Chapter 61 Supportive
Mariko's POV
I wanted to beat the sh^t out of those men that did this to her. I wanted to see them suffer and rot in prison. Things could've been so much worse. But I'm happy she is okay even though mentally she may not be after this. I should've known that something was wrong. I wanted to hold her but I didn't want to make her feel afraid. But it was me, someone that would keep her safe and comfort her.
"Can I hold you?" I asked.
She nodded and then I wrapped my arm over her. "I went to the police station to report them. It will be looked into."
"I'm happy to know that you reported that. Why didn't you call me?" I asked.
"He took my phone out of my pocket and then he...he smashed it onto the floor, it broke into pieces." she took in a deep breath.
"Son of a b^tch," I muttered under my breath.
"They wanted to f^ck me, I was willing to give them what they wanted so that our baby would be fine and safe. I didn't want them to harm our baby with those knives being held to me, but I passed out and I woke up, they were gone and nothing was done to me. My mother was by my side and I am so angry with her because she was the cause of this. She took drugs and she blames my father for it. He doesn't want her. Why can't she just move on and find someone else? I know that she had been single for years since what had happened to her...with me being conceived, but what did she expect with a man that is not interested in her?" she said as she found confidence to speak again.
"I don't understand what goes through some peoples minds, but sometimes people create this picture of a fairytale as if things would work out exactly like that. I guess it became too much for your mother but...I think that your father should be with someone that he really wants," I said for what it was worth.
"He wants a woman that goes by the name of Cynthia, and I respect that. If it makes him happy, then I will allow that. He is taking care of my mother and sending her to rehab. I don't think that the apartment is safe for her to be in when she returns. I have to look for a different place for her to be in. I want to protect her too, but she needs help first. This was just too much for me today. I have flashbacks of the incident and I just want it to stop." she said.
I nearly recommended sleeping pills to her but I remembered the incident and I am trying for her not to be on that. Given the situation, she might just have another overdose. "When is your next therapy session?" I asked.
"Next week," she replied as I moved my hand towards her belly. She rested her hand on mine. She was beginning to feel comfortable with my touch again.
"I will take you and I will wait for you. I also think that you need to get your own car soon."
"I don't want to drive," she let out a sigh.
"Well, I insist, one day you will be able to drive yourself anywhere and I won't always be available. But for the time being, I will take you where you need to be. I will get you another phone tomorrow," I said.
"I don't need you to do that for me, I can buy my own phone, please. I need you to respect that," I understand where she is coming from. She doesn't want to feel as if she is a gold digger and she doesn't want me to buy her nice things. But sometimes, she should allow me to spoil her because I feel like spoiling her.
"I respect you. Don't worry about the ring either, I will get a new one," I said. I wanted to place a kiss on her forehead but I didn't. I wanted her to be fully comfortable. "Try to get some sleep, I'm not going to leave your side."
I tried to sleep but anger wouldn't allow me to. I realized that with this new situation, I had forgotten about Bella. It was a distraction for me. I still hope that she will wake up so that I know she is okay and recovering. As long as my little girl is awake, I will be happy.
Maddie's POV
I tried to sleep but the flashbacks of the incident kept on flashing in my mind. It had become dark in the room and I didn't hear Mariko have his little snore when he is fast asleep. I was still lying on my back with his hand on my belly and my hand resting on his hand. I started to become comfortable with Mariko. I needed his safe arms and his comfort to get me through it, especially when I spoke about it.
I don't even know if I want to face the outside world right now. I guess I need time, but I want to see Bella. All I can do is try to pretend with the rest of world that I'm fine. Perhaps Bella will make it better for me when I see her.
"Are you awake?" I asked softly.
"Yeah," he replied. "Are you feeling okay? Do you need anything?" he asked as he began to sit up.
"I'm feeling hungry but its okay, I can't sleep," I said. He looked at me.
"I can't sleep either, let's go to the kitchen and I can make something," he said as he got up from bed.
I checked the time on the bedside table, there was a little digital clock. It was just after midnight. I got out of bed and followed after Mariko. I was hugging myself. I'm in my apartment with Mariko and there is no danger. It's like I have to remind myself that I'm safe.
I sat on the barstool when we got to the kitchen and Mariko started to make us a sandwich. My half empty glass of water was still where I left it earlier. I took a deep breath.
"Would you like something warm to drink or something cold?" he asked, there was still concern in his eyes.
"Something warm, please," I replied.
"Hot chocolate."
"Yeah," I said and he continued. There was silence.
I had to make conversation, "How is everything with Amber?" I asked.
"She is awake and she is in pain but she will be okay. It's Bella that I'm worried about. I just want her to open her eyes, that is all that I want," he said, and there was sadness.
"I want to see Bella tomorrow, it will be good for me," I said.
"Are you sure?" he asked as he placed a plate of tuna sandwich in front of me.
He kept his gaze on me. "Yes, she might be someone that can make me forget about what had happened."
"If that is what you want, then we can see her in the morning." he took in a deep breath as he turned away to make me hot chocolate.
"Thank you," I replied and started to eat my sandwich. When he was done, he placed the hot chocolate on the counter and then he took a seat beside me.
"I wish that I had been with you when you went to see your mother," he said.
"I decided at the last minute. I am going to be fine," I replied. I have to be because I came so far in my journey with everything.
"I'm sorry that you had to go through that. I can only imagine," he let out a sigh.
"See it as a blessing that I passed out. If I hadn't...it could've been worse and please don't blame yourself that you weren't there. I was supposed to meet you at the hospital but I didn't. It was my fault but I was worried about my mother. I hadn't heard from her and I saw what she was doing and one thing led to another. It could have been her, Mariko. I don't wish that on anyone else. Not on my own mother. I hope that she gets the help that she deserves and I hope that one day she will be happy and not depend on my father."
"You are very strong. I am proud of you because you care for people and with situations you came out stronger, but know that I am always here." he looked at me sincerely.
I gave him a faint smile before turning back to my sandwich. I needed to be strong. I don't want to dwell on what happened. Therapy can sort that part out for me, but as long as I told Mariko, I didn't need to worry about how he would react because he cares and he will always stick by my side. It makes me love him even more.