Chapter 23: Violet's P.o.v .... 24

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We drank our coffee’s or in my case tea and talked, well Elijah talked i listened, his reputation of being a ruthless asshole seemed to be a complete contrast to the man i was sitting next too as he talked about his closet friends and siblings.

His father sounded like a real piece of work, i don’t know if i would have just stopped with the dad i think i would have added his brother for offering up his sister to a maniac like that. The more he talked the more comfortable i became, yes i know that’s the general idea, but i didn’t expect it to be happening so quickly, but again i know that would be the wolf thing. So as i rustled up something for us to have for dinner Elijah did some work on his laptop which Jacob and bought over with him earlier today.

"i don't know anything about pack law" i reminded her

" you know everything you need too, it's all in you and will filtered through when it's required by you"

"you kow you talk in riddles some times nd i don't have a scooby doo ehat the hell you are saying half the time" all silver did was giggle at me like i was the stupid one.

i went into the litchen and decided to make soemfresh bakes for Elijah and the village store, i made some sourdough bread rolls and some regular loves and another couple of batches of muffins apple and cinnamon, lemon and poppyseed, i made some raspberry and white chocolate, white chocolate and macadamia nut cookies, i also made some lentil sausage rolls along with thr regualr kind

Dinner was quick and simple roasted vegetables mixed up with couscous and roasted harissa chicken, i hadn’t asked him how heavy on the chilli when i cooked it which i probably should have it was only when placing it on the table was when the question popped into my head, making me chastise myself for being a terrible wife. We cleared the supper things away and watched a little television and the news something i did try to do at least once a week, i wasn’t a news type of person as i found it too depressing these days, so once a week was my own personal quota. It surprised me how normal these unfamiliar movements were becoming integral to my story, i watched him as he took a call from Jacob. It was plain as day why he was Alpha power radiating from him in waves, it was strange because it felt like those waves softened as they touched my skin. I decided to leave him to his call and take a shower, wash off the day as they say.what i didn’t expect was the pain i felt the further away from Elijah i went, it was like someone had a fist around my heart and were squeezing it tight, by the time i reached the bathroom i could hardly breath due to the pain.

‘it’s the bond’ silver was back but making no sense sometimes i wish she was in front of me for these conversations and not just an imagine in my head.

‘bond?’ i questioned

‘it’s because you haven’t excepted him yet’ she was back to fucking riddles, what did that even mean?

‘excepted, he’s here isn’t he?’ i snapped back

‘you haven’t bonded with him’ she actually sounded exasperated with me, like i was the idiot in the great ball of fuck up.

‘what wolves meet and fuck straight away do they?’ i fired back as another roll of pain ripped through my body

‘no Violet, don’t be so naive or crude, it doesn’t become you’ i mean what the fuck i was being reprimanded by a fucking dog.

‘what the hell does that mean?’ i asked breathlessly now as the pain began to subside a little, nausea now deciding to set in.

‘it means you have to acknowledge him as yours, otherwise this what you’re feeling is only the tip of the ice-burg it will become more and more intense the longer you resist’ there was no comfort in those words, in fact i found them more alarming than anything. The pain was back in my chest it felt stronger now, gasping for air i was having a panic attack full on now, i wasn’t ready for sex yet, it was way too soon for me. I was in a heap on the bathroom floor when Elijah came tanking through the door to me, i crouched down beside me and placed his hand on my shoulder, the minute did that the pain left my body, i hadn’t realized i had been shaking and sweating with the pain until Elijah gave me a flannel to wipe my face

‘i am sorry Violet’ he voice was filled with pain

‘did you know this would happen?’ i asked him my voice filled with the anxiety i felt a few moments earlier

‘eventually yes, but not this soon, i wanted time for us to grow and develop together first’ his voice now filled with sorrow and maybe a little guilt

‘what does it mean now’ i asked not wanting to know the answer, but needing to know regardless

‘we need to bond’ i came out more of a squeak then coherent words, he didn’t speak at first just looked me deep in the eyes, i think he was trying to way up how i was going to handle whatever was about

to come.

‘yes’ at least he was truthful

‘sex?’ i asked him this time sounding more like me, than i did previously

‘yes’ no hesitation, just pure fact, something i have to admit i found respectful and refreshing in all honesty

‘can i just say i except you, will that work?’ i asked softly already knowing the answer

‘it may hold the pain back for a short time, but it will not stop it entirely, the goddess wants us to bond and quickly it seems’. Gee mother was sticking her ore into my life after abandoning me from birth ‘yay me’ whirled around my head making silver growl at me, which in turned made me jump again.... Damn dog.

‘how long until it becomes unbearable’ i asked him, i was going to take all the time i could get. One because i was defiant and didn’t want to jump just because my mother said jump and two i was shit scared of having sex with this man, i don’t know why at all. Women flocked to have a piece of this man, even i found him attractive, he made me feel incredible when he had touched me previously, yes i am aware that there are some who would blow with the wind and go with the flow, but i was not one of those people.

‘i can’t’ i spoke quietly