Chapter 16: I'm I only attractive to her?

Anton P.O.V

My eyes open as I felt my Luna hand running slowly from my hard chest. I lower my head staring at her hand, continuing to move from my chest down to my body, knowing where she wanted to touch me the most. I turned my head towards her seeing her eyes were still close as she lays beside me. I stopped her hand before she could grab my manhood. Her light blue eyes slowly opened greeting me with a look of disappointment. I was not in the mood for any morning sex, not with her. I thought upsettingly.

She sat up getting closer to me and kissed me. I returned her kiss. She again brought her hand down to my black boxer squeezing my manhood begging for sex. I again held her hand and brought it to my waist. I detested I felt nothing, no sparks or sexual attraction to give my Luna what she needs.

"Babe, I can't now," I told her sadly.

"Why?" she asked me disappointedly.

"I have something very important I have to do now," I lied to her as I got out of bed quickly.

She sat up the moment I did, pushing her curly blonde hair from her face.

"Okay, I understand babe,' she answers me.

I went over to her and kiss her, happy she comprehended me.

I ran into my walk-in closet and reach for a thin black shirt and a long pants. I got dress quickly and put on my black sneakers.

"I'll be back soon," I told her running out of the house.

"Wait," Talia stopped me.

"Yes," I answered as I stopped.

"Aren't you going to have breakfast first?" she asked me.

"I'll have it when I return," I told her.

"Please just have a cup of orange juice and banana before you leave," my Luna begged me. "You're the alpha of this pack and you need to be strong at all times," she said worriedly.

I almost break down in tears at how concerned she was for me. And I could not do one fucking thing for her and that was to satisfy her need.

"I will," I told her with a smile, hiding my sadness. As I ran off downstairs and into the kitchen.

"Morning alpha," My maid greeted me.

I nodded and went straight into the refrigerator for a carton of orange juice. I pour it out in a glass cup and drank it down, thirstily. I left the kitchen exiting the house not bothering to grab a banana on the way. I did not feel like eating anything right now. As I walked away from my mansion I stopped and looked up within the room I knew my Luna was, probably sad that I had to leave her. And there I saw her looking down from the window at me. It was heartbreaking seeing her so unhappy. I blow her a kiss trying to cheer her up. She smiled at me. I smiled and then ran off.

I hated that I lied to my Luna about having something important to do, but I had to leave the house to see if I was only attractive to the dark brown hair, she-wolf, or other she-wolves my wolf seems to find interest in. And the best place was to be at the bar. It was quite early to be at the bar. I started to walk towards it quickly hoping it was open. The bar was not too far from my home, it was only a short walking distance. Seeing it was open I was very pleased that it was. I pushed the door entering the small bar painted in a dark brown color. I saw several wolves and she-wolf that made me thought they had slept here last night are watched the entire night for morning to come so they could be at the bar. Everyone stared at me the moment I entered, surprised to see that their alpha was here. I used to go to the bar that was when I was single. Since I found my mate, Talia. I then stopped.

"Good morning everyone," I greeted them; allowing them to see I was not here to punish anyone.

They all greeted me and get back to whatever they were doing.

"So, what can I get you Mr. Bates?" an old grey hair bartender asked me.

"Just a beer," I answered him. As I took notice of everyone within the bar.

"Here you go, alpha," the bartender gave me the beer.

I took a sip on my beer and turned to look as I heard three sexy young, she-wolf entering the bar. I took notice of one short dark hair one. Dressed in a black mini skirt that could make me see everything between her leg if she ever bends down and a crop top showing her flat belly and a belly ring. She eyed me as she enters the bar; not paying any attention to anyone but me.

"Let's go order some drinks," she told the other two who were accompanying her.

They walked up to me and greeted me as a pack member should whenever they see their alpha, with respect.

"I'll have whatever the alpha is having for me and my girls," the short dark hair she-wolf said as she glances over at me.

I too stare at her seeing if I was feeling any sort of attractiveness towards her, but I did not feel any. Nor to any of the other she-wolves within the bar. It was pointless being here. It was as if my wolf was only attractive to the dark brown hair, she-wolf, but why her? I thought angrily.

I place the beer on the table that was now empty and hurriedly exit the bar before the black hair she-wolf could exchange a word with me. What is about that brown hair she-wolf that I am so attracted to her? I thought as I ran trying to get her out of my head and to put an end to the feeling, I was having towards her. I just wanted my loving life back with me and my Luna Talia. Not seeing where I was heading as I ran away from the bar. I bumped into Eric. A great fighter of mine.

"I'm sorry," I apologize to him.

"No problem," he answered as he bends down to pick up a bouquet of red roses that I accidentally hit from his hands.

"I'm sorry I almost ruin your roses," I again apologize to him and then became curious of which she-wolf within Burnesfield he was carrying those roses for.

Eric was mate-less and was unlucky to find his one true mate. That was how it was sometimes not every wolf was lucky to find their mate at the age of eighteen during the full moon. I too did not. My father introduced me to Talia when I was 20 years old. I did not experience the strange feelings I have heard wolves talk about whenever they found their one true mate; probably it was because she was not my first mate, but the day I saw her light blue eyes, I knew we belonged together. She had changed my life so much and I hated what was happening to me now. Catching feels for another she-wolf.

"It's okay, I just hope she will accept these roses and accept going on a date with me," Eric told me.

"She will," I try to encourage him.

"So, who is the lucky she-wolf?" I asked him with a smile.

"A new dark brown hair she-wolf by Dr. Charles. Her name is Nala," he told me.

I almost choke hearing him talking about the same she-wolf I could not take my mind off.

"She's not my mate but I hope we can work," Eric again told me. It sounded as if he only wanted to get into her pant which started to make me felt angry for some reason. I hated I was feeling such way acting so protective over a she-wolf I did not know.

"Wish me good luck," Eric told me as he ran off.

My wolf made me wanted to chase him down and stopped him from going to her as if she was ours. I clench my teeth within my mouth once again hating the feeling. I need to get over this feeling. I need to get over her once and for all, I thought. I hated my feeling towards her. I hated that I was starting to love her which had made me started to feel a feeling of disgust. I had to find a way to hate her. Even if I had to hurt her.