Chapter 42

Chapter 42

Shawan POV

I watched Bill pull the trigger, and I screamed when the gun went off. That was when I saw the blood; I thought that he had shot her in the head, and she was dead. I fainted at the sight of the blood. When I woke up again, I was in the cabin and in bed. Ingrid was fussing over me, and Bill was standing there.

" I'm so glad that you're OK."

" Im fine."

The truth was that I was not OK. I was upset beyond belief that today had turned into total shit. I had plans for tonight. I wanted to make love to Bill, and now I don't know how I feel about it. Someone just tried to kill me. All over a break-up. I have heard people do crazy things when they are broken up with. However, I thought those were all stories. I had never experienced a breakup before. Bill was my one and only. Especially since I was mated to him. From what I gathered about animal mates, they stayed together until one died. That was what I planned to do with Bill. No matter what, I was not going anywhere.

Bill looked stressed. I knew that he was feeling bad about what happened to me. But it wasn't his fault. It was her fault. I had no idea if she was still alive. If she was, I wanted to give her a piece of my mind.

" Bill, is she still alive?"

" Yes, she is."

" She is going to be sent to Romania."

I was shocked that she was still alive. He was sending her away. I thought that they killed anyone and everyone that hurt their mate. I was shocked that he allowed her to live. Someone must have intervened on her behalf.

" Bill, I know this is probably a question I should not be asking, but do you still love her?"

" Shawna, she was just a piece of ass to me."

That wasn't the answer I expected. How could he be cold towards her like that?

" I never loved her."

" She was just there to pass the time."

" I have several to pass the time with."

" OH."

I did not know what to say to that. I knew that everyone had hormones, and sometimes you needed to satisfy those needs. How many women has he passed time with? I knew there was a chance they would attack me out of jealousy or hurt. I am prepared for it now. I was lying in bed looking up at the ceiling when Big Dog and Rabbit came into the room. They bowed to me.

" We are sorry that we let you get hurt, Luna."

Again with the Luna thing, what did that mean? Was that a position of honor? I had no idea about the werewolf structure. I knew that they had a library here. I wish my wolf would talk to me. I have heard girls say if you're in touch with your wolf, then she talks to you. I think I'm going to stay in bed and see if I can talk to her. I lay back in bed and started talking to myself.

" Katrina, are you there?"

" Yes, Shawana."

"Talk to me, please."

" I already know what's on your mind."

She explained to me that Bill was the alpha of the pack and that I was going to be the Luna of the pack. That was a leadership position. I would have a lot of responsibilities once I went through the Luna ceremony. Which would happen when he marked me. He would bite. The place between my neck and shoulder. She then explained to me that she needed to be let out so she could get stronger. This was all very interesting to learn. She then said that she would guide me through the process and help me along the way. I believe her.

I must have fallen asleep while running through a field, and I ended up in front of a woman dressed in white. There was white glowing light around her. I stopped in my tracks.

" Who are you?"

" I'm the moon goddess."

" Why are you here?"

" I'm going to bestow upon you knowledge that you need."

She then reached out and touched my forehead. All of a sudden, visions danced in front of me. The Red Wolf clan of werewolves and what happened a long time ago. Also, they left Romania because they were being killed and exterminated. Only a handful of wolves were able to escape from Romania, my real mother and father. They were the Luna and Alpha of the pack. Then she showed me the night that I was given to my parents. My father was the leader of the motorcycle gang The Bloodhounds. Which was also a pack of werewolves. My mother was his Luna and his old lady.

They had tried to live here undercover, but my grandfather found them. He killed them. He then took over the pack. Which was not good.

" That is all for now, my child."

" I will meet with you again."

Just like that, she was gone. I have more questions now. Why did my grandfather want to take over the pack? My father wanted to live a simple life and run a motorcycle gang. Although, from what I can tell, not everything was legitimate around here. Which was exciting and scary at the same time. But that is my life now. I woke up with tears in my eyes. I wish I could have met my real parents. I honestly wished that I had been told about what happened to my real parents. But my adoptive parents were afraid that I would resent them. They were members of the Bloodhounds who had decided to get out after my grandfather took over.

They were given me and told to protect my life. That is what they have done up to now. Now it was Bill's turn to protect me. Also, I was more determined to learn how to fight now. I got out of bed and went into the bathroom. I splashed water on my face and grabbed an extra set of clothes. I then walked out of the cabin to go find Bill. I wanted to shift, then work out. Maybe in a different order: work out first, then shift. I was still determined to find Bill. I found him under a tree outside. I walked over to him.

" I want you to teach me how to fight and then shift properly."