Chapter 55
P. O.V MARIA ALICE
Maria Alice, once again you're being a big imbecile, what's in your damn head, it hasn't even been 24 hours since you had a fight with Tom, because you had sex with this idiot and you're doing it again. Tom will kill me when he finds out, but there's no reason for him to know. Nobody but Luis and me know. Well, I'm going home and going straight to the bathroom and taking a shower as if nothing happened.
Well that's what I was thinking of doing, but I don't know what happens, I can't lie to Tom, the first thing I did when I saw Tom was to ask him to talk to me, he was sure that I fucked up just by the look on my face. I really screwed up and as I imagined he was pissed off with me and said that he was going to take advantage of the fact that Luna wasn't home and was going to stay at Grandma's house to go out and clear my head and that he didn't need to wait.
Now I'm here in the middle of the night from 25 to 26/12 December thinking about the big shit I did you must be crazy to know how was this conversation or better saying fight come on, as soon as he sat on the couch I sat on his lap and make affection
- Fight on -
Tom - Tell me, Maria, what did you do? You're making me worried
Alice- promise not to fight with me?
Tom- look worried - ok I promise.
Alice - So I did shit, shit Tom and big shit, I'm so sorry, I'm so scared
Tom - What you did and what are you afraid of? Fucking talk, it's making me nervous.
Alice - So I did the one thing you asked me not to do again. I swear I don't know what happens. I was in my room advancing things so we can make our trip with our daughter, then I felt like making some sketches including thinking about Luna. I lay down on the floor as I was alone there I took the opportunity to drink my whiskey when he came startling me.
Tom - he who, Maria? Where are you going with this story?
Alice - crying - I messed up everything, everything Tom. I don't know what happens when I see I'm having sex with that idiot.
Tom throws her off his lap and onto the couch and stands up furiously from side to side - Forgive me Tom, I promise I won't do it again, forgive me, give me a chance, I promise I'll fix this and we'll travel with our daughter and start over, we'll be fine, won't we?
Tom - Fucking Maria, you're a fucking bitch again with him? You can't stay without putting a dick other than mine in that pussy you bitch? You are unbelievable can not keep a promise even one. You promised it would be just the two of us, no more third parties, and besides not keeping your promise, you've been fucking that asshole all over the place.
Alice - Tom, please, I swear I didn't do it because I wanted to... Tom interrupts me -
Tom - Oh, now that idiot abused you? Well that's the only way you can get away with fucking wherever it is on your mind without wanting to ? - Debauchery - Oh no I know, you fell on his dick...did you trip? How was it?
Alice - please don't treat me like a slut, I am Alice, your friend and your wife.
Tom - No, it's not, honestly, she's neither my friend nor my wife. I don't recognize you anymore, you've only been a slut who does everything for sex, fame, and money. You go around giving to everyone and then come along and play the sorry Magdalene. You know what, I've had enough of you and your arrogance, this air of superiority, going over everyone's heads. Alice, everyone has problems in life, including me. And I don't take it out on people. I loved you, you know, you were my best friend, my confidant much more than my wife. But I've had enough.
Alice - I cried compulsively, I knew that every word he said was true - What do you mean by that?
Tom - I'm saying it's over Mary, it's over. I want a divorce, this isn't working anymore before the rest of the love I feel for you turns to hate I'd rather end it
Alice - but what about Luna? Our trip?
Tom - let's go on the trip I'm not taking this FROM MY CHILD, but you and I don't exist anymore, you can fuck whoever you want, fuck you and that asshole but my CHILD NO ONE TAKES MY CHILD FROM ME!
Alice - no Tom please I won't do it anymore, I promise it won't happen again
Tom - you said that in less than 24 hours and look what happened? I really don't know Alice in what moment of my life I failed and lost you, because you are no longer the girl I adored
Alice - you swear you don't know? Who introduced me to this universe of non-traditional sex? It was you and Annie, you hypocrite, don't play the saint. You are as guilty as I am for this monster I have become, and you are no saint. Go fuck her, fuck her the way you like it, she's the one you always wanted to fuck, not me. Don't lie to me Tom
You can make up this little story that you no longer feel anything for her, but you do. You never stopped loving her. I bet you always think about her when you're fucking me or fucking any of the bitches or Annie, you tell me. But you know what, she doesn't know how to pleasure you the way Annie and I do. Just the two of us know you like no other and you've lost Annie and now you're itching to get me out of the way to be with her. Go on, you idiot.
Tom - who are you to talk about my feelings to the one who has sex with the guy she supposedly hates the most in the world - clap your hands - that's not going to get us anywhere. Listen to me Maria. We're going on this damn trip because you promised my daughter and I'm not going to take that away from her it's not her fault that she has a slutty mother like you. But after this trip we will sit down and talk because it's not going to stay like this. You've given what you had to give for today right? In fact you gave it right? Bitch. I'm leaving because I can not stand to look at that face today at least. I'm leaving and not even wait for me or call me - going towards the door with your car keys and wallet
Alice - that's going after her, go on, you imbecile.
- Talk off-talk
And that was the whole shit, Tom hates me and I can't even judge him at the moment even I hate myself. Now I'm here in my room and I've had two bottles of wine and I'm finishing one of whiskey and what I'm doing with my life I have no idea. She is shit, what will become of my life? Does Tom really hate me and is he going to dump me? Why does Luis have to show up right now? What will become of me?