Chapter 6

I did it. I think I made Alex believe me. I know what I really want; I want Alex out of my life. Yet of course I am stuck, I need his dumb ass to help me pay those damn bills he helped me to run up. It should only take six months’ tops. Alex will be out of my life then, I will be free to be with Zander. Damn, then why do I feel so bad about using Alex? I do plan to help him to find a place to live though. We all know I am not that thoughtless. It is just too late for us. Too much has gone wrong. Wow Alex I hope you understand all this when the time comes to tell you.

Sophie spoke to Zander every night for the rest of the time he was home. Zander spoke a lot about this and the future he had planned with Sophie. They spoke of all of their fantasies, their sexual desires for one another. They spoke of a way to be able to see each other before he left to go back to California.

“Jewel, dear.” Said Sophie. Hoping she would be able to persuade Jewel to help her. “I need a favor. Zander and I want to see each other before he leaves. Of course we need your help. We thought that maybe you could pick me up, and then pick Zander up. I can tell Alex that we are going to the mall. I can tell him that you want me to help pick out a Christmas present for the girls. Zander wants to look around the mall anyway. So will you help us?”

“Sure why not. I know how much you want to see him. When do you plan to do the little sneak around?”

“Tomorrow, around eleven. I have to be at work by two. I know that does not leave us much time, but, I have to see him.”

I can handle that. What are you two really planning to do?”

“The three of us are going to the mall. You cannot leave us alone. We may get into trouble.”

“I just thought you two would want to be alone. Tell Zander we will be by to get him about 11:30a.m.”

“Thank you Jewel, I owe you one.”

“What was that all about? What kind of trouble is my sister in now? Asked Josh.

“None, she is not in any kind of trouble. She asked me if I would help her see Zander tomorrow. I said I would. We are just going to the mall.”

“Will you be back in time to get Brittany from school? I really do not want you to help her cheat on her husband. She is still married you know. You are taking a chance on Alex catching her. What if Alex follows you two dumb asses? What if someone Alex knows sees you three and tells Alex? Then what will you two do? This is a bad idea.”

“He won’t follow us. He works at night, he is sleeping by then. I hope he will be at least. If someone sees us, I guess I will just say he is with me. You already know what is going on so it is not like you are being kept in the dark. I will not get into any type of trouble that way. I will be back in plenty of time to get Brit from school. Sophie has to work at two.”

“Good Luck. I still say you are making a big mistake. What if Alex calls here? What should I tell him? You know he will say I am just protecting your trouble making ass.”

“Tell him Sophie went Christmas shopping with me to buy the girls Christmas presents. I was not sure what to buy them.”

Sophie and Zander meeting went well. They somehow felt closer being able to spend a little bit of time together. Saying good bye was the hard part for the two of them.

“Sophie, you know I do not want to leave you here. I love you way too much for that. Come back with me. Let the children finish out the school year, then move them with us. We belong together; I want to be with you.”

Sophie began to cry. She wanted so much at that point to be able to pack up her stuff and just go with Zander, but, of course, she knew she could not do that. Not yet anyway.

“I wish it were that easy. I cannot just leave my children. Otherwise I would leave in a heartbeat, with no second thoughts given. I do want to be with you, I love you, and it is just not all that simple. The next time you are home, I promise we will spend more time together. For now we just have to savor the few stolen moments that we are given and share.”

“It will not be easy, I can handle it though. It is going to drive me nuts thinking about you being in the same bed as Alex. When we both know it should be you and I sharing a bed, sharing each other’s life. I will be thinking about you all the time. You have to know I love you.”

“You know I do not have a choice right now, but to stay with him. I have to stay with him until some of these bills are paid. I love you too. I will be thinking of you all the time. Of course as always I will write once a week.”

The two then hugged one another tightly, then kissed goodbye. They both wanted more, but of course time was running out. They were unable to take it any further.