him with confused and afraid eyes. “Yes Jane all of your present happiness has cost you your own parent's life” he repeated his words with a sad smile making my fear increase more.

“W..what are you trying to say? What it has to do with my current family please say it clearly” I said while trying to keep my voice firm. He gave me a sad smile like he understood what I was feeling.

“Jane I don't want to hurt you but yes everything is related to your current family and the person who is responsible for all of this is no one else but your husband,” he said with a bitter face.

“What are you trying to say,” I asked in a disbelieving voice still confused with what he was trying to say. He was still not speaking clearly. I couldn't see any connection between all of this with Zanvil.

He breathed deeply and took my hands in his and held them with a firm grip. I could see it was difficult for him to speak his next words. “Yes, Jane I'm telling you the truth, Zanvil was the reason for your parent's death. He was the one with whose car your family had an accident,” he said with the same emotions causing tears to dwell in my confused eyes.

“Y..you are saying that the car which crashed with ours was a Zanvils and he was driving it,” I asked while swallowing the lump. While repeating his words it gave me a bitter taste in my mouth. He nodded his head in conformation making the ground beneath my feet slip. It causes tears to dwell in my eyes and my heart refuses to accept it. I moved my head in denial when his words were repeated in my brain for me to take in. “No, I don't believe you,” I said in a firm voice while holding my tears and still moving my head in denial while removing my hands from his hold.

“Jane, believe me,” he said while trying to convince me. I stopped him with my hand.

What is his problem? Why he is doing this with me.

“Why Scott why,” I asked in anger. Yes, he is the person with whom I'm talking now. Yes, he is the person with whom I talked to lessen the pain of my heart. He knows how I feel towards Zanvil then why the hell he is doing this with me. All these questions spread bitterness in my heart for him. “Scott, why are you doing this with me,” I said while swallowing the lump. “I thought we are good friends. You know how I feel about him then why are you trying to destroy my relationship with Zanvil,” I asked in a hurt voice and tears slipped from the corner of my eyes.

“Believe me, Jane, it's very hard for me. I don't want..” he didn't get time to complete his sentence because at the same time my phone rang.

I took it out and saw it was flashing a Zanvil number on it. Without thinking much I took his call. “Hello,” I said while trying to keep my voice steady.

“Love are you crying” were his first words which came out of his mouth in concern after listening to my little trembling voices.

Taking the phone away from my ear I took a deep breath to calm myself. I don't want him to get stressed because of me. “No, It's just that I'm having a cold. That's why my voice is coming like that,” I said while swallowing my tears.

“Are you telling me the truth?” he asked still in a concerned voice.

“Yes, I caught a cold while walking out of the house without taking a coat with me” I lied to him.

“Where are you now I'm coming to get you then we will go to the doctor,” he said in his firm voice. I could hear the shuffling sound of his coat.

Just me having a cold could put him under stress. I could feel that. He worries me so much. He cares for me so much and it made me realize that he won't hide such a big thing from me and Scott's words were making no sense in my head.

“You are coming here,” I asked him in disbelief. When I said those words Scott signaled me to stop him. I could see the panic in his eyes. “No no, you don't need to come to take me. I'm heading towards the home. I'll be there in fifteen minutes” I said in a little panicked voice trying to stop him.

I didn't stop him for Scott's sake but mine. I don't want him to know that I'm having my ugly nightmares frequently because that's the reason which brought me here. To know that stupid truth and by after coming here, all I got to hear are lies from the person whom I thought was my good friend. I don't want him to worry knowing that I came here to know the truth which is a big fat lie. All of this is happening because of my stupid nightmares. Because of the things which my brain is showing me from when I was barely conscious. I don't even know if those things I saw in my nightmares are true or my brain is creating illusions in front of me. Mixing everything from my past and present.

I was out of my thoughts by Zanvils voice “Ok but come fast I'll tell Rose to prepare soup for you and if you don't come here in fifteen minutes I will come to get you,” he replied to me in his firm voice leaving no space for me to say no.

