Chapter 10 CHAPTER 10
I walked out of the kitchen and thought about checking on Raven but decided against it. Instead, I picked up the local paper and read through the human news.
RAVEN'S POV
The leather-bound notebooks Jessica gave me were wonderful. I loved the gel pens in the pretty colors there were pen and pencils with sharpeners a waterproof bag for it all to go into. I put everything into the bag and made room for it in my backpack. Clare came up and asked if I wanted to bake. I told her no thank you. She got mad at me. I just blew it off. I had a pretty good idea she was mad we had the same mate. But she would get over it. First chance I got I was heading out on my own. Maybe I could make my way back to my mother who could teach me about who I am. If not I would have to let Spirit know she was not the one in charge. I know she wanted to teach me stuff, but she was getting pushy about it.
"I'm just trying to help you learn, Raven." Spirit said.
"We have got get away from these people Spirit. Something out there is calling me. I dream of it. But I don't know what it is."
"You will never get away if you done practice what I have been trying to teach you all day. They will see you and catch you." Spirit said.
"Fine!" I told her. We could hear someone coming up the stairs. The footsteps were heavy, so it was probably Hawkins.
"Sit cross legged. Now Invision you are sleeping under the covers and project that the way I showed you. Here was a knock on the door I did not answer. I projected myself sleeping under the cover like she said.
"Now be very quiet." Spirit told me. The door opened and Hawkins popped his head in. "Raven? Raven? I guys your asleep, I will put a plate away door you when you wake up love." He said and closed the door and went back downstairs. I wave my arm and the Illusion was gone. I had done it he really saw me sleeping.
"I did its Spirit," I told her.
"You did well with that one. Now you must learn to project things that are really not there." She told me. I liked this illusion power a lot. We practiced it for about two hours. Then she told me go eat. I needed it for tomorrow. I put on my pajamas and went down acting like I just woke up. Joe and Tank where heading out to shovel.
"Have a good nap?" Joe asked as he was putting on his gloves.
"Yes, braiding my hair makes me tired." I told him. He smiled and went outside.
"Are you hungry, Raven?" Hawkins asked.
"Starved, " I told him. This made him happy. He heated up my food and placed it before me.
"What would you like to drink? he asked.
"Milk please if there is any." I answered. He went to the fridge and got me a large glass of milk.
"I can sit with her Hawk if you want to do anything," Jessica offered. I was hoping he would let her.
"No, it is ok, I want to have a chat with her while she eats." Hawkins told her.
"Ok, ladies. Lets clear out so they can talk in private." Jessica said. Clare looked upset, I took a drink of my milk to hide my smirk.
When they had left the kitchen Hawkins leaned over close to me.
"I saw you smirking lady." He said to me.
"I don't know why she was upset your just talking to me while I eat." I said innocently.
He tucked hair that was not braided yet behind my ear. Then gently stroke my neck with his finger making me catch my breath as everything in me tingled. I looked at him I could see he left it too. It was the mate bond.
"Is it like this with Clare too?" I asked my breath uneven. He moved away from me.
"No, she does not feel it like you. Your bond pulls me to you. You're very hard to resist. I do not have the urges with her I have with you." He said. I played Dum. Pretending not to know what he was talking about. I took a spoonful of chocolate moose and at it seductively licking the spoon a second time.
"What urges are they?" I asked taking another spoon of the moose. He leaned close.
"Raven, you're being bad, I want to take you upstairs and make you cry out my name." He said husky. I lowed my eye to him.
"I think you should, Hawkins my body aches for you to touch me. You want to feel it. I grabbed his hand to put between my legs.
"I don't need to feel it I can smell how wet you are. But you are not ready" He said.
"My mother was married at my age Hawkins." I told him. He wrapped an arm around the back of my chair and is that what you want he whispered in my ear, his warm breath wanting him more. I moved my head to face him I was inches from his lips; I licked them as he watched my mouth the next minute his lips were on mine kissing me parting my lips so he could explore my mouth with his tongue. I heard footsteps coming up the porch I whispered for Hawkins to stay still and instantly threw up an illusion of us just sitting and talking. Tank and Joe nodded and left the kitchen. I closed my eyes and kissed him back. Breaking the kiss, I looked into his eyes.
"Find away to release this ache I have for you Hawkins please. I want to feel all of you."
"Raven, I..." he started to speak.
"Don't deny what we both want, and need. You are my mate it is not wrong. Please." I kissed him softly then got up and left the kitchen and went up stairs. As I laid in my bed I thought is this really what I wanted. For him to take my innocence before I ran. The ache between my legs said yes, my mind was unsure. I waited and waited soon I fell asleep. He never did come to me when Darlene woke me in the morning to get ready to go I was mad as hell.
I should have gone down to breakfast, but I could not look at him. I was giving myself to him and he rejected me.
"Today, he will learn a lesson, he will regret the rest of his life." Spirit said. I agreed with her at some point today I would slip away.