Chapter 37

Chapter 37
“No need, don't bother Alpha Jayden, he's already very busy. I believe what you're doing is the best thing,” I replied quickly.

Of course, I didn't want to disturb Jayden's work, even though he had always told me that he didn't mind meeting with me whenever I needed him. Still, I felt uncomfortable, and today I didn't have the courage to see him.

I remembered what we had accidentally done last night.

Flashback.

“Alpha Jayden, maybe it's better if I move rooms,” I said pleadingly because, honestly, sleeping with him these past few days has made me very uncomfortable. Every night, being next to him has prevented me from sleeping soundly because I'm afraid my sleeping position will disturb him, and I can't openly express all my worries because I'm afraid others will misunderstand my intentions.

My words seemed to provoke Jayden. The man who had been busy with all the documents in his hands now placed them on a small table right next to his large bed. His gaze was now fixed on me, and I didn't dare to look at him directly.

Actually, it's not that I'm unable to look him in the eye in the sense that I feel ashamed to do all that, especially since I was only trying to protect my heart because I didn't want Jayden's kindness to make me fall for him when I should have realized that our relationship was only mutually beneficial and I shouldn't have fallen for a man who had been kind enough to help me like Alpha Jayden.

“What's wrong, Erica? Do you feel uncomfortable sleeping with me? Have I unknowingly disturbed you while you sleep?” asked the man, looking at me with a confused expression, making me feel a little guilty in my heart because for the past few days, we had indeed shared the same bed, but we had our own boundaries, and during that time, Alpha Jayden had always been respectful. He never did anything else to me, even when we were in bed together. Alpha Jayden never even forced me to talk to him. He always seemed to try to make me comfortable by respecting my every little action.

“If you're uncomfortable with me, just say so, Erica. You don't need to be shy, I'll immediately introspect myself,” Jayden said again because I didn't dare to answer his question frankly.

Hearing the tone of his voice, which seemed to blame himself for making me uncomfortable, made me feel guilty. "No, Alpha, I didn't mean it like that. It's just that I feel uncomfortable because maybe if I'm next to you, I'll disturb your rest without realizing it, and I don't mind sleeping on the sofa. Ah no, I don't even mind sleeping on the floor as long as you're comfortable.“ I expressed all my thoughts quickly, I even closed my eyes, not ready to hear Jayden's answer if he was indeed bothered by my presence there.

”What are you saying, Erica? How could you bother me? What have you done to me? And also, if you can't stand to hug me when I'm sleeping, it's fine." Jayden's joking answer made me a little annoyed, but hearing his low laugh somehow made my heart feel very comfortable because I realized that no wolf had ever been so greedy towards me.

I had never even joked around with other wolves, so it was only natural that Jayden's gentle treatment of me all this time made my little heart a little afraid. The deep trauma I got from the Cendana Pack made me not want to fall back into the same wound, but still, I couldn't openly show Alpha Jayden that I was afraid of getting hurt again, even though I knew that Jayden had no intention of hurting me.

“Alpha Jayden, don't joke around,” I replied, my face reddening because, to be honest, the more I heard his laughter, the faster my heart beat, and this was one of the reasons why I chose not to sleep in the same bed with him because every time I was near him, my heart felt very noisy. Not only was it noisy, but I also felt very embarrassed if Jayden knew about it, especially since sometimes when I slept, I felt that Jayden's scent was very intoxicating and sometimes almost made me lose control.

Actually, the intoxicating scent that came from Jayden's body sometimes made me wonder why he had such a scent. But I can't find the answer, and this is the first time I've smelled something like that, and I know it can't be the scent of a mate because we are not a couple created by the Moon Goddess, but still, I feel very uncomfortable when I behave rudely towards him without realizing it later when I fall asleep because of his intoxicating scent.

“I'm not joking, Erica. You can do whatever you want to me. I'll be completely submissive. Besides, how could I refuse a beautiful woman like you?” Jayden's reply made me blush.

I knew that Alpha Jayden was just joking, but for some reason, I had a little hope.

“Alpha, please.” I tried to ask in a small voice; I really couldn’t take it anymore.