“Yeah, you don't need to come. I'm leaving, I'm on my way” I responded, still talking on the phone and moving out of the cafe without giving Scott a second look. He followed me out. I'm disappointed in him. Coming out I hung up on the phone and signaled for a taxi.

I have to rush if I don't want Zanvil to come here.

“Jane, please li…” he said in a pleading voice but I stopped him.

“No Scott I don't want to hear anything and I don't believe in anything you said. I don't know why you are doing this. What you will get after hurting me like this. I thought you understood me but I was wrong. You don't even know anything about me and about that day and you are coming here and taking all nonsense about it” I said while opening the door of the taxi. “But still, for the sake of our friendship I'll keep this conversation between us and forget about this day because I genuinely consider you as my very good friend,” I said in a firm voice with little anger while slipping inside the taxi.

He was looking at me with pleading eyes but I ignored it. I tried to stop thinking about what Scott said to me but it was revolving inside my brain. I don't know what made him think like this. From last month he was not even coming to work but when I tried to contact him his number always came to switch off and now he popped up from nowhere with this nonsense theory in his brain. I tried to brush it off from my brain. I need to take this out of my brain because it is messing with my emotions so much. I'm going to tell mom about my nightmare so we can go to the doctor so this way I will stop dreaming about them.

After me reaching home the first thing Zanvil did was to scold me for not carrying my coat in such cold weather and then he made me drink two bowls of soup which cures a cold and I had to drink it without protesting. I spent the rest of my day with mom while helping her in the kitchen. Zanvil was working in his study all this time. He came down for dinner and again went back to his study for work and dad went back to rest in his room.

After some time mom too retired for the day after wishing me a good night. I went to the room and got changed in my pajamas for the night. When I came out of the bathroom, I looked at the watch to see the time it was midnight and Zanvil had still not come back to the bedroom to sleep. Exiting our bedroom I went to his study. Slowly opening it I peeked inside and saw Zanvil was working on his laptop with a serious expression on his face.

With this expression on his face, he still looked so handsome.

I stood there and kept staring at him for some time and again my thoughts drifted to what Scott said today. My heart refused to accept it but what if it's true.

No, it's not true Zanvil will never hide something this big from.

“If you are done staring at me then you can come in,” he said, still looking at his laptop screen.

How does he know I'm staring at him?

He not even for a second took his eyes away from his laptop screen. My face was red because he caught me staring at him. “Are you done with your work?” I asked while going inside his study with a caught face and standing in front of his study table.

“Yeah, twenty more minutes then I'm done. You go and sleep” he said while taking his eyes away from his laptop screen and looking at me with a small smile on his lips.

He looks so tired because he keeps on working continuously without taking a break. Dad's sudden stepping down from the CEOs position has left him with so much responsibility. I should help him.

“No, I'm not feeling sleepy. Do you need any help? Is there something in which I can help you” I asked while moving around his study table to go to his side and try to look at his laptop? To see what work he was doing.

Maybe I can help him in completing some files.

When I said that he moved a little bit away from his study table while moving his gaze from up and down on my body, it stopped on my face with this unknown emotion in his eyes which sent a shiver to my spine. I shifted my body weight from one leg to another to lessen his gaze effect on me. “You want to help,” he asked while completely facing me still sitting on his moving chair. I nodded my head in yes with a smile.

“Ok,” he said with a smirk, and a happy smile formed on my face by knowing that he will let me help him but it didn't last any longer because with a second I was pulled towards him and he made me straddle on his lap making me bury my face in his neck while clashing my front with his hard chest. He did everything so fast it caught me off guard.

“What are you doing?” I asked while keeping my hands on his chest trying to move away from his lap and addicting scent. I tried to stand up but he placed his one hand on my waist with a firm grip and made me stay on his lap and move nearer to him if it was even possible.

“You said you wanna help so help me by staying near me,” he said with an evil smirk.

I looked at him with a disbelieving gaze. “How will I help you without actually working and sitting ideally. I'm asked if I could help you with completing some files so your work will be finished fast so you can rest” I said while looking at his handsome face.

