Chapter 51 051
Amy's POV
I stopped crying for a moment to think about what she just said to me. Did I actually fall for that jerk? There's no way right? I just feel like he used me when I haven't even met any man before and also he's supposed to be my mate. What am I supposed to do when he wants to be with others?
"You're not saying anything. Do you want me to confirm it for you?" Stacy asked me.
"I... I'm not in love. I'm just angry." I replied.
"So you're jealous."
Jealousy? Why would I be jealous of him when we're not even... We're not together anyway!
"I'm not jealous. Stop saying nonsense Stacy." I scolded her. "I'm just mad. He's my mate, he... He should at least respect me."
She looked at me like she was using her eyes to interrogate my soul. I know why she looks at me like that, she does that to force me into telling the truth. But I'm telling the truth.
"You're mad he brought another woman and he sent you away. You can't stand it so you're crying here. What do you think it is?"
I shrugged, "I can't possibly love him. He's evil and he looks down on me. Maybe my body just wants him but that's all of it."
She shook her head, "It's over. You are hopeless. You've fallen for the devil and I'm surprised how you did it. You were into that all along?"
I didn't know what exactly to say to her because I realized she was saying the truth. I've been acting way too weird and wanting him badly. Now I'm crying because his first love came. I actually wanted to break the relationship with him so that we wouldn't see each other anymore. This should be something I'm happy about. Why the hell am I sad that he's with another girl?
"Do you finally realize it now?" She asked me again. "You're not saying anything, which means what I said was true. Wow, I really didn't expect you to fall in love with someone who treats you that way."
"I don't think that's what is going on. Maybe they're just assuming things. Maybe it's not exactly like that." I said to her but she didn't believe me.
"Do you think I would believe things like that? You're actually in love with him. There is nothing like maybe in this situation." She stood her ground.
Perhaps she was right and there was no maybe in this situation because I could have fallen in love with him. How did I end up getting so used to being treated so badly like with him? No, I have to get my head straight.
I think I'm not thinking right at all. I shouldn't be in love with him. He's a devil and a very vicious person. All he knows is to kill people and hurt other people that didn't do anything to him.
I shouldn't be with someone like him unless I want him to completely ruin my life. Besides, his first love already came and he didn't care about me. He didn't even blink when throwing me out of his place.
He hinted at me to leave and he said he didn't want me to leave. Obviously, he wanted me to excuse them. Was he expecting me to obediently sit down and wait till he was done talking to his lover so that I can go like I was a doll? I felt so angry at how he treated me.
"What are you going to do now? Are you going to confess to him?" Stacy asked me again.
"Hell no. I haven't even confirmed if I liked him. Besides, he's a bad person. I don't want to be with a scumbag!" I clenched my fists.
I was pretending not to care, but I couldn't help thinking about what exactly he was doing with her now. Could they be touching each other all over? Could they be doing some other things that I didn't know about?
I kept thinking about it, and it made me angry. He acted as if I was the only woman in the world, and he already announced to the entire world that he wanted to make me his Luna. Now he's acting like an idiot just because his ex came back.
From the way they acted, it seems like they already broke up. Why would she come back at a time like this? Was it because she heard the announcement of him choosing a Luna, and she just couldn't stand it?
He kissed her in front of me without blinking an eye. I'm not going to forgive him for that, and I'm not going back to him. I'm going to live here. No. Why should I even live? They're the ones who should get out of my life and never come back again.
"I'm not going anywhere. I'm going to make sure he regrets everything he did to me. That bastard doesn't deserve me." I told Stacy.
She nodded with a smile.
"You're finally getting it. You shouldn't cry over someone like him. There are thousands of men who already want you. Besides..." she moved closer and whispered in my ears, "You're a lycan. Lots of people will kneel at your feet to want you to be their partner. She's not the only one in the world, so forget him."
I suddenly thought of Brian who told me before that he wouldn't give up on me. When we had the last conversation, I was shocked.
FLASHBACK
"What? I exclaimed as he told me he wasn't going to give up. I'm telling you I won't give up. I don't need your answer now. I'm going to give you time to think about it." He said and sounded so possessive.
This was the first time I was hearing him sound like that after he treated me harshly. I was so mad at his audacity that I threw my bag at his head when he turned to leave.
He turned around holding his head in pain. "Why did you do that?"
"You bastard. What do you think I am? An object you can control at will? Who the hell do you think you are?" I fired at him angrily.
He shook his head. "That's not what I meant. I'm just trying to tell you how I feel."
I spat at him. "How you feel my fucking foot. You better stay the hell away from me. I'm going to make sure that you don't get to speak anymore. You fucking jerk!"
I didn't wait for him to say anything before I left him there. He's an annoying bastard if he thinks he's going to control me just because I used to like him.
FLASHBACK ENDED
"What are you thinking about Amy?" Stacy asked me seeing how I was lost in thoughts.
I shook my head with a smile, "there's nothing I'm thinking about other than how I can get back at him. If I'm really in love with him then he must have played with my heart. I can't forgive him for that."
She smacked my head with a smile, "that's right! Your family coming to your senses and going along with the original plan. Poison him like before."
My eyes widened in shock, looking at how vicious my friend was. Was surprised that she was even more crazy than I am.
"What?"