Chapter 53

I closed my eyes but, ain't getting sleep, why? Am I worried? I think I am. Why am I worried? What if it is her? If it is her, I'll convince her and will make sure both of them to be together again. Do you really want them be together? My inner me questioned. Why is she asking me this question, yes I want them to be together. This is the least I can help the man who has everything. But why is she asking me this question?

I think I should talk with Jake, but how to start. I can’t straightly ask him about Samantha, then how? Oh yeah I forgot.

“Jake?” he didn’t respond, is he asleep “Jake?”

“Yes Ell”

“Are you asleep?”

“Yes I’m”

“Oh sorry”

“What was that?”

“What?”

“The thing you want to ask” how did he know I want to ask him?

“Nothing” I lied

“Come on Ell, tell me”

"Nat said you offered her a job"

"Yes"

"Why?"

"Why? She is a talented person in her field and I had a vacancy in my office" oh I thought he is giving her because she is my friend "And, she is your best friend. What more is needed?" so that is one of the reason. What should I say? How should I ask?

“Mrs. First don’t over think, I have offered her because of her talent not based on your relation with her” Oh okay, but I am not thinking about that “Just sleep” he lulls. I can’t no, I’m unable to sleep

“Can I ask you something?”

“Of course you can anything”

“Please don’t get angry”

“I won’t” he said. Pulled my head on his chest to his face and kissed my forehead “Ask”

“What would you do if you find Samantha?” I turned my face to his, his face changed into a question mark. Yeah that isn’t an expected question but, that is not an unanswerable question.

“Why are you asking me this now?”

“Please answer what would you do?”

“I don’t know, I haven’t thought that” fuck he still loves her, I knew it “If she wants to she would have come years ago” so he is still waiting for her. I’m not stopping, I’ll get her and I’ll make sure they meet again. If she too wants to meet him then they are going to be together forever. I’m not going to be with him, what should I do? Fuck Ell don’t over think, that is going to be tomorrow, today, you have him, live with him. Yeah that’s true I have him now and I’m not going to waste it. I hugged him tightly I don’t know whether I can meet him after their meet or not but now, I’m living with him. I closed my eyes.

"Are you sure Mrs. First?"

"Of course Jake, Nat will drop me back" he hugged me tightly. If things go as I was thinking, from tomorrow you are going to have your love. For today, I hugged him back.

"Eat on time" I nodded, he kissed my forehead and left

Nat is ready, waiting for me in the hall

"Ready?" I asked

"Waiting for you" she shrugged and we started.

We reached the destination I think, she stopped.

"Is this the location?"

"Baby this is what it is showing, we have to check whether it is her or not" she rolled her eyes, I smile.

"Are you sure about going inside?" Nat asked, has my inner me talked with her? Why is she asking the same question? I too don't know, actually I'm not sure about this. I am really hoping that she is not the same Samantha. What should I do? Should I go back and have the happy life I’m having with him? No, that is so wrong, when did I become this selfish? He still loves her, I’m his love now because there is no Samantha and if she was with him I’m nothing. I’m just a passing cloud, she is the sky. Okay take a deep breath and help him get his love back. I took a deep breath, pulled myself up.

"Okay then let's find out, come on let's"

"Babe I dropped you that's it, don't ask me to come with you"

"No we both are going together" I tried my best cutest face ever.

"Fuck your cute face, fine I'll come" I won. I should try this with Mr. First, come Ell don't be so stupid, you are here to find his love, not you. My inner me slapped. We got off the car and went to the door. We stood idle without doing anything.

"Knock the door or ring the bell" Nat pushed. I pulled up my courage and rang the bell. After a few moments a woman in her middle age opened the door.

"How may I help you ma'am?" Nat kicked my leg, oh yeah I should be asking. Fuck Ell, where is your mind going?

"Can we meet Ms. Samantha Jeffrey?"

"Of course you can ma’am" she invited us inside, damn man, this house is huge. Almost all antique items were there decorating the room. I think she is British. Well designed architecture. She is rich too, no wonder they were lovers. Compared to her I’m just a piece of shit. Nat and I sat on the royal golden boarded sofa, a bit uncomfortable. We were like a mere unwanted stuff; they don’t know where to keep that so kept it on that royal thing as it was spacious. Come on Ell how to start, what to say? No what should I ask her?

"Do I know you?" a soft voice from our behind, I turned back and looked at her, she is the same women in the mall "I know you, you are from the mall" she came and sat before us. She is as stunning as she was. Nat kicked my leg again "How my I help you?" she asked

"Are you Samantha Jeffrey?" Fuck Ell you are so stupid, you came here because she is Samantha Jeffery, how can you ask her that question, I smiled apologetically, she smiled back. You have become a joke now. Control!!

"Yes I am" thank god she didn't kicked you out “How may I help?” she asked. What should I say? I should have asked her middle name too. How should I start? Ell!!!!! Pull yourself up.

"Do you know Jacob Powell?" Fuck Ell, my inner me slapped. I slowly looked at her, her expressions changed; they are a bit surprised and terrified. What happened?

"Don't tell me he sent you here" she trembles.

"No" Nat and I both said at a time. But the good news is she knows him, so she is the Samantha.

"Then how did you know me?" She asked. I can see garble in her voice. Why is she so tensed?

"We are his friends, we know about your relationship with him"

"That was in the past" she almost shouted. Looks like she doesn’t love him. Yay! That’s good news. Don’t conclude yourself get clarified before coming to a decision, my inner me stooped. Yes she is right I should get confirmed.

"Yes it is" I apologized "but he still loves you" fuck Ell, what did you say?

"What?" Nat and Samantha said at a same time, I turned to Nat and tried my best to calm her. She almost shouted.

"Yes he is"

"Don't joke around, he wouldn't be and I think he is married"

"You may not believe but he didn't get married nor he didn't stop loving you" Her expressions changed, I think I almost convinced her.

"Is he, really?" she is surprised hearing that, why?

"Yes" I nodded, but why is she so surprised. If she wants to she can get back to him. Oh Ell how can you forget that “Are you married?" I asked her cautiously

"No" she said but offended, okay so she is single but does she loves him?

"Are you in a relation?"

"No" good, then I can proceed further.

"Can I ask you one thing?"

"Yes"

"Why did you leave him?" Fuck Ell you are being so rude and direct, Nat almost chocked. This means I'm being too rude. Get ready to get out Ell.

"I was not ready" what? "We loved each other very much, one day he proposed me and I said yes" she stopped she is thinking. I think remembering her past "From the very next day he started planning about family, kids and everything. I was so confused, I was just 23" same age as mine but why is she confused when she said yes "I was young and kids at that age, I’ve never imagined" oh come on, I'm 23 and I'm pregnant "He even arranged a family party and there everyone were so excited about us, our children and more, making me so uncomfortable, I don't know, I was so tensed. I couldn’t even breathe in that rush. That was so suffocating” she stopped “I don’t know what to do, I left"

WHAT?????????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!