Chapter 39: Back Home

POV: Haven

I feel myself being carried. I open my eyes. I'm being carried by Luke. The sun is up now. "Morning." He says. I groan. He takes me to the kitchen. Dad is there waiting for me with a cup of coffee. I gladly take it. I'm set down on one of the stools at the island.

"Good morning sweetheart. How are you feeling?" Mom asks gently. "Mom!" I hug her tightly. "Oh good breakfast I'm starving." Penny says.

"Hey Penny." I greet her. I wonder how she is. It was Caroline who did this. It must me tearing her up inside. "Good morning Haven. I'm glad to see your still ok with me right?" She looks upset an worried.

"Oh course you're still my friend. It wasn't like you told Caroline line to do it or helped her." I tell her. "No I didn't. I just hate that I didn't see this in her before. I should have known."

"No one could have possibly known. It's not your fault." I tell her. After seeing Raphael last night for the last time. I feel like I'm going to be ok.

I'm still sad and grieving but I think I'm going to be ok. "How did you sleep?" Mom asks. "Great. Selene let me talk to Raphael." I tell them.

"She did? What did he say?" Luke asks shocked. "We said our goodbyes and he gave me a message to tell Jax. Thats if he will talk to me. Raphael also said to stick close to Jax too." I tell them.

"You seem to be doing great. It must of helped to see him." Penny comments. "Yeah. I feel like I had this closure thing and that I'm going to be just fine. I'm still upset but I will be ok."

"Maybe the goddess helped that along." Luke suggests. "Can you see if Jax will talk to me so I can tell him what they want him to know please?" I ask Luke.

"I will try." Luke says. We all eat breakfast. After breakfast Luke goes to talk to Jax. Dad shows me to my room.

I hear crying down the hall. It sounds like a babies cry. I guess its someone's fuss baby. I'm sure they will tend to it.

Ten minutes later and the crying is still going so I venture off to find it. I enter into a nursery. There in the crib Lays a beautiful blue eyes baby. I wonder who is his parents. I pick him up I notice he has a dirty diaper so I change it. He's still a little fussy so I figure he's hungry.

I look around for formula in the room. I find it in a diaper bag with a clean bottle. I fix it up and sit in the rocking chair and feed him. He latches immediately suckling hungrily. "Is that what was wrong that poor little baby was hungry. Yes he was." I coo at him. I love babies.

"Who do you belong to?" I coo at him asking. I know he won't answer me. I hear a throat being cleared and look up only for the person to look down.

"Jax?" I say. "Yeah uh thanks for taking care of Cameron but I can take it from here." He says.

"No thats ok. So this is him? Jax he's beautiful. I don't mind staying with him while you work." I tell him.

"Haven please just leave now." He says a little harshly and begging like. "No. I have a message for you I'm to deliver." I say stubbornly. I stay in the rocking chair feeding Cameron. I won't move.

Jax growl causing Cameron to cry. I glare at him. "Shh. Shh. Hush. Its ok did dat scare you. I know your daddy's being mean to me." I coo at Cameron coaxing him to stop crying.

"Haven get out!" He yells. "Fine!" I take Cameron and walk out the room. "Stop give me my baby." He demands. "Not until you calm down."

"Haven put the baby down and get out. Do not come anywhere near me again. I never want to see you again."

Did he just? I place Cameron down in his crib and run to my room. What did I do? I was just trying to help. He wouldn't even look at me. I shouldn't be here. I should just leave since he doesn't want me here. He clearly hates me.

I stay in my room all day in fear of running into Jax. I can't believe that my best friend hates me now.

I only came out to eat and that was it. I feel like a stranger here now. I used to just barge right on in but I feel like a burden now. This doesn't feel like the home I once knew.

I guess this will be the one message I don't deliver. Jax will not hear me out. I will stick to my letter I wrote him and not ever contact him again. I won't look at him. If he walks in the room then I will leave. I will give him what he wants. I won't even go to Cameron. I will avoid him at all cost and everything around him. If his family walks in I will leave to. They probably hate me too because Jax has told them whatever and now I'm suddenly a horrible person to him that he wants nothing to do with.