My brother departed the room. Kairus stayed in my room, and I only knew he was there because of how tensely my heart was beating especially for him. I lean against the wall with my frail body, and listen to possible words.
I was so desperate to meet him that I gripped the doorknob tightly. He said that I had borrowed anything from him, but I don't believe him because we barely spoke throughout our brief stay here and I didn't even borrow anything.
It was a lie or maybe an excuse, and excuse for what?
It's better to see him from afar. To take a distance glance at him, and which I did. This only happens once in a lifetime.
I discreetly position my gaze between the door of my cr. I'm glad that I forgot to lock it, anyways they won’t expect that I’m here either. I trusted my brother. I had faith in my brother. Everyone did believe him, and even though it was a lie, nobody would have suspected it based on the way he looked and the things he said.
Kairus is dressed up in a dapper black suit. He seemed to have just left a business meeting.
I frowned. He carefully lowered his hand under his suit while I scowled at his hand moving behind him.
What’s behind him?
When he picked up something behind him, I gasped in silence.
It was a flower. A lavender flowers. I put my hand over my mouth. What is the meaning of this? What is this all about?
He stoop slightly and slowly wipes the bed. My heart melted. He placed the flower in my bed slowly. I couldn't breathe. It was a nice, peaceful feeling.
He murmured, "I miss you.” I averted my gaze and blinked many times. I stared the ceiling with my mouth parted.
He makes it difficult for me to go. I rubbed my chest while my eyes were closed. I apologize if I was unable to go back. I'm sorry, and I find it difficult to return.
The door opened. “Why did it take you so long I overheard my brother say, "Kelsey is looking for you."
"What?" I frowned the way my brother used the tone. I didn't need to ask, but judging by the tone in which he used, I know that he was quite annoyed by him. It started when I got almost kidnapped by Chris.
I peered again, and they were standing each other. My brother is glaring to Kairus.
Kairus remarked, "I didn't act like this…”
I don’t know where they got this tension, like being protective or guarding.
My brother continued, "You did these things also while I was courting your sister." And, he glance behind him. Our eyes locked for a moment, and it was like brother knew I was watching them.
Andrew's gaze briefly returned to Kairus. He smirked, and looked at to Kairus defiantly. “Now you know how it feels, he said with a wry grin.
He grabbed Kairus armed. “Don’t be a weirdo. Don’t go to her room without my sister-
“So, you prefer me to go inside the room when she’s around?” Kairus stated amusingly that made my brother was dumbfounded, and speechless.
“You know what? I love my wife but it’s not an excuse.” My brother said, "I'm still going to hit you,"
He successfully grabbed Kairus away to my room, and then I saw my brother’s hand locked the room.
I smiled. Although he may initially dislike Kairus, I can tell how at comfortable he is around Kairus. Without a doubt, we meet people for a reason and live for a purpose.
I remember the messages of my bestfriend. Those were unopened. After they left our house, right after my birthday, they sent a message. I can’t read it, and see words like come, beg, and live.
I waited a few more minutes before leaving the bathroom. I want to make sure that it’s safe for me to go out.
Finally, he got the right flower for me. It’s lavender, my favorite flower. He still give to me even he know that I wasn’t here. I slowly lay myself next to the lavender bouquet. I pondered it while touching the petals with my fingertips.
I stepped back from the flower. I gave it space for it to breath, and I found the breathe of me.
"I…" I murmured. "Why... why did I have to meet you so late? I like you. Why do I have to experience this? You made me feel that it was awful that I didn't put up more of a fight. You made me wish. You made me dream. You made me fight for this.”
I find peace for the lavender. The scent and his scent calmed the pain, the storm and the thorn in my heart, and that I fell asleep staring at it for too long.
I thought sleeping is the hardest thing to do but in my situation waking up is the hardest thing I’ve ever do, and that sometimes I’m confused about my dream who looks like a reality.
The dream I had is so unique. Just in my room, my childhood best friend visited me. She’s wearing a light lavender dress. I looked at her sadly. I grew a lot and bigger while she stills remain the young cute kid. I realized that it was a dream.
She looked at me happily with an angelic smile. She talked a lot. After, she offered me her hand but I couldn’t accept it since a light passed right through behind her. The door opened, and I saw my brother.
It was a dream. “Baby…baby, wake up.”
It was indeed a dream. I nodded and I feel him kissed my forehead. “You have a nightmare. Open your eyes, beautiful.”
I did. It was his worried and anxious eyes that met mine. It was different stare compared to the past years. It was a stare full of admiration. He uttered, “thank you for waking up, again.”
“For one day?” I asked, and he shook his head gently. Before, he looked so stress and frustrated, and right now it was so serene and peaceful and I know he accepted it.
“No, baby. For three days. Just another more days to celebrate New Year.”
I smiled and relax a bit. My brother quickly helped me to get up. I roamed my eyes to the four corner and realized that I’m not in my room.
“You are in different room. Just beside my office.” He whispered.
The flower…
I looked at him. “What about the flower?”
He smiled. “You hugged that flower for the days you slept. I place it to the vase. I don’t want it to die.”
I roamed my eyes, and I found the vase in the window, with the sunlight its needs.
“What do you want for New Year or do you want anything to do?” He asked. I shook my head.
“I’m good. I don’t feel like eating. Just bring me warm and loose dress.”
“Okay. I will buy a lot. Mom wants to see you by the way.”
My heart aches remembering their sorrow and painful eyes. I played my hands, and sighed. I wish they could just forget me at all at once.
“I’ll see them later.” I whispered softly. I don’t know when that later would come.
My brother nodded and he laugh so heartily while staring at me. “Give your brother a hug.”
He didn’t wait. He moved closer and hugged me so tight. “You are my strength and my weakness.”
I smiled and gently brush his back. “Don’t cry because of me, please.”
I know it’s hard and impossible but we have to try. My brother stayed with me all day. He just left when Kelsey was calling him.
I get up slowly while watching the sunset together with my lavender flowers. We’ve stared for too long until the sunset is gone.
I tried and stop myself to yawn. A while ago I just woke up after my three days sleep. I decided to be awake all day to never miss the New Year. I don’t want to wake up again missing the New Year or wake up after days or weeks or months.
I thought sleeping is the only thing I would fight but my heart fell when I heard the news in my phone.
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**“The beautiful model Kelsey Salvador Anderson broke up with his husband after a month of marriage.”
“Kelsey was spotted having dinner with Casper yesterday.” ***