Chapter 394: 1-7

Bumblebee. Closing my journal I wrapped my arms around myself, rocking back and forth until I calmed, the hole in my chest taking my breath away as all the memories hit me back to back. Seeing things again, with new eyes, only seemed to bring more hurt. I glanced at the notebook, wanting to rip the words I just wrote into a million pieces, feeling ashamed for everything I wrote. I was having a debate, I wanted to give it to daddy at some point, but what I just wrote, I as torn amongst wanting him to know and knowing that I would just be putting one more wall between us. ________________________ 1. I really like that you have those Q&A things in some chapters, they clear things up sometimes and I like we get to know your view on things. A few people mentioned that I sometimes don't answer their questions so doing it this way... it just seems like the easiest thing to do ... also because if someone else thinks the same or has the same question I just answer it once. 2. I can't wait till they go back home and get rid of the elders I think the world (I know its not real but still) would be a better place for it. You're telling me? lol I know what's going to happen and I CAN'T WAIT to share that with all of you. 3. Ben is like the ideal boy next door, I'm just so glad that he is helping Kayla, same goes for Oakley and Keiran, as much as cliché like as it sounds we human beings feed off contact and when we need it most is when we seem to never receive it but these characters as individuals are trying their best to be there for each other. Yes, he is, but he's had experience with Oakley and he's young... he isn't some jerk that is older and insensitive to how she may feel... NOT that I'm saying someone older wouldn't be like this, but with Ben, it's easy to write about him and Kayla. It's a healing type friendship and in reality he isn't doing much, but it's more than she's use too and then there's his motives. 4. It would be too much for Kayla to sleep with Ben/Saxon every night, but having something with his scent on it might help. Yeah... I'm not going to make her co-dependent on him... I read a book where the girl could only sleep when she was with this one kid, otherwise she was up screaming bloodly murder. And what's worse is that IN THE BOOK, it NEVER gets resolved. The guy gets home one time and he apologizes for being stuck in traffic and not making it home in time so that she doesn't have a nightmare. I completely understand finding someone that gives you peace, but in that book it was just taken a step further, it went from being a jumping off point to healing to just being entirely pathetic, I mean she never seeks out ANY sort of help. The only help she says she wants is his arms... the only thing I could think was that I pray this man never loses his arms, because... well... poor girl. I mean, sometimes you have nightmares for years and years after a traumatic event, I get that. But still... 5. Do you think Kiarran will learn about Rainy and Kayla history and connect with them? I think it would be nice to know he's not alone and other people went through it also. Yes eventually everyone is going to mesh together... I know some are panicking because of how many pages this book is already but don't let them fool you, I plan to not rush and everything will come full circle. 6. Does Oakley have an element? So basically anyone that has a gift, it has to be made from the base elements (Fire, Air, Water, Earth) but I will go into more details later :) 7. I am so happy with Kayla's progress. Ben is good for her. Hopefully, her other siblings will venture out too. the only thing that was keeping them inside is their eyesight, not getting too much sun since they've spen their whole lives down in the basement. With Kayla it was different because she shifted. 8. I think Chris is a couple more sleepless night away from a well earned melt down. Yes, that man is. 9. That is so funny. I want that on a t-shirt. 'Some people are just permanently stuck on stupid'. I'd want one with an arrow so that the person I'm talking about is pointed out... 10. So much I would like to say to this "parent"!!!!!! I am looking forward to his POV, it will either make me understand him and his decisions, or make me despise him even more.... Thank you :) I've been dropping clues about Pat POV and what he has to say and the whole issue... I'm fairly certain that it's going to be half and half when people read his. 11. This chapter was great. I felt so happy after reading it. That's one of the many reasons I like reading your stories. Even though you write about tough and emotional topics I always come away with hope for the main characters. There maybe tough things to read about but there are also heartwarming and touching moments like in this chapter with Kayla and Chris. Thanks! well THANK YOU! I know that it has its depressing moments but someone said that I balance them nicely to quote a commentor "I love how stories go from serious to lovey dovey and then back to serious. Im preparing myself for the serious part!" 12. I think you need to stop Cris pov,he is not important in this story,C ris already have his own story in The Forgotten Mate, more Chelsea ,Oakley ,Gabriel and the other pov please. hmm... I'm not sure but i have people that are like WOlf POV isn't important and Chris isn't important... YES THEY ARE. Where I left Rainy and Chris off... I CAN'T just stop there, they NEED to be mentioned to show their progress... I left them off in HFM as just parents... in this book I WILL be showing how they develop in other aspects of their relationship... Another reason I use Chris is because Kaylas mind is so child like I don't often like to use her POV unelss I HAVE TOO, so instead if use an adult around her. WOlf POV is important because he is the one that has a lot of the information that Chelsea needs since chapter 55 of Unconditional I've been saying that. 13. Where in the world am I located or updating from? I live in the U.S. 14. Why did I make Chelsea give Hunter his own pain back instead of their mate feeling it? When I started writing this book, I had plans for her to do that since Unexpected... 15. Kayla going to the sleepover wasn't as big as a deal as I made it out to be, plus it's weird that Ben is a boy and she's a girl and they had a sleep over. It's weird that Kieran was the only boy with the three girls as well, {Sent privately}. I feel like the person who sent this privately did so because of the heat that readers alone would've given them lol. First off... Lucy attending... was a way to give Kayla support... this is fiction, but Chris was reluctant because Kayla has terrors so Lucy volunteered to go. AS for the Kieran part, Tera is his sister, and Oakley is his friend, he doesn't have anyone else, they invited him, he went. It's the same thing with Kayla, I'm not trying to make it weird, but they feel comfortable with these people, now, I hope to use this as a getway to branch out for them. Both are untrusting of others, but for them to branch out, they need to experience things they didn't get. Its like what Rainy said to Chris, she didn't get that experience, but in some way, she's happy her daughter is getting those experiences. She could be jealous and angry inside and take that out on her kid, try to make Kayla pay for what happened but she isn't doing that. And lastly, it was a fictional sleepover not an orgy_, calm down lol.