Chapter 59: 059

For the  longest that I could remember  ,  my heart was still aching from all that had just happened over the past few days .

I didn’t want to say that  I was mad or anything , but damn , how could it be that crazy .

It was just some  few months away that it all happened and if a fact , it still felt like a ducking dream for me .

I could see mom protruding.  stomach   but  I also wondered if it was the best thing that could happen .

On  second thought , I know that it was the best decision that he made .

There was no way possible that he was going to keep on fucking me after  getting my mom pregnant , that wasn’t something that I was going to support no matter what it was .

I knew how much I was hurt and mad at the same time , I knew that I shouldn’t have gotten involved   with him in the first place , but now that I am in this situation what can I do , there’s absolutely nothing that could be done .

Never had I felt that lonely my entire life .

I wanted someone that  I could talk to , but there was no one for me to talk to  and it was making me hurt and mad at  myself .

For a whine I felt like  I did the best thing by letting it go .

I think it was best that my mom never found out what , my step dad and I had together , that was definitely   The best thing that I would think of .

My step dad sleeping with me was the worst thing that anyone could hear at this point. It's a good thing that I have ended this relationship at this moment .

My step dad wasn’t giving me that attention and care anymore , I didn’t know if it was because  of what was happening .

I didn’t know how much I loved this man , but on second thought I knew that it was the best decision that I could ever make .

My phone ringing brought me out of my thoughts , and when I turned , I saw that it was  angel calling .

On second thought , I didn’t know if I should lock the call or not , because I was just about what she did , but after giving it a good thought  , I knew that it would hurt if I picked up .

I picked up the phone and put it on my ear waiting for her to say the first words , not knowing what I was going to say to her .

“ my goodness baby , tell me you are no longer mad at me . Is that the reaons why you picked up , the fuck girl , I know that I messed this up  , but I missed you so much , much more than you can ever imagine , I love you so much , I didn’t just want to  mess up my past friendships but right now I have cone to realize that you are one of the best  things that had ever happened to me , I am so sorry for hurting you please forgive me “

I  listened to all that she was saying without knowing what to say to her , I had so much in my mind , that I really want to talk about but I just couldn’t bring myself to say it all out and I was no longer hurting that bad , but I knew that instead of letting Elsa back into my life , I would better let her into my life .

“ I forgive you baby , maybe , I shouldn’t have taken things  that seriously , but it’s a good thing that you are no longer mad at me , I know that I deserve all the hatred but I still love you and I am willing to start this on a right past and do things right again .”

I could  literally hear Angel sniffing at the other end , I didn’t know if I was hearing wrongly but I knew that she was crying .

I knew how hurt I was when I found out about it , but I knew that I couldn’t cut her off because of what had just happened. I loved her too much to let her go just like that .

The fact that she still kept calling  and was making it look like if I didn’t she wasn’t going to  let go  made me see how much I meant to her and I knew that it was best that I didn’t need this uo .

“ well since it’s just a week to resume  ,  I think that I would be coming earlier to spend some time with you and then make up for all the times that I had wasted and I am so sorry for everything .

“ let’s talk later babe “ I told  her  and  ended    up   immediately .

I let out a deep breath the moment the call ended , I had never felt so relieved  the way   I was feeling right now .

I knew that I was still mad at Angel for what she did but I knew that with tine , I was definitely  going to  get over it , after all she had made it clear that she was worth more .

I knew how much I love her and value her , I just wanted to get out of this house .

I didn’t know if this was another kind of hatred but it wasn’t something that I didn’t want to get myself involved with no matter  what it was .

Making peace with my friend was the best thing that I could do at this moment. It was a good decision and one of the best .