“That's what I'm doing, I'm letting you help me by staying near me. Look, I'm already starting to feel energized. My work will be over soon,” he said while moving back to do his work with me in his lap.

“Zanvil” I tried to protest why he is making me sit ideally.

“Love just stays with me like that,” he said while making his grip strong on my waist. I didn't protest anymore and snuggled my face in his neck to inhale his addicting scent. It immediately calmed my heart. If he needs my help like this then let it be. I wrapped my hands around him. He kissed my head and again started working. My ear was placed on his chest where his heart was beating. I could hear the rhythmic beating of his heart.

We stayed like that for some time in silence but Scott's words were still messing with my head. “Zanvil,” I said while lifting my head and looking at him. He hummed in response still looking at the laptop screen. “Do you want to tell me something?” I asked him. I don't know why those words came out of my mouth but I felt like asking him.

His body went stiff when I said those words. He tore his gaze away from his laptop screen and looked at me. “No way are you saying that,” he asked me with confused eyes.

Staring at his face, for a few seconds, I discarded that taught and moved my head in denial. “No, it's nothing, it's just. I felt like asking you,” I said with a small smile.

He gazes at my face for a few seconds with this unknown emotion getting lost in his thoughts. “No there is nothing that I need to tell you and if there is something that I need to tell you I will not hide it from you,” he said while cupping my cheeks and pecking my lips to assure me. “Now sleep it's late you have work tomorrow,” he said while moving his hand on my back in a soothing manner to comfort me. I nodded at him with a smile of yes and again rested my head on his chest.

I trust him he won't hide such a big thing from me.

With Zanvil assurity Scott's words started fading away from my brain. Snuggling more in Zanvil warm body I closed my eyes inhaling his scent and I don't know when I drifted to sleep in his arms.

I was working in my cabin and it's almost lunchtime. “I should go and grab something to eat” I whispered to myself because monkeys in my stomach were protesting against me in my stomach. I stood up and exited my cabins to grab something to eat. Zanvil was busy with his meeting so we can't have lunch together.

Everything was going smoothly for the past week and I even started to forget about Scott and my meeting. I wanted to eat something spicy from the cafe across the road as I was walking. A familiar figure stopped me. Seeing him I tried to walk away ignoring him.

“Jane please listen to me for once,” he said in his pleading voice while taking hold of my arm and stopping me in my way.

“Scott, what are you doing, let go of my arm,” I said in anger.

“I will please listen to me for once” he again said in the same pleading voice while making his grip strong on my arm.

He was not ready to let go of my arm and it made me mad. “Why should I listen to you. Why don't you realize that the person you're talking about is my husband? Give me a dame good reason why should I listen to your nonsense” I blurted out in anger while snatching my hand away from him and turning around to go.

“Won't you listen to your only family who is alive now?” he said those words in his weak voice stopped me dead in my tracks. His words made me stop from taking one more step in the forwarding direction.

What is he talking about when the only family whole is alive?

I have no living relatives who he is talking about. His words made me turn around to look at him with furrowed brows and asked him in a confused shaken voice. “W..what are you trying to say, Scott, ” I said while looking straight in his eyes.

“You don't remember me, Lizzy,” he asked with a teary gaze with a bitter smile. I could see hurt in his eyes making my stomach twist.

He called me with a nickname that only my parents used to call me. How does he know this? I never talked about my parents with him. My heart was beating fast after listening to him. “W..who are you,” I asked in a breaking voice.

“I'm your aunt Sandra's son and your only cousin,” he said with a sad smile making me remember who he is.

My eyes widened in realization when his facial features matched with him. A faded memory of a twelve years old boy who stole a chocolate cake from a fridge to stop a ten-year-old girl from crying because he was moving away to a different country. “Scottie” a mere wisped left out of my mouth in realization.

