Chapter 51: Killing his moment

"Come in," the alpha told me immediately.

I slowly enter his office holding onto the handle of my handbag nervously. I glance behind me repeatedly as I did. The alpha's eyes were glued to my butt the entire time.

I started to worry if he had noticed that I wasn't in any underwear. I worried hoping he didn't. As I got close to his desk immediately I turn around, turning my ass to his desk. The alpha gave a quick smile and remove his eyes away from me heading around his desk.

I didn't like the smile he gave me. It was a smile that says whatever you're trying to hide from me, I knew already. I turn around quickly and sat within the chair in front of his desk before he did the same. I felt so uncomfortable and naked, even though I was wearing clothes.

His eyes went straight to me as he sat comfortably within his chair. His stare felt like he was stripping me from my clothes. I felt so naked.

No, stop that, I talk to myself within my mind. It's only you thinking that way. I reminded myself.

I thought I had gained enough confidence within the bathroom while talking to myself but not wearing any underwear around him. I had lost it. I lost it all. I wanted to excuse myself right away and run to find his maid Pamela, changing my mind. Perhaps I would regain the confidence I had gathered in his bathroom.

I run my hand through my long dark brown hair. I felt nervous with him just sitting between his desk right in front of me and staring at me.

Talk to him now, tell him about your decision, I talk to myself within my mind, trying to grow confident in informing him about it now.

"You have beautiful hair," the alpha breaks the silence.

"Thank you sir," I answer him as I lower my head.

Now, tell him, it is the right time to do so, I said loudly inside.

I bite my lips nervously and raise my head ready to tell him, but before I could I paused by what the alpha had said.

"Have you made your decision yet?" he inquiries me.

I froze within my chair. I didn't want it to go this way. I wanted to tell him first about my decision before he mention it to me. I was now within a tight spot.

"Nala," the alpha calls me, eager for my answer.

"Mr. Bates," I call his name softly as I lower my head. "I agree to your decision only on one condition," I finally had the gut to tell him.

My heart begins to beat heavily within my chest as I did. It was not easy when I worried about what he will say.

"Go ahead," the alpha told me.

I remain to lower my head, staring at the floor instead of his eyes. I could control my body better that way.

"If you allow me to stay within your land."

I waited eagerly to hear what he was about to say. I heard nothing. I grew tired and raise my head to his. The alpha sits silently in his chair shirtless and still sweaty. His eyes were no longer on me it was at the left corner of his office.

"Mr. Bates," I call him.

I needed his response right now, it was killing me.

He still didn't answer nor did he look at me.

"I will work very hard in keeping a low profile and I will make sure to not allow you to see me, I promise," I told him. "Just please let me stay here, I beg you," I pleaded with tears in my eyes.

The alpha brought his eyes to me right away.

"No one will ever know about what we did as well," I again told him. "Just let me stay here, I'm happy here."

It was a lie. The last words I've said. I was not happy here, bad thing only seems to happen to me here like what was happening to me now. I just wanted to make my mom happy.

"Please Mr. Bates."

"That was not apart of my plan," he told me.

"I'll make sure that you will never see my face here," I again told him.

The alpha lower his head, trying to decide if he'll allow what I wanted.

I stared at him eagerly and crying hoping that he will.

"If I see your face too much within this town after I've had my ways with you, I promise that I will kill you," the alpha warns me as he raises his head.

My eyes widen and I stop crying instantly hearing what he had said. What he said was terrifying.

"You hear what I say?" the alpha inquires me.

My body was frozen by the death threat he gave me but I had to accept it to make my mamma happy.

I nodded and tried very hard not to burst out into tears.

The alpha got up from his chair and walked around me, leaving. I didn't turn to look at him. I just remain to sit there while the death threat he gave me haunts me.

He didn't say anything as he exit his office leaving me all alone. He just left and close the door behind him. As he did I turn around and slowly turned back around, facing his desk. A dark feeling soon swept over me. Deep down I have a feeling that he wasn't too happy about the decision he made. In his mind he just wanted to sex me off and chase me from his land, that was all. I lower my head onto his desk while drowning in my worries.

Sadly, I remain there within the same position listening to hear his footstep returning to his office. I continue to rest my head on his hard desk which felt like hours. I grew tired of waiting on him and sat up within my chair.

Where is he? I begin to think. I was afraid of going to search for him. I couldn't stand him to shout at me now and so I just remain to sit there having no choice but to wait. I waited until my feet became numb. I stood up and begin to walk around the office getting rid of the numbness.

"The alpha seems to be angry with me," I thought as I stood still.

He was all over me this morning and as soon as I told him my decision he gave me a death threat and just left without saying anything.

"Knock, knock," I heard a knock against the door. I run over to the chair believing it was the alpha. Soon I stop and turn to face the door. It was the alpha office why would he knock, I thought.

I waited for the door to open but it didn't, instead, I again heard a knock.

"Who is it?" I said curiously.

"Pamela," the alpha maid answers.

"Come in," I told her.

Pamela opens the door right away.

"Miss Nala," she calls me as she enters the office.

"Yes," I answer her softly.

"The alpha had to leave and he informs me that you should return home now."

I was so frightened by what the maid said.

"Where did he went off to?" I inquire the maid.

"I'm sorry but I can't answer that, she told me, the alpha doesn't share is where about with everyone."

"Okay," I told her.

Immediately, I grab my handbag and exit his office. Soon I was downstairs and opening the front door to leave. I was very troubled about how the alpha was acting towards me. I started to think that he truly didn't accept my change in his agreement.

I walked home slowly and sadly.

"Nala," Dr. Charles calls my name surprisingly. He was shocked to see me home so early.

"Why are you home so early?" he began to enquire me.

"The alpha had to leave early," I told him.

What I said wasn't a lie.

"Okay," he answers.

Soon, I was heading upstairs, I walk slowly and enter my room right away trying hard to avoid my mom. I could not give her my answer yet for I wasn't too sure if the alpha had agreed after the way he had acted.

I threw my handbag onto the ground and lay on my bed. I curled up under my sheet. My mind went onto the alpha wondering where he had gone and if I was the reason why.

"Why are things so difficult for me," I said softly as I cover my head with my sheet.

At that moment I couldn't wait for the next day to come to see what will happen. I needed to know if he truly did agree with my decision or decided to not accept it.

Immediately, I pull over my cover from my head hearing my door slowly open. It was my mom.

"Are you okay?" she inquires me as he enters the room.

"Mom, I'm tired can I talk to you later," I told her.

She nodded and exit my room right away. I was happy she did I was not in any mood to talk to her. As she did I return under my sheet and closed my eyes sadly.

Why are you making things even more complicated for me, Mr. Bates, I thought melancholy. I close my eyes and remain to stay under the sheet. I felt safe there, it felt like I was in my own small world away from everyone who upsets me.