Chapter 18: Violet's p.o.v....18

“come on let’s eat” he said keeping hold of my hand which he seemed to have no intention of releasing any time soon so i followed slowly walking beside him, i could see from the corner of my eye he was speaking to his wolf, part of me in that moment wished i could hear what they were talking about, strange that i felt envious of him and his relationship with his other, i had always wanted my own wolf.

Here she was reaching out to me and i was acting like some terrified teenager which i was far from now.

Jaded i will admit to, but anything else well i will argue black is blue. I walked straight to the kitchen “coffee” i asked him, he smiled at me it was a warm loving smile with a knowing, i wondered what that knowing was “please” i nodded and began to busy myself making him a fresh coffee and myself tea, what can i say a real tea belly.

“do you want to pass me the meat and eggs, or do you want to set yourself a plate and i will warm it up for you” i asked him making him grab a plate from the table, “while you load that plate give me the tomatoes and mushrooms i can warm them in the mean time” passed me the plate he was smiling like the cat that got the cream, made me wonder why he seemed so pleased with himself or maybe it was this .... What ever is happening here now. It’s disconcerting how at ease i am feeling being around him. I placed his coffee in front of him and took his plate walking into the pantry to warm his food, i came out to see him engrossed with the view of the garden. Seems it captivated him like it did when i looked out there, i

placed his plate in front of him and then the tomatoes and mushroom before i started to fill myself plate as well, it watched me piling up my plate and started to smile, i wondered if he wanted one of those stick thin plastic Barbie dolls, and not some one with an ass and curves.

We ate in silence, a comfortable silence where no-one needed to talk to break some stuffy atmosphere, he helped her clear the table and do the dishes well he loaded the dishwasher, i knew the moment he felt my mood change, he instantly broke that silence pulling me from my thoughts, walking over to me “what do you normal do of an evening?” he asked

“it all depends if i have come up from the studio early, i will read, watch a little television or bake” i spoke softly

“ok, what do you want to do this evening?” he asked me i could see he was doing his best to relieve the pressure i was putting on myself he wanted me to relax... be myself

“shall we watch a little television” soft and hesitant

“yes hunni, that sounds good to me” he replied

“your not going to leave tonight are you?” i asked him finally i had waited so long to ask me that ‘no hunni’ i studied him a minute, nodded my own resolve i guess i sat down on the sofa, he took it as his queue to join me, he didn’t seem to have a problem with that.

Again it was comfortable silence we watched the evening news, which i probably have stay quiet about some things, our views were a little different although i think i made a good argument to sway him to my way of thinking.

We then watched a movie Jurassic dominion he didn’t seem to be paying much attention to it, he was watching me.

‘would you like a coffee and a muffin?’ surprised him which i found amusing ‘so in grossed starring at me’ i mocked. He didn’t even deny it, which had me taken back a little, i didn’t think men like women knowing those sorts of things.

‘please’ i walked into the kitchen, he watched closely ‘are you not having coffee’ i looked up from what i was doing ‘no i fancied a hot chocolate’

‘i can have one of those with you, to save you making coffee for me’

‘are you sure’

‘yes hunni, positive’ i smiled at him making him return a smile he was so handsome, that made me really nervous , what did he expect from me , i shook the thought off for now ‘grab some muffins from the tin, it seems Laura took the ones i put out at breakfast’

‘ i blame them, you’re baking is rather tasty’

We finished watching the film with several rounds of him eating muffins, ‘do you just make sweet treats?’ he finally asked me.

‘yes i make pies, if that’s what you’re getting at’ i already knew a small part of him, i don’t know why but i found a sense of pride in that small morsel, he smiled ‘I’m guessing you’re a meat pie man’ i was smiling at him now

‘of course, i am a wolf after all’

‘Laura’s a wolf too but she doesn’t just eat meat pies, she eats fruit and vegetable ones too’

‘Laura eats anything, which is shocking considering she is like a whippet’ he countered

‘o.m.g i cannot believe you just dist my sister like that’ i was laughing

‘i didn’t dist her at all as you put it, i am referring to the fact she can eat like a horse and still be incredibly thin’ he was semi laughing back at me

‘yeah i hate that, i only have to look at food and i swear i can feel the pounds adding to my ass’

‘there is nothing wrong with your ass’ pulling said ass into his lap i think he thought i would fight or something but i didn’t even tense at the adjustment between us, i don’t know why...in the situation i would have thought i would have reacted a little differently but no i didn’t i just looked into my eyes, i knew something was happening to me / us and even if i wasn’t ready for it it was best to know.‘what’s happening to me’ there was a little fear which made Brax pine

‘it’s our bond working’

‘don’t you have to be bitten for the bond to work’

‘no sweetheart, it’s one of the factors but there is a lot more the our mating then the bite’

‘i don’t want the bond’ he knew my words were not true, well not completely, i feared i wouldn’t be able to full-fill a Luna’s role

He held me in his arms ‘baby you’re afraid of the bond, but it isn’t that you don’t want it. You are worried about things that aren’t relevant yet, you will be perfect as Luna you are already there as your heart is pure despite what you’ve been through’

‘i don’t know if i can be intimate with you’ there it was my real fear intimacy

‘baby you are adding a pressure to your self that is totally unnecessary, it will happen the moon goddess wouldn’t have chosen for us to be together, i was made for you and you for me, simple as that, the Luna stuff will fall into place in time’