Chapter 267
Jason
I can’t believe everything was happening so fast, one moment I thought I was going to have to step in between Karen and Nicol and the next we are in the hospital and Kayla doesn’t want to let go of me, I’m busy getting dressed, I must have looked very confused and overwhelmed because Nicol’s friend JP touched my shoulder and said, “You’ll be okay just stay at her head and do what ever the doctors tell you to do.” “Thanks JP.” A nurse called me and I was in the operation room with Kayla. “There is no time for an epidural Kayla I’m going to give you normal anesthesia you will be a sleep for the whole birth.” Kayla started to cry “It’s okay Kayla I’ll be right here I promise I won’t go anywhere.” “I’m not ready yet Jason. I haven’t made any arrangements for her; I only have the stuff you bought her.” “It’s okay we will get everything don’t worry about anything now okay.” The doctor put a drip in her hand and said “Count down.” Before she started, she said “Look after my baby for me please Jason.” Then she was out.
It's amazing how quickly things happen when you are finally asleep. I was still standing at her head while the doctor was cutting her open and took the baby out, I was so thankful there was a screen and I didn’t see that, I don’t know if I was strong enough as a person to see how they cut someone open. The baby was out but she wasn’t crying and I knew from many many movies babies is suppose to cry when they are born. “Is there something wrong?” I asked the doctors but no one answered me, Iook over to where they had the baby and it looked like they were doing CPR. “Please someone tell me is something wrong with the baby?” I was just about to go bat shit crazy when she started to cry. “No, she’s fine.” “But……” I wanted to ask why did it take so long for her to start to breath but then I heard people around me calling for this and that and the one doctor said she’s losing a lot of blood and then the sound that will haunt me for the rest of my life went through the operation room the sound of Kayla flat lining. You hear that sound in movies and you know it’s the end it’s the end of that person’s life, but it can’t be the end for Kayla it just can’t be our life is only getting started. A nurse grabs me and took me out of the theater. “Let them work on her.” “Is she dead?” I asked shocked and confused because I’m very sure I heard the machine make one sound and that was beeeeeeeeeep. “They will do everything they can to get her back.” That’s when I realized I should worry about the baby she ask me to look after the baby. One thing at a time Jason. I said to myself “And the baby.” “They are taking her to the nursery you can go with them; I’ll come and call you when I have news.” “Thank you.” I said but I was so confused I didn’t know which way to go, should I go to the baby? Should I stay here and wait for news? Or should I go outside and give them the news? But then again what will I tell them? The baby is fine but I don’t know about Kayla?
I decided to rather go to her baby girl and make sure she’s okay. A nurse checked my bracelet the hospital gave me and took me straight to the baby girl. “Does she have a name yet?” the nurse ask. “No, her mom didn’t choose one yet.” And then it hit me Kayla might never chose a name for her and who would look after this beautiful girl if Kayla dies, I mean Kayla hasn’t spoken about her family or the father of the baby, I have no clue. Tears where streaming down my face as the nurse gave me little Kayla that is what I’m calling her until Kayla gives her a name. “Hi sweet girl.” I said as she opened her eyes. “Go sit down there.” The nurse pointed to a chair. I sat down and touched little Kayla’s little hand looking at her little fingers and her small feet and her toes, it’s weird that people count the babies’ fingers and toes, but that is exactly what I did when I had her in my arms. “You are just perfect.” I said to her touching her little nose. It looked like she wanted to cry so I got up and rocked her, I’m sure if my grandma was still alive, she will tell me I’m spoiling the baby by rocking her but I will rock her all day long to keep her from crying.
I lost track of time while I’ve been with little Kayla I went looking for the nurse to find out what’s going on with Kayla and why no one has come to me yet. “I really don’t know Sir.” She said. I gave her Little Kayla and basically run to the operation room; there was no sound coming out of it I was on the point of walking into the operation room when a nurse stopped me. “Oh, there you are.” She said like I fucking left the hospital. “I was with the baby the whole time.” “Oh, Kayla is in recovery.” She said it like Kayla didn’t flat line on the fucking table. Just she’s in recovery, if I was Nicolas, I would have thrown such a scene but I’m not so all I said was “Why didn’t you come and told me sooner.” “It’s not like we could have allowed you near her, but you can go in now.” She walked in front of me and took me to Kayla that was still sleeping. I grab a chair and sat next to her holding her hand. I don’t know how long I sat there when I realized I needed to go outside and tell the others; Kayla and the baby is okay.