Chapter 52: I need to see the alpha

I've been so wrapped up within the sheet as if it was my own small world away from everyone, I didn't realize that I was fast asleep, that is it until I felt my mom shaking my body wakening me up.

My eyes open and I slowly removed the sheet from my head. I pull it down to my neck holding it tightly to my body.

"Nala," my mom calls me worried as she sat beside me. "You've been sleeping all day that its now dark outside."

I sat up immediately hearing what she had said and look towards my bedroom window to see if it was true. I was disappointed that I couldn't see outside nor did the curtain allow me to see the moonlight.

"You've must be hungry," I felt my mom's hand against my head deeply worried by me

My head turns away from the window and back to her.

"I am," I answer her softly.

I truly was. I skip breakfast because I was nervous about approaching the alpha with my change of his agreement. I too missed out on lunch. I was starving.

"I'm going to allow Dr. Charles to prepare your dinner now," my mom said as she quickly moves away from me exiting my room.

As she did, I drop back onto the bed, lazily.

The conversation between the alpha and I had seem to take the energy out of me putting me into a deep sleep.

My mom had returned with my dinner. She places down the small square silver tray onto the bed. The tray was covered in a small bowl of white rice with stew chicken and steam vegetables along with a bottle of grape juice beside it. I sat up immediately and reach for the bowl placing it into my lap onto my white sheet. I begin to eat hungrily.

"Today seems to be a hard day for you," my mom said as she watches me eat.

I slowed down in eating and nodded sadly. I felt my hunger slowly disappear at that moment. My mom reminded me of today took it all away. I return my fork into the bowl that was covered with rice and stew chicken, I no longer felt hungry.

I reach for the juice and slowly sip it. I place down the bottle.

"Aren't you going to eat more of the food?" my mom asks me worriedly.

I shook my head. "I don't want anymore," I told her.

My mom looks at me sadly.

"I am find ma.., no need to worry about me," I told her as I gave her my bowl of food and laid down flat on my back. My eyes were fixed on my mom seeing her still staring at me, worried as always.

"I have along day tomorrow mom, I'm going to try and get some rest again," I told her.

I was clueless of what tomorrow might be, only the moon goddess knew. I just wanted to be alone now.

My mom nodded and slowly got up from my bed with the meal, my unfinished meal. Soon she paused standing still beside me.

"Have you made your decision yet?" she inquires me.

I could feel deep inside me the moment she has entered my room that she was eagerly waiting on the right time to ask me my decision about us staying here.

"Mom, I can't tell you until tomorrow," I told her, "But I will let you know tomorrow, I promise."

My mom nodded and exit my room.

A bad feeling suddenly runs through my body by the last two words, I told her. I roll over to my belly instantly and press my head to my soft fluffy pillow as if I was going to suffocate myself.

"How can you be so stupid?" I question myself while I made my right hand into a fist and struck hard to the thick mattress. I rolled over onto my back and exhale heavily being able to breathe freely and too angry at myself. I hated that I had made a promise to my mom when I was unsure of what tomorrow maybe.

I begin to stare at the ceiling. I was now eager for tomorrow to come that I wish I could just shut my eyes for a second and open them seeing that it was a new day already. Sadly, it was never going to be that way. I had to wait and it was killing me. I close my eyes trying to force myself to sleep. Being up and watching for the day to come was quite stressful. It will be much better if I fall asleep. I tried but each time I end up opening my eyes. I couldn't fall asleep. I wasn't sleepy.

For the entire night, I try sleeping I couldn't. Angrily I got out of my bed and went over to my window. I parted the window and saw that the place was starting to lose its darkness. Being in the forest for years I knew when it was about to be daytime. I was happy but sad that I didn't sleep the entire night. My body felt heavy and tired of staying up the entire night. I ignored it. I was elated that it was morning, a new day, and that I could get to go to work in knowing if Mr. Bates truly agreed with me. I run into the bathroom and strip myself from the clothes that I was in from yesterday. As I did I took off my bra and threw it onto the floor as well. I didn't need to take off my underwear since I was in any from yesterday. I got a quick cool shower and got out of the bathroom after I've brushed my teeth, wrapped in a towel.