Listening to my whisper he came near me and hugged me tightly making tears slip out of my closed eyes. “I waited for so long to hug you like this,” he said in his tear voice while making his embracement tight around me. The realization that I still have a family that I am not an orphan warmed my heart with this unknown peace within me and it slipped away from the corner of my eyes in the form of warm tears. I hugged him tightly while biting my trembling lower lip to control my sobbing. Breaking our hug he cupped my face “I wait for so long in hope of you recognizing me” he said while wiping out my tears with his thumb “I waited for this movement to come into my life. I waited for when my little Lizzy hugged me tightly like this” he said with a happy smile and teary eyes. Making me smile too while tears were still flowing from my eyes.

“Why did you wait for so long? Why didn't you tell me this sooner.” I said while beating on his chest while sobbing.

Tears were continually falling from my eyes. He took hold of my small hands in his. “Because I was searching for something and I wanted to be sure about it before revealing it to you,” he said in his serious voice still wiping tears from my eyes with his free hand.

His words made my heart increase in fear. “With what you wanted to be sure,” I asked in my small, feared voice. This fear inside me was telling me that I won't like what was about to come out of his mouth.

“You remember the first day we met?” I nodded my head. “I instantly recognized you on that day but I was so confused by what you were doing in Addams's cooperation. When I came back to the country I tried to contact your family but I got no response. I went to your old house and found no one was living there. When I talked to your neighbors they told me your family had an accident and I was so shaken with that information and lost my hope to see you again but your neighbor told me that only one family member survived that accident and it was you. I was so happy after knowing you are alive.

I tried to ask them about your whereabouts but they told me you disappeared after that accident. With his new hope in me, I tried to get more information about your family accident but everything was so confidential that the cops were not ready to give me any information about it. For the whole two years, I tried to search for you and throughout this time I got a job in Addams cooperation to get information about you and I even made a friend who was working for cops and with his help, I got a little more information about you and that accident.

First I thought it was considered that you were working for the people with whose son's car your family had an accident but slowly I started to know that it was more than that and on that day I came to know that you were married to the person who was the reason for your parent's death. At that point, I wanted to scream and tell you about the truth but I saw a genuine feeling in your eyes towards Zanvil. I didn't want to hurt you so I tried to convince Zanvil to tell you about that day but he warned me and said to stay away from you. Saying it was his matter. After that, I tried to convince him but to no anvil. He left me with no choice but to talk to you directly” he said in a sad but firm voice.

Listening to him my whole body went into shock. Everything started to run in my head and instantly an image of dark deep sea-colored eyes staring at me popped in front of my eyes making my eyes wide in shock. The person sitting in an ambulance with me was Zanvil. I was about to lose my balance when Scott secured his hold on my waist with a firm grip. I looked at him with teary eyes “A..are you telling me the truth?” I asked in a breaking voice while swallowing the lump.

How my heart wants him to say that he is joking with me and everything was a lie but he nodded his head with sad eyes making me sob. I could take this anymore. I don't know what is happening. Why my life is taking three-sixty-degree turns. I just found my lost family and I was about to lose my current family.

I moved my head in denial “I need to know the truth from Zanvil's mouth. I think you mistook him for someone else. I will believe it when he accepts it” I said with teary eyes still moving my head in denial. “I need to talk to him,” I said while moving away from him heading in the direction of the office. I heard Scott calling my name but I didn't stop in my tracks.

Taking a lift I reached his floor and stood in front of his office door. With trembling hands, I opened the door and found him working on his laptop. Sensing my presence he lifted his head to look at me. Looking at my crying face he immediately stood up and came in my direction with a worried face. “What happened love why are you crying,” he asked while cupping my cheeks in worry.

I looked at him with a teary gaze “Tell me is Scott taking a bit of truth,” I asked while swallowing the lump which was forming in my throat a tear slipped from my left eye.

Hearing me his face lost its color. “Jane,” he said but I didn't let him complete.

“Yes or no,” I asked in anger while taking his hands away from my face.

He kept staring at my crying face for a few minutes fighting with his thoughts and emotions. “Yes,” he said in his little-shaken voice and came near me.

Hearing him ground slipped from beneath me. With trembling hands, I pushed him away from my body and took hold of his office table to balance my weak body. The realization hit me, making breathing hard for me.

I'm married to a person who is the reason for my parent's death.

It felt like tons of water was thrown on my face to wake me from my sleep and face my ugly present situation.

