Chapter 80: I love her

Jack's P.O.V:

Since the day Sofia arrived in my life , I felt thousands of emotions inside me.

I've been trying to hide it because I'm still afraid of being broken again.

Last time when I've expressed my feelings I ended up being alone, broken, depressed .

I'm afraid that if I tell Sofia she will also change. I don't want to lose her. I don't want to be weak again. But I can't help it.

She came into my life like a living angel. She removed all the pain that was inside me.

Since the day I saw her I fell in love with her. I've been trying to ignore the fact for so long but I couldn't. She's so pure.

Her eyes, nose, lips, hair everything is beyond perfection. And most importantly her most beautiful soul. I can see her soul through her eyes.

She's like an open book. You can easily read her emotions.

I didn't want to tell her about my past. Maybe she will think I'm weak and she will leave me. I can't lose her.

Or maybe after I express my feeling she will take me for granted or she will leave me thinking that I'm not worth loving.

I know Sofia likes me a lot. I can see so many emotions in her eyes for me.

But..

What if she's also faking it like her.

I know Sofia is nothing like her. Sofia can never be a whore like her. Sofia is pure. She is innocent and full of love.

But still,I am unable to fully trust her. My past affected me so badly that it ruined my whole life.

Sofia is one of those whom you only need to see once and you can never forget that face.

I'm completely in love with her. And there's no way to deny it. But I'm scared to tell her.

What if things turn out like last time!

I can't take the risk!

Max and Jennie have been trying to convince me to tell Sofia everything but I denied it.

I can't risk anything. I can't bear losing her. I'll die if she leaves me. I'm already enough broken and I don't want to be more broken.

Max and Jennie somehow convinced me to tell my friends about what happened 3years ago

When I told them I earned multiple kicks from Charles and James. But then they almost cried. They were mad at me for not telling them but also sad because I hid it from them.

I didn't want to hurt them by hiding the incident. I just didn't think it'll be right to tell anyone.

All my friends asked me many times why I was changing, why I was behaving like that but I've never answered anyone.

But,

Now everyone knows about what happened three years ago, except for Sofia. I am feeling bad to hide it from her but I'm too afraid to reveal that.

What if she also calls me worthless and leaves me.

Every day my feelings toward her are increasing rapidly. I can't even get her out of my mind.

I love her. I'm addicted to her. I will do anything for her.

I want to tell her that I love her. But I was afraid. What if she rejects me and leaves me. So I decided to hide my feelings for now.

When she said that I was like the book which is hidden in the dark corner of a library. I freaked out.

I thought she won't understand this quickly but she definitely suspects that I'm hiding something.

Her eyes were telling that she wanted to know about the thing which I'm hiding. The dark past.

I also wanted to tell her but the previous negative thoughts attacked my mind from everywhere and I stopped the car in Infront of the club suddenly.

I can't tell her. No ! I can't risk anything.

I smiled nervously and opened the door for her.

She seemed to notice my nervousness and discomfort so she didn't push that conversation further. She smiled trying to ease the situation.

How can someone be this understanding! Like how! I can't lose her at any cost.

I will love her forever. I'll protect her from everything.

When we entered the club I could see the guard's lustful gaze on her.

My innocent baby didn't even notice it.

I glared at the guard and he seemed to notice so he quickly removed his eyes from Sofia.

When we entered, Ben greeted me.

The most disgusting piece of shit. Brittney's one and only best friend. I knew if he's here , he's here to create trouble.

He dared to insult my baby and I was ready to break his mouth. But my baby stopped me. I could tell she was scared.

So I just threatened Ben to break his mouth. He knew that I was serious so he stormed off.

After the incident with that fucker Ben , I took Sofia to the VIP section.

All of our friends were gawking at Sofia. She indeed looked extremely gorgeous. She looked like an angel. The dress hugged her curves so perfectly. I was failing to keep my eyes off of her.

When we stepped on the dance floor , Sofia looked extremely excited. The disco lights were making the scene more beautiful.

Her beautiful eyes looking straight at my soul. My whole world stopped.

When she started grinding against me , I Lost it. I completely lost myself in her.

We kept dancing. Sofia's hot little body against mine was heaven.

How could I find someone this pure! How did I get this lucky?

Then came our couple dance.

As the song started Sofia was lost in me. Her eyes held so many emotions.

Her emotions were not hidden at all. She was not afraid like me to let them show into her eyes.

My baby was showing every emotion of her. She is not a coward like me.

I danced with her. And she also moved with me in sync.

I started singing along to the song and Sofia did the same.

My whole world was floating in the sky. I felt like most happiest person on the earth.

Sofia in my arm and holding me. What else can I want!

I love her and I can do anything for her. I can die for her.

We danced and the whole time I felt like there's nobody around US. Only Sofia and me.

As the song was close to its end I saw something new in Sofia's eyes.

They were shining with excitement. Like she found something new.

Without wasting a minute she kissed me deeply. I kissed her back with the same amount of passion.

Sofia is a miracle in my life. A healer for my broken soul.

The song ended as soon as we broke the kiss.

People were cheering. I saw Sofia was blushing. My shy baby.

I kissed her forehead and she relaxed a bit.

When we went toward our friends we got a bunch of compliments. Sofia was a blushing mess.

She looks so beautiful when she blushes.

I was enjoying watching her talking to others and admiring her.

But, our happy moment was spoiled by that Brat, Ben.

He again dared to insult my Sofia.

When I saw tears in Sofia's eyes and all I saw was red.

I punched him right on his cheek.

He fell on the ground and spitted some blood. I was satisfied with the punch.

Sofia tried to stop me and pleaded me with her eyes. But I needed to teach that fucker a lesson.

When Sofia let go of my hand I choked that bastard till he looked red.

I saw an evil smirk playing on each of my friend's lips.

When Sofia requested Max to stop me Charles replied sipping his whisky. I knew they were enjoying the scene. So was I.

I let of go of his neck and he fell on the floor coughing. I could see the red mark on his neck.

I took Sofia's hand and proceed to leave but that bastard again dared to speak.

"What are you acting like this for an ordinary girl?" He asked making me extremely mad.

She's not an ordinary girl. She's an angel, my angel.

"Because I fucking love her." I couldn't stop the sentence coming from my mouth.

Someone said the truth, you can't hide something when you have it in your heart.

I saw Ben's expression turned into a shocked one. All my friends also looked a little shocked.

They didn't expect me to confess this early.

I saw Sofia looked a little shocked. And I was scared. What if she freaks out.

But then her expression turned into a worried one.

No! God! I hope she won't leave me.

What if she rejects me!

I didn't want to talk about this anymore. If I don't talk about this she won't get a chance to reject me. She won't get any reason to leave me.

Yes! I'll do it. Ignore this topic.

Anyone would think that I'm the most stupid person for doing this instead of clearing everything between us. But I just got here and I can't bear to lose her.

So I'll ignore this topic as long as I can.

Whenever she will bring this topic I will ignore it. Yes, It would be perfect.

I will wait till she expresses her feelings to me.

Call me a coward but I can't risk losing her.