I dry my body quickly throwing away the towel and begin to search for working clothes. It was indeed too early to do so but I was eager for the day to start that I could get to the alpha's home right away. I found a working black pair of work pants and a light brown blouse.

"That will do," I said as I begin to put on my underwear and my bra, and soon I was in my working pant. My working clothes fit my body wonderfully.

I start on my hair brushing it into a ponytail since I had much more time than yesterday. I soon was all through getting ready for work. I look in my mirror seeing that I looked great. I went for flat pair of black shoes. I wasn't interested in wearing any heels. I grab my handbag and place spare pair of underwear in it. What happened yesterday I was well prepared for it now.

Seeing I was well prepared and all ready for work I went to my window and again peeked out. I smiled seeing that the day was all cleared up. A thought suddenly came to mind if I should leave early for work today. I wanted to, waiting to meet the alpha was killing me and so I decided to go. I open the door and begin on my way heading downstairs.

I open the front door leaving.

"Nala," Dr. Charles stops me.

I turn to look at him and saw him coming from the kitchen.

"It's 7am it's too early for work," he told me.

"I know, I have to get to work early today, "I lie to him.

He nodded.

"Please tell mom for me," I told him as I open the door and went off.

I felt so good knowing that I was heading to the alpha's home now. My wait was soon to be over in meeting him. I put speed on my walking and soon I was almost near his home. I meet upon the alpha's maid, Pamela.

"Miss Nala," she calls me as she sees me.

"Ms. Pamela," I called her back.

I stop.

"Aren't you working today?" I inquire her.

"Yes Miss Nala," she answers me politely. "Since the alpha hasn't return home from lastnight and he's still not there I decided to run home for something I badly needed."

Hearing what she had said I was so shocked. I was about to ask her where the alpha was but then I remember from yesterday that she didn't know where he was. I soon begin to worry about him if he was alright.

"Does he normally does things like this?" I inquire Pamela.

"Yes, whenever something serious is occuring with his pack," Pamela answers.

My worried grew hoping that whatever was happening he had it all under control. He was a powerful alpha anyways. I knew he will handle well what is happening now. A wonderful feeling begins to fill me knowing that Mr. Bates's disappearance from yesterday didn't have anything to do with me. I was happy that I wanted to just return home and get into my bed. I was even happier knowing that the promise to my mom wasn't a disappointment to me now. I could run home and tell her yes, we could stay here knowing the thought I had of the alpha having an issue with my change in his agreement wasn't any problem. I was the foolish one thinking so.

"Okay," I answer softly. "Since no one will be there I might as well return home since it's early anyways," I told Pamela.

"No, " she stops me. "I'm happy to see you I can give you the key and if the alpha returns before me you can please inform him I had to leave because I had to return home for something."

"No, I can't," I told her right away. It didn't feel right having the alpha key and being in his home all alone.

"Please....," Pamela begs me. "I too need to give my daughter something since she's not working anymore and she desperately needs it now."

"Okay," I answer her while I detested how big of a heart I was. Being kind one day will surely kill me.

Pamela gave me the key and rushes off. I held the key in my hand and watches her as she did, soon I was on my way again to the alpha home. I arrived and stopped at the front door wondering if I should just wait outside until he comes, for it was much better that way. As much as I thought it was a great idea in avoiding any trouble. I found myself opening the door and heading inside. I close the door and ended upstairs to his office. His office was closed. It seems Pamela had closed it from yesterday as I left. I went back downstairs and headed into his living room to wait. I sat there for some time until a beautiful view captured my eyes allowing me to have no choice but to get up. His living room had a door that leads to a path at the back of his house. It was beautiful. It is a place where you would just sit and look while you enjoy your breakfast. I sat there enjoying the beautiful view of the large field and trees.

My body suddenly jumps hearing the door open and close. I got up immediately and return to the living room heading to the hall. I didn't see anyone.

Is the alpha here? I thought.

I soon heard a sound of a man and a woman talking. It sounded like they were arguing. Who are they? I again thought curiously as I follow the sound. The sound leads straight into the kitchen. My eyes widen seeing the alpha's Luna with a bottle of water in her hand and before her, I saw the bitch who killed dad.

"You have one thing to do and that is pretend that you're my son loyal mate and you are ruining it," former alpha Eric complains to Luna Talia.