Chapter 47

Freshia Ava’s POV

My life now is like a bird trapped in a cage. I have many dreams and aspirations that I want to make come true but now it feels impossible. Should I give up? Is this the final limit for me to fight for my life? I questioned everything to myself in my heart. But how can I get out of this house? How can I win against Eros?

Thinking about Eros, I remembered the resigned look he gave me at the hospital yesterday. I'm sure he didn't show me that on purpose. Is that a weakness that I can use as an opportunity to escape from it? Looks like I really have to find out about that. My mind is back. However, just thinking about it makes you dizzy. Maybe this is the effect of treatment at the hospital yesterday, where when I think about something quite seriously, my head feels a little dizzy. I went back to lying on my bed. Staring at the ceiling in silence.

Instantly the silhouettes of my friends were drawn, quickly replacing the contents of my mind. How are they all doing now? Unfortunately, aren't there any of them who can help me get out of here? Why does everything seem to just disappear into the earth? Again I spoke to myself in my heart. Then my eyes closed and my consciousness slowly disappeared.

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This is the third day after I was released from the hospital and I haven't found Eros until now. I'm not looking for him because I'm worried, but there are so many things I want to talk to him about, including my friends. I remembered the conversation he had with someone on the telephone when I was still being treated yesterday, where he mentioned Martin wanting to help me. But until now, I haven't met Martin.

Even though I'm sure Eros will know everything. Or he even planned something with my friends. Because it felt like there was no way they would just keep quiet knowing that I suddenly couldn't be contacted. Especially Amara. I'm very sure he will try to look for me when he finds out I'm not in my apartment or anywhere else. But is that true? Or does no one really care about me? My mind was racing and anxiety started to creep into my heart.

I immediately shook my head, trying to get rid of all the negative thoughts that were starting to enter my mind. I convinced myself again that I couldn't go down again. If no one can help me, then I have to help myself. And I can't do all that if I fall and get sick again. I cannot continue to remain silent and must start to rise again. Therefore, in order to clear my mind again, I decided to go to the library in this house. It's better for me to shift my focus to reading so that my mind isn't filled with strange things anymore.

For almost an hour I was in a room filled with various kinds of books of different genres. The room is quite spacious with several shelves that touch the roof of the house and there are several sofas and tables which are intended for anyone who wants to spend time in the room. I never thought that Eros was someone who also invested in his insight.

Not long after that, I felt someone was watching me. I immediately turned my gaze from the book I was reading towards the door. Sure enough, there was Eros leaning against the door, looking at me. Our gazes met, but I quickly broke it by turning my gaze back to the book that was still in my hand.

I felt Eros walk towards me and sit on the bench in front of me. “How are you, Freshia?” He asked after he leaned his body against the back of the bench he had just sat on.

“As you can see,” I answered briefly without taking my eyes off the book I was starting to read again.

"Don't you have something to tell me?" Eros asked again. But this time he leaned more towards the table which was the partition between us to reduce the distance.

That question caught my attention. I think this is the right time to re-negotiate with him. Apart from that, I don't know how I feel, but I feel that Eros is calmer and gentler when he talks to me now. I immediately closed the book in my hand and put it on the table. Then I returned his gaze. That gaze seemed to invite me to say whatever I wanted to say to him.

“I know that you will not return my life to the way it was before. But at least, allow me to meet my friend, Eros. I want to know how they are doing.” I said carefully.

Eros was silent. He was still looking at me. But then he seemed to sigh. "This is our first meeting after almost a week of not seeing each other, but you have sparked my emotions again, Freshia." He exclaimed casually, but I could feel there was a hint of emotion in his words.

But I didn't just give up immediately. "They must be worried about me suddenly disappearing like that, Eros. So, if you allow me to meet them, I think it will also benefit you. They will definitely no longer worry if they see that I am fine.” I tried to seduce him so that he would melt and allow me.

Eros seemed to be smiling disdainfully at me. Then a split second later the smile disappeared, replaced by a flat look that made me uncomfortable. “You think I'm that stupid? What guarantee do you have that you won't tell me everything if I allow you to meet your friend?”

I was silent for a moment and tried to think of the most appropriate answer. "You can come with me, Eros."

Again he laughed dismissively at me. “Don't you remember how you ran away when we came to your grandmother's funeral yesterday? I still don't believe you, Freshia.” Eros was silent for a moment, pausing his words. “But I still thank you for your previous input. But don't worry, Freshia. I can fix everything my way. You think all your friends' busy lives before you disappeared were a coincidence?" Said Eros who then showed a grin.

Immediately I remembered Martin and Simon who suddenly went abroad and couldn't attend my graduation ceremony. Then Amara is also busy with family and interview calls from several companies. I looked at Eros in disbelief. He was still grinning at me, then raised both his eyebrows and shoulders at the same time when he knew that I had realized what he had done.

“Damn you bastard!” I shouted at him and when I was just about to get up from my seat, he immediately called his men who were ready at the door.

“John, take Freshia back to her room!” Eros' order was immediately fulfilled by his henchmen, who immediately came in and dragged my body out of the library. “You're never going anywhere, Freshia.” He exclaimed before I actually left the room.