Chapter 19: Violet's p.o.v...21
for our wedding night, until that bastard took it away from us, then me taking it away from him because i felt like soiled goods. That was the only regret i had now, that i treated Nathaniel so badly when all he wanted to do was love me.
That’s why part of me remained single because of what i did to him.
‘Violet’ he lifted my chin to look at me ‘what are you thinking, don’t say nothing you’re scent has changed’
‘i don’t know what to say’ it was the truth i didn’t men didn’t want to talk about past lovers ‘tell me, there is nothing you can do that will shatter what i feel for you’
‘there has only ever been one man in my life who i loved Nathaniel we met in college, he was full of life a little like Laura the complete opposite to me, but we hit it off and he wouldn’t take no for an answer, he is the only man i had wanted to be with, we decided to wait to make love both of us wanting it to be on our wedding night until that monster took it away from us, until then we had kissed and played around but’
‘Violet i know about Nathaniel, Laura mentioned him and the reason why you pushed him away, not realising he would do such a thing because of it’
‘i killed him Elijah, that is another reason why i have never search out love, because i had it an unconditional love and i threw it away so carelessly’
‘there was nothing careless about it, you thought he deserved better after what had happened to you, knowing that he wanted that special bond you could no longer give him’ i was surprised he got it Laura never did, she thought it was all about what i had endured for most part it was.
His lips touched mine softly like butterfly wings, my eyes flew open in total surprise, he didn’t fault-er his tongue running the seam of my lips making me open my mouth for him, which he eagerly took, i hesitantly returned his kiss it had been such a long time i felt so nervous, i know it was just a kiss but it didn’t change the fact i felt nervous. He pulled me closer to him and i could feel his erection hard as nails between us. Part of me wanted to brush my hand across it to see what happened but this me wasn’t that bold. I wrapped my arms around his neck and let myself get lost in his kisses, he pulled away trailing kisses down my neck along the scar at my throat the ease i felt shattered, but he didn’t stop kissing it returning his kiss to my mouth this time he was a bit more demanding of our kiss like there was something to prove, not to him i sensed for me more.
He pulled back slightly and spoke with his lips still on mine ‘you are beautiful Violet and i will show you how much, stop me when or if you need to ok’ i couldn’t speak i was at a loss for words. His kiss trailing along the scar at my throat again, up the side of my neck and my ear making me giggle when he was there, i felt him smile against my skin, his kiss noe travelling along my shoulders his hand slipping under my pyjama shirt along my ribs his thumb brushed under the curve of my breast making me gasp in surprise, he stilled for a moment before said hand cupped my breast and thumb began to rub across my nipple. He rolled me onto my back so he could watch what my reaction was to each moment of touch, it was like something i had never experienced before everywhere his hands and lips had touch had left a smouldering heat behind which needed something more, he pulled my top up revealing more scars to my breasts, nipple, stomach and ribs i heard a deep growl trickle from him, making me self conscious i tried to move but he pinned me in place ‘baby we are not turned off by this, we are angry it was done to you, that was Brax’s emotions of pain that you have suffered, not that we don’t want you’ i looked up at him towering above me, reassuring myself that the words he spoke are true, he smiled and kissed me again each kiss becoming more demanding than the last he moved cupping my left breast and raising it to his mouth, his tongue drawing circles around and on it making it harden into a hard peak, then moving to my right breast and doing the same, it didn’t seem to matter to him the scar down the centre of this boob or the ones across it and under it, he kissed them all, showing my imperfections were not hideous to him, he came back up to kiss me again as his hand now explore the landscape of my ribs and stomach slipping under the waist band of my pyjamas making me gasp in his mouth he didn’t flinch or stop kept his slow pace of touching me all over, until he reached my triangle under my hips and between my thighs, i wasn’t sure i was ready for this i moved my hand to grab his but i was slow and i felt his fingers delve between the tender folds , to my surprise i was wet he was coating his finger in that wetness before sliding into me with his thumb pushing against my hidden gem. I held his hand stopping him to look at me not removing them
‘Violet?’ i didn’t want him to stop but i wasn’t ready quite yet
‘i need a moment’ he smiled and kissed my belly ‘i will go slow there is no rush here’
‘i don’t want to disappoint’
‘baby not possible’
‘but i don’t know how to please’
‘stop Violet, your over thinking, this is about the pleasure of finding out what my mate enjoys, wants and needs nothing more’
‘a little one sided though don’t you think’
‘no, not at all’ with that he flicked my clit make me moan unlike anything that has ever come from me before
‘you like that’ he was smiling he pulled his finger out of me slightly and i found myself whimpering at the loss of it, when he pushed it back in and teased my clit i was lost it felt amazing, his finger moving in and out of me as thumb continued to play with my clit, my breathing change short shallow and my moans more ‘that’s it baby allows yourself to feel all i am giving you, he added more pressure on my clit making me lift my hips i wanted what ever he was offeringi was close ‘cum for me baby’ and as if on command i did exactly what he asked of me i orgasmed over his hand.
When i got my breathing back under control i felt absolutely mortified of how he could play me like a was some sort of instrument