“Why Zanvil why” I yelled in anger. “Why did you hide this truth from me? Why didn't you ever try to tell me.” I said while sobbing hard while trying to yell loudly but I was losing my strength. “All this time you kept me in the dark and I, like a fool, trusted your every word. I didn't even believe in the person who tried to tell me the truth” I said while fisting my hair in frustration. Tears were continuously flowing from my eyes.

“Jane, listen to me. I didn't want you to know it, like that,” he said while trying to hold my weak body but I stopped him.

“Don't touch me?” I said in anger. I saw the hurt in his eyes when I said those words. “Tell me when you were planning to tell. Never” I said while wiping out my tears with the back of my hand.

“Jane It was not meant for you to know it. I didn't want to hurt you in this way,” he said in a hurt voice.

His words increased anger inside me “how can you say that it was not meant for me to know it. Who do you decide it to be? You're talking about not hurting me but let me tell you something. By doing this you have hurt me in the worst possible way” I yelled in anger.

“Jane I didn't mean to say that” he tried to explain himself. He was saying something else and his eyes were telling me a different story that he didn't want to reveal to anyone.

Again he did not tell me because he never thought I was capable enough of knowing the truth. It sends a burning sensation in my heart and stomach. Making breathing hard for me.

“Y...you are saying that it's not my right to know the truth about my accident,” I said while sobbing and looking at him with teary eyes. His eyes were refusing to listen to what I said but he was not willing to say it, making tears fall from my eyes. “How did I forget you never saw me as a capable person for you. Tell me did you marry me because you felt guilty about crashing into us,” I said while sobbing and trying to keep my voice straight.

He doesn't say anything making me lose my bit of patience. “I trust you so much but in return, I got betrayal because you never saw me as your wife but guilt which you tried to overcome by marrying it even after knowing I don't deserve to get married to a great Zanvil,” I said in anger.

He stood there without denying my single accusation. “Mom and dad know about this,” I asked in my weak voice.

When I said that his expression changed to a hard one making my heartbeat in fear against my chest in realization they did not know the whole truth. “Don't bring them between us?” he said while swallowing his anger.

“Don't worry I'm not an expert like you in hurting my loved ones and to clarify something to you. Do you think there is still something with us?” I said in anger. I saw how his eyes widened in shock and anger.

“What do you mean,” he said in anger.

“You know what I mean. I don't even know what I'm still doing in your life. When I'm the most unworthy person in your life. In your words gold digger,” I said while wiping out my tears and looking at him in anger.

“You can't leave like this,” he said in anger.

“Won't it be for the better to release you from this guilty full relationship that you didn't even want in the first place?” I said while trying to keep my voice steady.

Listening to me he charged in my direction in anger and took a hold of my weak body in his strong arms making me pushed his hard chest in protest “You are no fucking leaving me” he said with a clenched jaw in anger.

With still teary eyes I looked in his deep sea-colored one. They were looking back at me with anger. They were screaming and telling me that my accusations were not true. He was still hiding something from me and it made my blood boil in anger.

What is stopping him from saying it?

Did you forget Jane doesn't want you? And that's the reason why he doesn't want to tell you anything. You mean nothing to him in his life never was will be. I was leaving in the illusion created by him and today it is broken with such an ugly truth. Now he won't need to pretend this illusion in front of my eyes anymore.

And that thought made my decision firm. What is the use of staying in relationships where one can't even speak the truth? Taking a deep breath to steady my trembling voice still looking in his eyes I said “You don't get to decide it.” saying that I removed his hands away from me against his will.

“You can't do this I won't allow you,” he said with fear in his eyes and panic-filled voice. He was breathing heavily to control his body movement. He fisted his hands in anger.

“I'm doing it and if you try to stop me I will go and ask mom and dad for releasing me from this guilt-filled relationship,” I said while looking straight into his angry eyes which were filled with pure fear of losing what. His parent's happy for me.

