Chapter 11: My turn

Jelena:

My body shudders as pleasure courses through me. Nothing has ever been this good. Running my fingers through Traeger’s silky hair as he lays his head on my stomach, I close my eyes and take a few deep breaths. After a moment, I rise up and look into his beautiful gray eyes, kiss his beautiful lips, and whisper. “It’s my turn now.” Traeger’s eyes sharpen with desire as I push him onto his back and straddle his waist. Traeger stretches his beautiful body across my bed and groans when I run my hands across his carved chest and pull at his shirt. “Take it off,” I whisper. Traeger reaches behind his head to remove his t-shirt, exposing his chiseled abs to my hungry eyes. Leaning down, I kiss his collarbone and work my way down to his nipples and abs. My hands wander his body, memorizing every curve and muscle until I finally reach the top of his jeans. Traeger releases a ragged breath when I rub the bulge between his legs and grind my hips against his. His chest rises and falls unevenly as I carefully unbutton his jeans and lower the zipper.

Reaching down, I slide my fingers into the waist of his jeans and release his hard cock. He’s definitely very well-formed. Wrapping my hands around his penis, I tighten my hand up and down his shaft, then lean my head down, lick the mushroom head and suck him into the warm cavern of my mouth. Traeger’s body bows with pleasure when I lick his shaft like a lollipop. His head tilts back, and an animalistic growl escapes his lips with every pull of my mouth. His hand clings to my hair tightly. He seems almost unsure yet delighted at what I am doing to him. His hips rise and fall uncontrollably with my suctioning moves. A groan escapes his lips, followed by another husky growl. I’m not just thinking about how much pleasure I’m giving him. Melting down his cock, I deep throat him and swirl my tongue around the swollen head.

My moves seem to excite him more because he hardens further. Suddenly, his muscles stiffen, and he cries out in ecstasy. “Jelena!” He’s nearly perfect in his release. Once his body is spent, I rest my head on his shoulder and inhale his masculine scent. Chest heaving, Traeger wraps his arms around my back and rests his hand under my chin to face him. Looking up, I give him an impish smile and huskily whisper. “Did you like that?” Traeger gives me a crooked grin and places a kiss on my lips. “It was amazing. You’re amazing.”

A shiver crawls through my body as our naked chests touch. Traeger places his hand around my waist and pulls me close to kiss me passionately. We lie together for a while shutting out the world. Content to simply hold each other. Traeger really opens up to me. He tells me about his life in the Institute, his pack brothers, and his training. I’m shocked to find that Traeger is more than just a soldier. He can hack into any computer system in the world, he can speak sixteen languages and has been educated in every way except for the sexual arts. From what I can glean from his situation, the Institute does not want them to meet women or know about sex. I wonder why?

It surprises me to find that he’s twenty-two. I guess his innocence makes him somehow feel younger. As we lie in bed, I think about how deeply he makes me feel. I had never fallen so far and so hard for anyone, which scares me a little. I know that I’m in love with him, and I think he’s in love with me too, but I’m not sure. At some point during the night, Traeger rises from the bed and begins to dress. Rising from the bed, I wrap my arms around his neck and kiss his chin. He looks grim when he leans down and places a distracted kiss on my lips. Pulling him closer, I deepen the kiss and run my hands up and down his chest. My nipples instantly hardened at the contact, and my body heats with desires. “I don’t want you to go, Traeger.” Brow furrowed, he tilts his head sideways and whispers. “I don’t want to go either, but I have to. If the Institute ever found out about this, they would kill you and me.” Mouth tight, Traeger tightens his hands around my hair and pulls me closer. “I can’t lose you now that I have found you. I need to keep you safe. Do you understand?” I nod my head at his vehemence. “I understand, Traeger. I don’t want to lose you either. I…I think I love you, Traeger.”

Traeger pulls away from my arms with a questioning frown. “What does it mean… love?” It amazes me how such an educated individual can be so ignorant about feelings. But then again, considering he’s never seen a woman, it’s not unexpected. Giving him a gentle smile, I lean my head on his chest and exhale. “Love is…Love is when every part of you wants someone. You want to feel them, to want to be around them, and keep them safe at the risk of your own life. It’s the feeling that you’re going to die if they’re not with you.” He tilts his head sideways, absorbing my words. “If that is love, then I know that I love you too.” I smile, feeling happiness creep into my soul, because I know he's sincere in his confession.

Pushing my hair behind my back, I watch as Traeger reaches for his black t-shirt and slips it on. Once he’s done, he pulls my naked body against his. My body shudders with the contact of his body against mine. He’s so gorgeous and strong that I have no defenses against him. Pulling his head back up to mine, I refuse to let him go. Somehow, Traeger manages to disentangle my arm from his and gives me one final kiss before he releases me from his tight embrace. “Meet me by the lagoon later in the afternoon.” He mutters in demand. Nodding my head, I watch as he walks to the balcony and gracefully jumps to the ground. Astonished by his easy exit, I run to the window and observe his stealthy retreat. Like a shadow, he strides towards the trees and gives me one last look before he disappears.