But I know the truth: he never wanted me and that fear is because of losing his parent's happiness. At least my broken heart is at peace knowing he cares so much about his parent's happiness and that's the reason why he doesn't want me to leave. He kept staring at me with the same emotions taking hold of his working table while breathing heavily to control himself. Seeing him like that broke my already broken heart but he deserves it.

“Tell mom and dad I will always love them,” I said in my strong voice while holding my tears. Saying that I left his cabin by not giving him a second look. As soon as I left his cabin I heard a loud crashing noise making my broken heart scream at me to stop in my tracks and go back to him.

But I didn't listen to it reaching my cabin. I collected my small bag from it and left my cell phone on my working table and then l left the building with a heavy heart without looking back. Reaching down I saw Scott was waiting for me. Seeing my state he came running to me with a worried face and hugged me tightly. I didn't hold my tears back and cried on his shoulder to lessen my pain but it kept on increasing as I took more steps away from ‘him.’

Sunlight was falling on my closed eyes making me growl in protest. I felt fingers creasing my cheeks. “Zanvil let me sleep,” I said in protest in my sleepy voice but he didn't stop it. He again did it, making me growl more and making my eyes open to stop him and see his morning handsome face to start my day. But as soon as I opened my eyes.

The realization hit me. I was in my old home in my bedroom sleeping on the window bed where I drifted to sleep last night while gazing at the dark sky where my mom and dad shined telling me to stay strong.

The thing which was creasing my face was a curtain which was moving because of the wind. Tears dwell in my eyes remembering nothing was good anymore.

On that day I stayed at Scott's house because he refused to leave me alone. Going to his place I meet with his girlfriend Mia and soon-to-be my sister-in-law. She was so happy to see me. She welcomed me with a warm smile. She is such a good person, the same as Scott. She took care of me that day. Even being heavily eight months pregnant. On that night I cried myself to sleep remembering everything and thinking I have nothing left in my hand.

The next morning from the first flight I went to my hometown against Scotts and Mia's protest. They didn't want me to stay away from them. Scott was so mad at me but at the same time too worried for me. But in the end, he understood that I needed to be near my parent's presence and he knew that I would only feel it in my old home. He understood that I need to go away from anything that causes pain in my heart and for the past one month I've been living in my old house with my parent's memories.

Every morning I would be like me waking up, sometimes thinking of being late to work only to find out I don't have a job. Something waking in hunger and running down to the kitchen to see what mom had made for breakfast and sometimes to see dad's happy face. Every time I woke in the morning to find something to find nothing.

Nothing was the same anymore and it causes a spang of immense pain in my chest. Drifting to sleep at night was so hard for me because I missed him so much. I was so used to him in my delayed life. Sometimes I drifted to sleep without even eating thinking he would wake me up and feed me. Every time this thought came to my mind it increased pain in my heart making it difficult for me to breathe.

I want to hate him for making me feel like that. I want to hate him for destroying my small happy family. I want to hate him for making me so used to him but I don't even know if I'm any more capable of doing that. That thought made tears slip from my left eye.

I was still sitting and thinking about everything when suddenly a nuisance hit me and I ran to the bathroom to throw up. For the past week, this has been happening to me. Still feeling weak I moved to the sink and washed my face and mouth. I looked at my reflection in the mirror. My face was so pale with bags under my eyes my lips felt so dehydrated. I kept on staring at my lifeless reflection until I heard my new phone ringtone which Scott bought for me forcefully.

Wiping my face I moved to my bedroom and took my cell phone in my hand. It was flashing Scott's number making me smile a little bit. With a small smile, I took a call. “Hello,” I said in my small voice.

“Hello, Jane, are you ok? What took you so long to receive the phone? I was so worried,” he said in his worried voice.

“Relax Scottie I'm fine. I was in the bathroom,” I said to calm him.

“Tell me did you go to the doctor,” he asked in his big brother's voice. I didn't reply to him feeling guilty. “O God Jane for my sake please go to the doctor today. You know I can't come here because Mia is on her due date” he scolded me. From last week Mia and he have been telling me to go and see the doctor but I don't feel like doing it. “Promise me you will see the doctor today,” he asked me in his firm voice.

I was feeling bad for making them worry for me so much “Yes I will” I replied in a small voice.

“Good I'm giving the phone to Mia. She wants to talk with you” saying that he gave her the phone. She too took a promise from me to go and see the doctor and then we talked for a few minutes about how she is excited about the baby's arrival. Her baby talk made a smile from on the corner of my lip. Being a mother is such a divine feeling. After some time, we said goodbye to each other.

Taking a bath I got ready to go to the doctor. Going down I open the fridge to get something to eat. I took out milk and some fruits to eat. I don't know how I started to drink milk. I ate little fruits then I kept them away because I didn't want to eat them anymore. I cranked my nose in dislike. Taking a full glass of milk I drank it in one go it teases so deliciously.

Nowadays I'm liking it the most in my breakfast. I only had one glass of milk for my breakfast. If mom came to know I had only one glass of milk in my breakfast she would scold me and make me eat a healthy breakfast. That thought made tears form in my eyes. I swallowed the tears by taking a deep breath. I miss mom and dad so much.

Do you miss only them?

My inner voice asked me but I ignored it. Taking my small shoulder bag and my coat I exited the house. Locking it I headed in the direction of the clinic two blocks away from here. Today the weather was so good though it was a little cold outside. Securing my shoulder bag on my shoulder I wrapped my hands around my small frame to give warmth to my body in this little cold weather and walked to the clinic.

Going to the reception I asked her for a clinic form. With a smile, she gave it to me and I thanked her and filled the information I gave back to her. Taking it she told me to wait for my turn. I did what she said and went inside the doctor's cabin when she called me.

“Miss Jane Austen”, she asked for confirmation. Yes, that's the name I wrote on my form. I nodded at her. “Please take a seat. I'm your doctor who will attend to you,” she said while gesturing to me to sit on a chair. “Can you tell me what are your symptoms?” she asked me with a smile.

I told her everything she told me to take some tests and even took my urine samples for tests. I was waiting patiently for my test result and after some time the doctor again called me to her cabin to tell me my test result. “What is my result saying doctor,” I asked while taking a seat in front of her.

She was studying my results when I asked her. Lifting her head from it she smiled at me and said, “Miss Jane congratulations you are six-week pregnant.” My eyes widened in surprise and my heart filled with happiness.

“What are you sure, doctor,” I asked with a smile, tears forming in my eyes in happiness.

“Yes,” she replied with a smile. When she confirmed it again. The first name popped in my head when I wanted to tell this news but soon the realization hit me that I can't do it. With a sad smile, I said thank you to the doctor and head home while wrapping my hands to my flat stomach.

I can't believe I'm carrying a life inside me. I'm so happy now there will be something whom I can call mine. Who won’t leave me alone like everyone? Now I won't be alone in this big world anymore. My baby brought so much happiness to my shattered life. It will be my hope in this lifeless world. It was the happiest day of my life.

Reaching home taking my mom dad's photo frame I told them they are going to be grandparents. I told happy news to Scott and Mia and they were so happy for me. Scott even promised that he would come tomorrow to see me and his nephew or niece and go back in the afternoon. Mia too demanded to come and see me but I and Scott strongly protested against it.

Throughout the day I was so happy and at night for the first time in a month, I slept peacefully while wrapping my hands around my stomach. In the morning I woke up with a happy smile. I got ready and ate my breakfast, I had one glass of milk in my breakfast. I tried to eat more but I couldn't do it without throwing up. At the same time, the doorbell rang telling me Scott's arrival.

With a happy smile, I went to open the door. With a bright smile, I opened it wide to close it back in fear with a thud. I stood there placing my back to the door to support my weak frame. My small hands were placed on my wildly beating heart to console my poor heart.

When I opened my door I saw deep sea-colored eyes looking at my soul passing the barrier of my body. And when our eyes meet I feel him stripping my soul out of me and It causes me to immediately close the door in fear.

“What is he doing here? What does he want now.” I whispered in my small feared and angry voice to myself. Again the doorbell rang, making me flinch at my place and my heart jumped out of my ribcage...